met my surgeon tomorrow, Oct. 1

[nanacountry]

Up until yesterday I was really still undecided that I wanted to really step into the bandster lifestyle. I really life food, but October 10th my daughter was married to a great man and I saw all the pictures yesterday for the first time.

I knew I was big, 346 last I was weighed, but WOW! I would give anything if the could photo shop me out the pictures I am actually present. I found a really nice dress, looked OK in the mirror at home. I have not gained, if anything I have lost a few pounds.

Each and every roll shows as plain as day in all the pictures. I have to have this tool, I have tried cutting portions, Curves, where I did great until my Lupus or arthritis acted up and put me two weeks behind and I would have to build back up. I just end up quitting.

Support at home is not the greatest either. My sweet husband says it is my body and my decision, but he still wants to eat the same as we do now. I am a fairly good cook and have gone as healthy as he will allow and we can afford, but even this last month trying to eat like I already have the band, I caught myself snacking, drinking while eating. Not lots of snacking, but a grape or yogurt in the afternoon, fudge pop or small dish of ice cream in the evening.


Over all................I am scared.

I have read all your threads. Exercise is not a habit for me, and in my present state, I am lucky to walk through an aerobic set on FitTV. I sure hope tomorrow goes well and brightens my hope for this. I can't live like this anymore. I would rather be dead.

Jannette

[redgrldj]

Welcome to B2G.. Good luck with your band journey...

[Kate]

So, how did it go? Do we need to teach your husband how to cook?

You have a classic case just like most of us...there is a healthy, slimmer woman dying to get out of your body, and lots of external and internal things are keeping that from happening. Once we make the decision to go for it, nothing can stop us. People will try, situations get in the way...but all in all, it is our choice, no one else's.

Go for it, girl!!!!

[illuminationlady]

Janette, You can do this and so can I. I, too, am not banded. Dec. 2nd is my date. And the reason why.....I smoke! I have to be off cigs for 1 month before he will do the surgery. In addition to the diet, quit smoking and a husband who does not want me to have the surgery I might just loose it! We are all in the same boat and the band will help your....I repeat....YOUR body get healthy. So, let's do this together! Are you with me?

[chellesewell]

It is a hard decision to make with support and a "can-do" attitude, so I can imagine how hard this must be for you. Welcome to B2G...that's why I am here..to learn what it is really like. Don't be upset that you found yourself snacking and things while trying to limit your food...you aren't banded yet!! You don't feel full! Just remember that you can do small changes to your food choices to drastically improve them. If hubby wants fried chicken, just throw a breast on the george foreman for you! I do it a lot for myself...my husband is in great shape...me, well, not so much!! lol
I too am not banded (not by choice, I am working on it!!) and know how you feel looking back at pictures. We had a party and I saw how my costume fit my body and I was grateful that we do not have a lot of mirrors!! =(
Hang in there, do the research, pray pray pray!! God (and B2G) will help you through this!!