Up until yesterday I was really still undecided that I wanted to really step into the bandster lifestyle. I really life food, but October 10th my daughter was married to a great man and I saw all the pictures yesterday for the first time.
I knew I was big, 346 last I was weighed, but WOW! I would give anything if the could photo shop me out the pictures I am actually present. I found a really nice dress, looked OK in the mirror at home. I have not gained, if anything I have lost a few pounds.
Each and every roll shows as plain as day in all the pictures. I have to have this tool, I have tried cutting portions, Curves, where I did great until my Lupus or arthritis acted up and put me two weeks behind and I would have to build back up. I just end up quitting.
Support at home is not the greatest either. My sweet husband says it is my body and my decision, but he still wants to eat the same as we do now. I am a fairly good cook and have gone as healthy as he will allow and we can afford, but even this last month trying to eat like I already have the band, I caught myself snacking, drinking while eating. Not lots of snacking, but a grape or yogurt in the afternoon, fudge pop or small dish of ice cream in the evening.
Over all................I am scared.
I have read all your threads. Exercise is not a habit for me, and in my present state, I am lucky to walk through an aerobic set on FitTV. I sure hope tomorrow goes well and brightens my hope for this. I can't live like this anymore. I would rather be dead.