hoping to be half a man

[503-250]

So, first success on this journey is that I am no longer 503lbs. That's a great start right?

So, how does one become 500lbs (503lbs to be exact)? Simple really, first you slow down, then you add an injury or two and you spend that entire time from the first step to the last eating the wrong foods, at the wrong time for all the wrong reasons. Not hard right?

So what do you do to undo that simple process. I am going to skip the fun middle part where I describe years of stupid diets, bad drink plans, halfhearted attempts and I will skip to the end of that tale where I actually find a solid plan.

That solid plan was surgery, it wasn't the first plan, hell...it wasn't in the top ten. So what made me choose that plan you ask? Simple, my wife had invited some of family over to our house and being a child at heart I could not resist playing with the kids. I was chasing a four year old around my kitchen (no more then 50ft) and at best it was a slow jog or a fast walk. Suddenly I find myself barely able to breathe, my lungs are burning and I can't catch my breath. I quickly sat down and realized that my heart was going a million miles an hour and it felt like someone was standing on my chest. I avoided my family for a few minutes and recovered and spend the next day visiting the doctor. He asked me what was wrong and I calmly explained that I had a heart attack. He was convinced that I was joking, but when I looked him in the eye and clearly stated that I was not kidding and that I was sure I had a heart attack, the doctor started his tests. An hour later that same doctor was assuring me that I had not had a heart attack, that I was totally fine and healthy (hard to believe) and then he assured me that this would probably be the last time he would be able to say that to me. He went on to explain that men of my age (I was 35 at the time) and my weight (I had no clue how much I weighed) would not remain healthy for long, and most definitely would not be alive long either.

So that starts the process, I tried a few different things and explained that under no circumstances would I give in and have the RNY. As sure as I was that I would die without some form of intervention, I knew that dying as part of the process wouldn't help either. Now, before the bypassers start throwing their protein shakes at me, I know it was great for you...you loved it, it changed your life. That's wonderful, BUT maybe you're afraid of spiders. I never understand why people are afraid of spiders, they're about an inch long, you can kill them with barely a flick of your hand and even if they bite you, it's not like it's going to leave you without a limb...now a ten foot tall spider....i'm scared...RNY I'm scared, don't judge me.

So, what does a fat old soon to be dead guy do?

I went to a lapband meeting.

[503-250]

As soon as I walked into the meeting I knew I was in the right place. I suddenly felt like I had found my lost tribe. I heard other people complaining about the same thing I was (it was hot in there) and other people confused about the same thing I was (who the hell has a lapband introduction meeting in a catering hall....like we need to smell food while we try to decide on weight loss surgery) and most of all, I saw a bunch of overweight people who would not live long lives.

Now, I can skip most of the next section as well. I think you all know how surgery goes, what happens, how it happens and all the fun it entails. What most people are unware of is that some lapbanders wake up minutes after surgery and they have restriction and begin losing weight. Other luckier lapbanders have to go through multiple injections or adjustments in order to make the band work for them. How did I fare? well...I was one of the luckiest kinds of lapbanders. I was a slow loser and more importantly I had many adjustments to get to my slow weight loss.

Not losing weight in any kind of decent time period, I was extremely frustrated. At one point I actually started to become convinced that I was going to be the one failure in my lapband group. I sat and listened as everyone discussed their success, and I felt like I would never get my band adjusted correctly.

I was losing weight slower then everyone else, I was starving myself constantly and couldn't have been more frustrated. To this day, I do not have the restriction that everyone else speaks about, I have some, I get caught sometimes, but I can still eat more then most lapbanders. The difference is, I have learned that I don't need to eat until I am full. That's really the lesson we all need to learn, only eat until you are no longer hungry. It's something every child knows by default, but for some reason we lose that knowledge at some point. We suddenly eat until we are stuffed full. We start eating for enjoyment instead of sustenance. We eat to change our moods, we eat to make others happy, we eat because that's what we were taught by our parents. We need to remember to eat because we are hungry and stop when we aren't. The really funny part is that I have absolutely learned that lesson, but I still make mistakes.

Meatballs, now...I know that's an odd way to start a sentence, but...meatballs. Specifically, I'm thinking about my wife's meatballs. One of the mistakes I make, eating even though i'm no longer hungry, more importantly, eating until I am full...sometimes..too full. This is important as a bander because eating when you are full will make you throw up, maybe not a lot, maybe it is a lot, but it will definitely not be fun. It starts with a feeling like you have swallowed something much larger then will fit down your throat (like a golfball) and that something is now caught in your throat, deep in your chest and you want it out. In response your body begins to manufacture this slimy spit which some people refer to as sliming, I call it egg whites, basically you look like the dog from Turner and Hooch. Your body produces this slime in order to lubricate the large (and apparently growing) lump stuck in your chest. Finally your body decides to eject that golfball and you burp, or some people cough, some of us just throw up, regardless they refer to it as PB or productive burping. It's honestly the only time in your life you will be happy to vomit.

So, what does this have to do with meatballs? Simple really, my wife makes these fantastic meatballs. Once they are cooked she puts them in the crockpot and lets the slowly cook at low temps for hours in her tomato sauce. I know I can eat three of my wife's meatbals. It's not a guess, it's not an assumption, I have eaten enough of them that I am sure three is the limit. So of course I take four. I love how amazing those meatballs taste and I will eat them until I am full. Now, here comes the hard part. I will eat three meatballs and I will be crammed full. This is when the game starts. I will now sit there and carefully fan myself, breathe deep, stretch, lean back and most importantly....I will wait to have the chance to eat more meatball. What sane person knowingly tries to eat more when they know they will get sick? Me. So, I have learned to take two meatballs and maybe I will go back and take one more once I am full, but I definitely will not get a fourth....most of the time. So...meatballs...my downfall.

[503-250]

Now, since I have clearly figured this whole thing out, and I am losing weight (FINALLY) I at least am confident I won't be the one person in the room who failed. Now, that has been replaced by a new feeling, embarassment. Somehow, I have managed to lose 185+ pounds, a grown adult male yet I am still obsese, not overweight, not chunky....OBESE. Damn I hate that word. It just sounds like you suck, obese. That word is a punch in the face. According to the wonderful people who calculate height and weight charts, I should weigh between 175 and 200lbs. At my goal weight of 250 pounds I would still be considered obese, that's another punch, this time in the crotch. In order to no longer be obsese I need to weigh less then 239lbs, then I will only be overweight. Apparently I have a ton of work to do so I am no longer obese.

Along with being embarassed, and being too stupid to eat meatballs, I am also completely unable to buy clothes. I had to bring 8 bags of clothes to good will (Not to mention bags and bags I threw away) and now I have to buy clothes, but they don't fit right, I want everything long, and baggy and apparently according to my fashion designer (my wife) that is completely wrong. I also am not allowed to wear anything I used to own because apparently it is too big and baggy. Every once in a while I ditch my fashion designer and make some excellent purchases. I recently wandered into walmart and bought underwear, now big people (by big I might seriously fat) buy underwear, we get it at Big and Tall, or Casual Male, or as I have always called it, you fat bastard. YFB sells men's boxer briefs in two packs for $30. Walmart sells Hanes and Fruit of the Loom underwear five packs for $5-10. How is this possible, what was my old underwear made of that the value was seven and a half times the value of Hanes or Fruit of the Loom. (go ahead, do the math...2/30 5/10, lowest common denominator is 30, 2/30 15/30 cross multiple 450 divided by 60 = 7.5 or you can just divide 15 by 2 since those are the prices, but this seems like an awfully complex amount of math for underwear....seems to continue to support my theory that YFB sucks) Socks...same thing. Now I tried on pants, Levi's jeans were $25 bucks each, YFB had some off brand like Liberty Jeans or something for $70. Why are clothes for fat people more expensive if there are more of us? They keep telling me that big and tall clothing is a niche market, then the news says that more then 50% of the US is overweight...so...how is the majority a niche? Anyway, I've digressed into a complaint session. So, suddenly I find myself shopping for clothes in normal people stores, the other night I went to Sports Authority and Dick's Sporting goods looking for sneakers and workout pants. Now, I need sneakers because I've lost weight and my feet got smaller....so...my feet were fat? I bought a nice pair of white sneakers with black trim after I spent nearly an hour trying to figure out if I was running, track running, trail running, playing a sport, training, cross training or one of the other sixty five varieties of sneakers. I remember when I was ten, there were huge assortments of sneakers too, you could buy...sneakers or...sneakers. So, I bought cross trainers and headed over to sweat pants. I call them sweat pants even though they refer to them as jogging pants...I'm not going to jog, I am going to sweat. I was very happy to fit into a 2xl pair of Adidas sweat pants and purchased a few pairs in different colors (this is how men shop, it fits, buy several in different colors and you are done). Now I know that seemed simple, size and brand, but fat people normally don't just assume that a size will be uniform from brand to brand. I wore a 5xl, 5xlt, 6xl or 6xlt depending on the brand...because apparently no one has ever bough a ruler for these companies. Not to mention the deformed image of fat humans that these same rulerless seamsters have (seamsters...like teamsters but with sewing machines). I once tried on a pair of pants that the ankle of the pants were as big as the thigh, what deformed elephant man is walking around with a 30" ankle? YFB dress shirts are even worse, 22" neck, 36" sleeve is what I require. This apparently doesn't exist because no human has ever been 6ft tall with a 22" neck, I am some form of deformed freak, however the 22" neck and 28" sleeve, they would have 59 of them in assorted colors...because there are a ton of men with a 22" neck who are about 5'2" tall. Why even use the word tall in the name of the store if you don't intend to acknowledge that tall fat people exist. That's all done now, i'm an 18" neck and a 36" sleeve and the local normal people stores keep warehouses of my shirts in stock. I won't even get into the aggravation of trying to find a size 14 sneaker, they didn't even have basketball sneakers in a 14....aren't basketball players known for like size 22 sneakers...where do they shop for them if the store that has 65 varieties of sneaker doesn't keep one in a size 14.

This all leads to my current place in life. I no longer need a seat belt extender on a plane, I no longer shop in the YFB niche market stores, I no longer need to request a table because I fit into a booth, I no longer care what kind of car my company rents for us on trips since I fit in all of them, I no longer feel like I am the un-acknowledged entertainment for the rest of the world, I no longer get pointed at, laughed at, have strangers shout random insults from vehicles or take pictures with their cell phones. I do still have to work at losing weight, I do still have more weight to lose, I do still pay attention to my food, I do still hate taking pictures but I do take them.

Where do I go from here?
Recently I joined a gym and went for the first time. I have not worked out since I played football in high school. I really need to get back into shape but at least I have owned the fact that just eating right is not going to defeat being severely overweight.

Thank you for reading all of my ramblings.

[WildAlaskaG'ma]

I thoroughly enjoyed your ramblings, Ralph. Glad you took the time to share. You are such an amazing person, and I totally relate to your yen for meatballs !! They have always been a weakness for me too,only I make my prize winning meatballs with gravy, and, damn, they slide down so easily. I got such a kick out of your ramblings about the YFB stores. You're a creative, wise, and crazy person, and I soooo want to meet you in person before there's only half of you left !!! Here's to putting down the fork when we are no longer hungry !!

[newlifeat57]

Bear, I know I've said this before.... probably not to you... but, You do my heart good. :nod: Your take on issues, life, and otherwise boring subjects, make me laugh and want to give you a big hug just because of who you are. I loved reading your ramblings. Your experiences have come alive with your colorful words.

As I was reading, I don't know how many times I said "Oh My God.... I've had that very same conversation..." about those very same issues. I'm talking about the clothes, the socks, the underwear, and eating just one more bite of something that is ooohhh sooo good. I certainly know how that feels. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.

So now I ask..... Where's the pictures? I'm sure there are plenty here who will be wanting to add you to their stalker wall... Me??? Sometimes I feel a little too old to start a stalker wall. I do, have a reputation to keep you know, and I haven't earned the reputation of being a cougar, yet. :wink2: Please keep posting your views. You and your banded experience are an important part of many lives here.

[wingsfly825]

thank you bear for sharing your inner most feelings. congrats on joining a gym. im sure your going to kick some serious butt..your a gr8 inspiration to us all.............

[sassy46545]

Bear,
You might consider a career change and become a writer. You have a gift.
Thank you for the man's perspective!

Tracy

[SheryBery]

Thank you Bear for making me laugh and tear up....which you usually do. You are so gifted at bring words to life. I've told you before, but you are such an inspiration to me and I so appreciate you and your giving nature. I, too am discovering the joys of shopping in real people stores. Definitely cheaper!
Thanks again....you are truly loved and admired!

[~Shelly~]

:hismiley:

Bear, thank you for putting yourself out there for us. I love reading what you write, even if it makes me teary.

Big hugs and love.

[chrispygal]

Bear, all I can say is that I just love you. Love you, love you, love you! You are such a beautiful person, inside and out. Your wife is a lucky, lucky woman.

[SpookyJulz]

Bear,

I just love reading your stories!! I can relate so totally with the meatball story. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me love you as if I've known you my whole life!!

I am so happy for your success and progress. You deserve every bit of it!!

[Want_2_B_Free]

I love you, man. Oh wait, that's a movie I just saw. Thanks for putting this out there. I think just about most "big" people can totally relate. I hate those YFB stores too. A few months back I posted a question on a diet site asking why do things cost more when you are fat. Seems healthy food costs more and so do clothes. Lots of people disagreed. The companies take advantage of us and our addiction. I am in the same boat- my chart says 175-200 lb should be my goal. I am not concerned. If I can lose 100 lbs the band did its job. Keep up the hard work. It will pay off in the end. I want the end to be 50 yrs from now and not just around the corner. Not to many 300 lb 65 yr old's walking around is there.

[MoOrLess]

oh Bear man .....I laughed...I cried...I felt sad....and most of all I felt so dang proud of you as I read your honest and humorous (at the same time!) stories --

thank you for sharing such a big part of your heart with us!

You ARE going to be in Boise in October aren't you? sounds like a movie title.....

love you man!

[MrsS]

Are you a writer by trade? You have a beautiful way with words, and humor. I read the YFB part to my husband. Hilarious!

You are so very honest. I'm proud of you.

[Stitchy]

Oh, my favorite Bear. Thank you so much for writing this. I think you touched something in every one of us. But in for me, for sure. I remember when this journey started for you. How far you have come and still retained a wonderful sense of humor.


Love you!

[Neener]

You continue to be a great inspiration!!! Thank you for your honesty. You have truly touched my heart.

[ladytonya]

I could repeat everything that everyone has said, so I want! I'll just say that Bear, you are the best! I think those of us who start and really really high weights have a different perspective than those who are only moderately overweight. I know that sounds bad, but I really do feel it is the truth. I have lost 230ish lbs. and would still qualify for surgery. How sick is that? Anyway, I LOVE reading your posts! You are the best!

BTW, I promise not to throw my protein shake at you and I am scared to death of spiders.......

[WildAlaskaG'ma]

Way to go Tonya !!! You are doin so great. Yer still coming to the G2G in Boise, aren't you? You add so much to a party!!

[christie]

I loved reading all that! Quite an accomplishment, your journey. I'm amazed. I'm happy for you.

[503-250]

So I sit here, completely overwhelmed by all the wonderful responses. I was very worried about putting this all on the interwebs, but I trust all of you with my life. (I'm still not letting Dawg drive, but I would gladly jump out of a plane with a chute he packed).

I have been doing really well working out, and now I am sure I gained at least ten pounds back....all of it ego....hopefully something will happen to reign in my ego and remove that extra ten pound swelling my ego has gathered.

[christie]

Now I'm imagining you with a huge ego-filled head on a skinny little body!

[JDru]

I LOVED reading your story Ralph. You always bring a smile to my face and warm my heart. You are such an incredible person, I feel so lucky to have met you. Thank you so much for sharing your incredible story!

[503-250]

Thanks Christie...I do look a little like a bobble head doll.

JDru...Jessica....Jess....I can't wait to ruin some of the local bars in Salt Lake with you. I don't think the night will be complete until at least one of them is on fire or being torn apart by escaped zoo animals. You just seem like the kind of girl who can help with that plan.

[503-250]

So, I really need to focus on my next goal here. I am closing in on 200lbs gone...the problem is, I have been at the door of this wonderful goal for quite some time.

17lbs left....that's not so bad right?

[ladytonya]

Bear, you are amazing! So, in all your national travels, why haven't you graced us North Carolinians with your presence yet? The I could throw my protein shake at you in person! LOL!

[Rini]

Bear i loved your story and you are numero uno on my wall of inspring people on this site

[503-250]

I hate the gym, I never liked sweating, I definitely do not like pain and combining the two is not helping.

To start with, the crunch machine thing...that thing SUCKS.

So since you are all fascinated by my workouts, or...you are bright enough to either skip my posts or block them entirely....I will detail them for you further.

My gym (Planet Fitness) has a special area for a 30min workout.
It has ten machines and ten step platforms.

The machines are split into arms and legs and in between each machine you goto the step platforms and step up and down. In the front of the area is a stop light, red and green. Red means stop and green means sweat, suffer and pray for the red light.
The last machine...after 28mins and 30secs of worrying that I might finally have that heart attack I already thought I had, I then goto the crunch machine. You lay flat with your hands on bars next to your head and you basically do sit ups, but with weight attached. I'm not sure that anyone has ever completely severed their stomach muscles and left them in a small quivering bundle...but I think I am close.

I start out with 15mins of treadmill (at the blistering 3 setting at a grade of 5...I have no idea what that means or if anyone here can relate...but I don't think it's that impressive since the guy next to me kept mocking me...and I would have kicked his ass when I was done, but he grabbed his walker and scurried off....chicken). I then head over to the 30min workout circuit area...I would love to say I am lifting impressive amounts of weight, but to be honest the twelve yr old next to me kept calling me a bitch. Like the old man, I would have taught that 12 yr old a lesson in respect, but before my legs regained sensation and my stomach muscles stopped spasming the little creep had grabbed her hello kitty backpack and had her mom drive her home.

Once I get past the moment where I consider killing myself rather then finishing the crunches...I go back to the treadmill for 15 more mins of embarrassing myself.

For some unintelligible reason I thought tonight it would be a great idea to try out the weird machine near my treadmill. Basically you sit down (so far so good) you turn your body so your shoulders are at a 90 degree angle to your hips and you swing your lower body until it is straight, then when it hurts really bad, you switch sides and do it again. Apparently it works your lower back and side abdominal muscles. WOW...what fun.

The only good part of working out is the hot shower I take when I get home. I love hot showers....wouldn't it be great if we could burn as many calories and build as much muscle in the shower as we do at the gym?

Or maybe in a hot tub, then a hot shower...

[503-250]

Tonya, I promise I am trying to get there, soon...very soon you can throw your vitamin infused protein shake at me...or...we can just hug it out...roll around on the floor a little...in some jello....sf jell of course.

[503-250]

Thank you Rini...I thought you had forgotten all about us, I haven't seen you in some time.

[Rini]

I'm around trust me i read stuff i dont always have time to post and i go through periods of time at work when i am really really busy so i can't go on as much and the two kids keep me really busy but i never forget my b2g pals....especially not you!lol So happy to hear you are losing weight..can't believe you have almost 200 pounds lost that is a tremendous accomplishment and you shoudl be so proud of yourself!!!!!
My mouth was salivating at your description of your wife's meatballs...who could pass that up?

[MoOrLess]

wow Bear -- you are way too hard on yourself - that initial start of working out is always a killer - and you stuck with it AND went back to the treadmill! I say great job!

[503-250]

Aww thanks Mo, I was speaking to someone else who was working out last night (late) like me. I have no clue what all these machines are called, or how to explain them other then my twisted descriptions. I was on a treadmill, he was in front of me on a machine which looks like they are cross country skiing...tall poles to hold on to, and you move your feet like you are peddling a bicycle while standing up.

ANYWAY

So, i'm waiting for the desk staff to bring over the defibulator when I notice that the guy in front of me has been on the cross country stand up bicycle riding machine since I arrived. He stepped on while I was on the treadmill the first time, and was still there as I returned to complete my self abuse. 55mins, he spent 55mins on that thing...I tried it for like...45seconds and could not do it. It's something about the way it moves, very low steps...I dunno...no good. So, he saw me laughing when I got off the machine and said, don't worry, I couldn't do more then 5 mins when I first started, now I can do 55 mins. But he's been doing it since January. The sad part is he is every bit of 400lbs and my only thought was....if only I had a lapband surgery suggestion card.

It was interesting meeting someone who has built up a tolerance for this nightmare, clearly its not a necessity to be physically fit to work out well. I just need to put in the hours.

[chrispygal]

It's probably an ellipitical machine Bear. They are a really good workout and I know many thin people who couldn't do 10 minutes on the machine when they first tried it. If you see a machine that kind of like a cross between an ellipitical and the gazelle machine that was sold on late night tv, that's an arc trainer. ;) They are both machines of torture. Killer work outs though.

[MoOrLess]

interesting.....that someone would work out for 55 minutes and "appear" to be content at their current weight - what we don't know is if this person has also been losing weight since January....so maybe it was good you didn't have a card to give him - he might have been insulted....keep chatting with him as the days go by - you'll learn a lot about him and find a work out buddy too :) [and the machine you were describing - an elliptical machine I do believe - the daughter is 27 and said she hates that machine lol]

[newlifeat57]

bear, I'm with you when it comes to not knowing what those crazy machines are called. I know stationary bikes--recumbent and upright, and I know the dreadmills, and that is about it. But I sure love to read your descriptions about those other machines. I'm also very impressed with you as you attempt these machines. You ae doing an awesome job!!!

[ladytonya]

I'm with Mo. It sounds like an elliptical, and they are EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[503-250]

Here's the evil beast now
http://www.wickedlocal.com/marlborough/archive/x1057991646/g258258f15306691b892211b52f4ba0d55338f1b069bff1.jp g

[wingsfly825]

looks pretty freakn evil to me...in fact im not sure i would get close to it at all

[503-250]

This isn't the exact machine, but the crunch machine looks like this midevil contraption.

http://us.commercial.lifefitness.com/resources/category/1/6/1/2/images/popup.abbench.full.jpg

[chrispygal]

Haha - yep, that's an ellipitcal machine bear! It really is a great workout though and just start slow and build your time up. And see the difference in calories burned versus the treadmill - it's significant.

[~Shelly~]

The elliptical machine is definitely evil. I could only do 5m when I first got on it. I hated it, I actually cried at about 4m32secs because my thighs burned so bad and I thought I was going to puke... but you couldn't tell because I was sweating so much my face was soaked and bright purple anyhow.... yeah, not a good time.

However, the next day I got back on 'standing death' and did 5m again. It still sucked, a lot - but I didn't cry. After a week of doing 5m and feeling quite ridiculous yet proud of myself I tried 10m. It was much like my first episode and I cried again.

I can be on it for a lot longer now, I still sometimes cry (lol) and I look like a wet tomato at the end but nothing works my body like that thing. You can burn so many calories, you do feel every one lol. I can jog on the treadmill on an incline and not feel like I do when I get off standing death. I have found it easier to do it in blocks... 15m standing death, 15m bike or treadmill, 15m on standing death.

So if you want to try it, do it and start slow. It definitely feels strange, and work your leg muscles in a strange angle. Sometimes when the burn gets unbearable I stop and go backwards for a bit. Regardless, I think the very best exercise is the one you will do - be it walking, riding, whatever.

I'm proud of you Bear!

[HeatherGurl]

I HEART BEAR!!!

You are amazing-I can't believe how close you are to 299!!!

[Want_2_B_Free]

Hey all. Bear, like chrispy said, the calories burned is huge. I liked the one the gym so much that I bought one. Mistake. The one at the gym costs around $5000. Mine was $500 and it sucked. We gave it to a neighbor a yr after we bought it. Must work great for them. I still see it sitting in their back yard, right where I left it. LMAO....

[redgrldj]

I love the eliptical.. Mine is missing me, because I can't use it for a while.. I hate hate hate the treadmill...

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

So, I really need to focus on my next goal here. I am closing in on 200lbs gone...the problem is, I have been at the door of this wonderful goal for quite some time.

17lbs left....that's not so bad right?
Totally doable Bear.. I loved reading this thread .. I've missed so much since I've been offline. You're my inspiration just by reading your posts. You're doing great!!!!

[503-250]

Thanks ladies, it means a lot to see this many people have confidence in me.

I went back to the gym...and I wasn't scared of the elliptical machine...I jumped right on and started peddling...I kicked its ass...for 2 mins and 30 secs....it's the little tiny steps that kills me. If the height of the movement was adjustable, I think I would be better...I just feel like i'm riding one of those clown bikes from the circus.

http://www.pranks4u.com/media/brian02bike.72.jpg

["Just Jess"]

oh, ralph........................:bigarmhug:

i sit here with tears in my eyes. i am SO proud of you. in your hopes to becoming half the man (literally), you've become TWICE the man (figuratively)!

:thumb:

and i never knew what a talented writer you were!!!!!!!!!! i would seriously consider starting your memoirs! it is a book i would most definetely buy!

you made me laugh (of course), you made me cry, you made me BEAM with pride, you made me HAPPY to see that my very dear friend is making such INCREDIBLE progress with his journey. i don't know how many people truly know how remarkable it is that you just put yourself out there like that. you might have some fooled, but not me. i know what a private person you can be about this stuff. again, I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU for allowing yourself to be so vulnerable and share your journey with SO many (like myself) who can relate to so many experiences you've had.

i even read a couple paragraphs outloud to my husband... he especially liked the YFB store, as he once shopped there as well and could relate to the TALL big men having even further difficulty finding nice shirts. he is 6'6'' and was a "pretty big dude" himself a few years back. we loved your explanation of the inner struggle with just one more meatball.................... oh, i could replace meatball with SO many different items.

and you joined a gym!!!!!!!!!! oh, i feel like a proud momma! i am so thrilled you've reachd the point in your journey where you are comfortable getting moving!!! i also can relate to the pain of the ellpitical. i started out doing about 5 min. and worked my way up to 30. i never tried longer than 30 though, that was my cap apparently!! but you can do it!!!! it's super for people with joint issues, bc it decreases the impact to your knees! CONGRATS on conquering 2.5 minmutes!!!!!!!!! next time i expect you hear you lasted for 3 minutes! :wink2: good for you! it takes a lot to face your fears - be it spiders for some people (me) or medieval torture devices for others.......

well, i read every word - i will probably be back to reread my favorite parts, too! YOU are an inspiration to me and to so many. you're lovable and SO real. you say it like it is - which is what we need some times. you know when to give a hug and when to give a swift kick in the ass.

i love you dearly. i cannot wait to put my arms around less of you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:hug: :kiss:

xoxoxoxox

ps - are you coming to boise?

[brwneyedbeauty]

Ralph,
I'm so proud of you! You are the best! You've held so many of our hands along our journey. We are ALL here for you!

[kristina]

just found this thread..i had to get a cup of coffee...a robe and slippers....it felt like i was sitting on your couch...and you were telling me the inspiring story of your journey. thank you for opening up to us...what an honor it is to know the infamous Ralph. i look forward to following ur skinny @ss all the way to your goal.
*big hugs*

ps. ed can run 10 miles, but cant do 5 minutes on the elliptical. (shhhh.)

[LoYoYo]

This, Bear goes on MY stalker wall. Maybe stalker is not the right word. I am definitely printing this and putting it somewhere where I can see it everyday. Seldom has a post moved me this much. Thank you for sharing.

[PattiDi07]

Hi, Bear. I found this thread about an hour ago, and am hanging on every word. I can't wait for you to update it again and let us all know how you are doing at the gym. I also agree with the others here, that you have a gift for writing. The words seem to flow like those in a great novel that you just can't put down, ya know? I'm so glad I found this today.... You are an inspiration. And I know what you mean about those damn eliptical machines. They are torture at first, but I'm sure before too long, you will be on there for 30 minutes (or longer!). Thanks for sharing... :)

[MyGenesis]

Hey Bear...I knew I liked you...we share a birthday. Only I was 12 when you were born... (Great day to have a B'day huh?) I think we will need to def have a celebration that day...

[503-250]

I tried the elliptical and the elliptical's evil step sister which is some kind of cross between that and a kicking machine. I tried the spin bike....I even tried the recumbant bike....I hate all of them...I can only do a few minutes on any of them and my knees kill me after the elliptical and the kicking one...the bikes I just lack the leg strength.

I went back to my friend the treadmill....I upped it to a 13 incline and 2.5 speed...I continue to do my famous 30min circuit workout and then back to the treadmill for 15 more mins at 13 on 2.5....I was literally bathed in my own sweat...the shirt I had on was soaking wet, I came home looking like I went swimming. Yet....still no weight loss...it's enough to make me want to fling my scale for distance.

[503-250]

Genesis...the birthday thing. It is nice having others who have the same birthday (there's another one here on the forum as well). It's not easy to explain, but I think it's even harder for the NY/NJ/DC people who have almost definitely lost someone in that nightmare. I don't like to celebrate my birthday anymore, I don't want to even get out of bed that day. My wife is trying to put together a party for my birthday this year when I turn 40...it's nearly impossible to get me to focus on that conversation because I don't even want to think about it.

[chrispygal]

Bear, I understand what you mean a little bit. On the eve of my birthday about 5 years ago now I think it is, down this way we had the Station Night Club Fire where the 80's band Whitesnake used pyrotechnics in this tiny club, which quickly burst into flames, trapping hundreds of people. There was massive panic and many people died in the door way because the bottleneck was so bad. It is no where near the same level as September 11th, but I'm always a bit sad on my birthday remembering what happened to all these people. I can't imagine how that would be magnified by it being on 9/11.

[kristina]

my cousins bd is 9/11. she now celebates it on mine 8/11. bear i will share my bd with u- if u want it.

[kristina]

oh and ps. circuit training is the best thing u can do- according to my old PT.
5 minutes of 3 machines until you reach an hour. perfect. good for u. and u are prob. just gaining muscle...make sure ur drinking enough to replace all the water ur losing too. big hugs..u rock!

[wingsfly825]

Kris i also told him like you he has to make sure he isnt undercutting his calories or he wont lose..back me up on this right?

[christie]

I was literally bathed in my own sweat...the shirt I had on was soaking wet, I came home looking like I went swimming. Yet....still no weight loss...it's enough to make me want to fling my scale for distance.

Paris Hilton: "That's HOT."

Throw the stupid scale out! Listen to your clothes! If you're working out like that (extra manly style) you're gaining muscle mass and burning fat! Good for you!!!

[MyGenesis]

RE: our mutual birthday's ...I agree...I always feel disrespectful celebrating on 9/11. The year after it happened, my husband took me out for a quiet dinner at one of our local hangouts and I ran into a little girl there who was celebrating her 6th Birthday...I told her it was mine as well and she began to tell me how unfair it was that they "took her day from her". We meet there every year now for a quiet celebration and it is a really special thing. DH b'day is the 14th (that was the National Day of Mourning...) we generally celebrate together on that day....
How about Labor day...is the 7th this year! That way to can have a b'day weekend!
I like that!
Cheers...have a great day!

[kristina]

i do back u up T...100%!

[christie]

its my nephew's birthday too. Not fair. Not right.

[MoOrLess]

Genesis...the birthday thing. It is nice having others who have the same birthday (there's another one here on the forum as well). It's not easy to explain, but I think it's even harder for the NY/NJ/DC people who have almost definitely lost someone in that nightmare. I don't like to celebrate my birthday anymore, I don't want to even get out of bed that day. My wife is trying to put together a party for my birthday this year when I turn 40...it's nearly impossible to get me to focus on that conversation because I don't even want to think about it.

ah but Mr. Bear...God put you on this earth and every year that you do not celebrate that you are alive and breathing you miss out on the opportunity to honor those who lost their lives. I lost a dear friend to brain cancer and when I turned 34, the same age that he died at, I cried the entire day. The next year I realized that I wasn't honoring my friend when I didn't celebrate the very thing that he fought so hard to keep - LIFE! So celebrate Bear - dance like there is no more tomorrow....because you are alive!

[503-250]

I definitely celebrate life, just not that day. I do completely honor my dear friend...he was a fantastic human being, always happy, always helping...but that day is not for celebration. Right now I go out with a good friend who's birthday is a month before. We pick a day in the middle (we are both friends of the man who died) and we go out and get CRAZY in his honor.


You girls are the absolute best...you know how to make a guy feel much better about himself.

[kristina]

http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p185/G2otogo/ilovegaybears.gif

[kristina]

wait the title of that one was- i love gay bears. accident! cant a rainbow just mean pretty anymore?!? dang!

[newlifeat57]

Bear, congratulations on continuing with your work outs. You are an inspiration.


...we share a birthday. Only I was 12 when you were born... (Great day to have a B'day huh?) I think we will need to def have a celebration that day...


.....(there's another one here on the forum as well). It's not easy to explain, but I think it's even harder for the NY/NJ/DC people who have almost definitely lost someone in that nightmare. I don't like to celebrate my birthday anymore, I don't want to even get out of bed that day. My wife is trying to put together a party for my birthday this year when I turn 40...it's nearly impossible to get me to focus on that conversation because I don't even want to think about it.

Genesis, I'm another one that has a Sept. 11 B'day. I agree that it is not my favorite day anymore. My nephew also has the same B'day and we used to always go out to dinner together and celebrate. Since 2001 we don't go out anymore. Now we just pick a day... any day except 9/11 and we have a little G2G. That day changed our lives way out here in the NW as well. Giving up a yearly dinner with my nephew may not seem like much, but it changed us in a way I can't explain.

One of my coworkers had a brother that was supposed to be in the towers on that day, so I spent that b'day with her, worrying.... Thankfully he was sidetracked and ended up a couple of miles away.

Sorry Bear, I didn't mean to get so caught up in that horrible tragedy...

I'm really happy for you and your workouts.....

[MoOrLess]

I definitely celebrate life, just not that day. I do completely honor my dear friend...he was a fantastic human being, always happy, always helping...but that day is not for celebration. Right now I go out with a good friend who's birthday is a month before. We pick a day in the middle (we are both friends of the man who died) and we go out and get CRAZY in his honor.


You girls are the absolute best...you know how to make a guy feel much better about himself.

I'm glad you didn't take what I said the wrong way Bear man - hugs! I have gone out many years on my friend's birthday and we send off balloons in his honor. One year we even wrote his story about his cancer battle in a short note and attached it to the balloons so others who found them would know why they were sent out.

[MoOrLess]

wait the title of that one was- i love gay bears. accident! cant a rainbow just mean pretty anymore?!? dang!

ROFLMAO.............................:pound:

[503-250]

GAY BEARS?!?!?! What the hell Kristina...

So..tonight was interesting, fun and embarrassing all at the same time. I agreed to be one of the speakers at our docs monthly intro meeting. They basically use it as a sales pitch for a lack of a better description. I figured I would get up, tell a few jokes and head home.

Apparently the local Allergan rep works with them now, so when he was introducing me, they announced that I was a special guest, and that they had a plaque and a pin commemorating my currently weight loss (it says 187...so I need to lose another pound...LOL). I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.

So...I guess I keep plugging away at the gym. Although...tonight I might be take the night off.

[christie]

wait the title of that one was- i love gay bears. accident! cant a rainbow just mean pretty anymore?!? dang!

I didn't know that bears professed a sexual orientation.....wierd. I still like rainbows. They are pretty!

[christie]

Apparently the local Allergan rep works with them now, so when he was introducing me, they announced that I was a special guest, and that they had a plaque and a pin commemorating my currently weight loss (it says 187...so I need to lose another pound...LOL). I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.



Ralph, that's amazing. You totally deserve that kind of recognition! cool! Be so, SO proud of yourself!

[MoOrLess]

GAY BEARS?!?!?! What the hell Kristina...

So..tonight was interesting, fun and embarrassing all at the same time. I agreed to be one of the speakers at our docs monthly intro meeting. They basically use it as a sales pitch for a lack of a better description. I figured I would get up, tell a few jokes and head home.

Apparently the local Allergan rep works with them now, so when he was introducing me, they announced that I was a special guest, and that they had a plaque and a pin commemorating my currently weight loss (it says 187...so I need to lose another pound...LOL). I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.

So...I guess I keep plugging away at the gym. Although...tonight I might be take the night off.

Bear - that is SO awesome! You need and deserve to hear this more often - like every day! Hang that plaque up where you can see it every day! You're so right - and deserve kudos again and again. You've done such a phenomenal job - especially when the scale stuck - perseverence is definitely your middle name! Congratulations!!!!

[chrispygal]

Bear, how wonderful that they did that for you! Congratulations! The weight you have lost is just simply amazing and you absolutely are an example for others. I'm so proud of you!

[kristina]

oh bear...that made me tear up..i couldn't be happier for you..i only wish someone was there to take pictures. what a moment huh? u so deserve the recognition!!!! u have come so far...and ur still kickin serious @ss. way to go, my favorite not-gay bear. :)

[redgrldj]

OK Lol.. A bear in the gay world is an older man, with lots of hair and usually is a taller larger man.. LOL.. They would loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Bear in West Hollywood.. LOL

[dolchanmom]

That is awsome Bear!!
Brandy

[kristina]

LMAO Pattie! the only thing is..bear is still a youngun like us. i guess he could dye his hair gray?

[Want_2_B_Free]

Keep up the hard work. You have done and continue to do an amazing transformation. From big Bear to, gay, I mean little Bear. LMAO. That was funny Kristina. But seriously, no more gay bears.

[brwneyedbeauty]

I am super proud of you BEAR! You are truely a amazing person;-)

["Just Jess"]

Apparently the local Allergan rep works with them now, so when he was introducing me, they announced that I was a special guest, and that they had a plaque and a pin commemorating my currently weight loss (it says 187...so I need to lose another pound...LOL). I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.



CONGRATS TO YOU! so nice they did that! you deserve it!!!!!!!!!
:love:
xo

[remmi]

I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.

You are amazing! Congratulations on a well-deserved moment. That group was lucky to witness it all!!

[Lacar602]

So..tonight was interesting, fun and embarrassing all at the same time. I agreed to be one of the speakers at our docs monthly intro meeting. They basically use it as a sales pitch for a lack of a better description. I figured I would get up, tell a few jokes and head home.

Apparently the local Allergan rep works with them now, so when he was introducing me, they announced that I was a special guest, and that they had a plaque and a pin commemorating my currently weight loss (it says 187...so I need to lose another pound...LOL). I was extremely touched and really need to focus on the distance i've traveled rather then the distance I have left.

Congratulations to you!! I'm so sorry I missed the meeting this month. I would have loved to have seen/met you. I went to the meeting last month, but I didn't go to this past one because it was on the same day I was originally supposed to have my surgery.

Again.....BIG Congrats to you! I wish I could have been there!

[503-250]

So, I started posting this in the exercise thread, but it doesn't belong there...that thread is for the people who are excercising.

From working out, my old knee injury has come back to life. I was locking a door with my back to the stairs, turned and my knee went out. I fell backwards down the stairs and broke my wrist. I didn't think it was broken thursday when it happened, so I finished work, went back to work the next day and one of the radiologists I work with insisted on xraying when he saw how bruised it was. He saw it was broken and suggested I followup with an orthopedist. I tried finding an ortho later that day after I finished working, but they were all finished for the day. I went over to the ER and they splinted it, but couldn't put a cast on because they want an orthopedic surgeon to see it first. So, Monday I have an appointment to get an ortho surgeon to check it, see if I need surgery and then go from there.

In short, I'm completely disappointed, extremely frustrated and annoyed and as a bonus, in a good deal of pain.

I might be among the missing of sorts for a few days because it is nearly impossible to type with this stupid hand now, but I will be reading and lurking.

[sassy46545]

Oh Bear,
I feel your pain! I had two knee dislocations in a six week period this past winter. It's so frustrating to be trying to do the right thing for your body and have it betray you with an injury! Just take care of you with really nutritious foods, increase the protein even more to help with healing and you'll be back in business in no time.

Tracy

[MrsS]

So, I started posting this in the exercise thread, but it doesn't belong there...that thread is for the people who are excercising.



That is crap, my friend! Don't you dare bail out on us. All athletes get injuries. It is a set back, not an end. *said in my most stern voice, which is pretty stern since I'm locked in a room with six year olds all day* :rant:

[jomarie88]

Hope you get better soon, bear!

[503-250]

Don't worry MrsS, I am still going to work out and post in there, I just didn't want to threadjack in there...it's to important for everyone there to distract them.

[MyGenesis]

YIKES Bear! So the wrist is broken...what are ya gonna do about the Knee?
Perhaps a brace will work and you can still walk and do low impact. Should have the orthpod look at the knee as long as you are there!!
Hope you are feeling better soon.

[MoOrLess]

Don't worry MrsS, I am still going to work out and post in there, I just didn't want to threadjack in there...it's to important for everyone there to distract them.

I am with Reese (I have a stern voice too! lol) --- seriously Bear -- we support one another through thick and thin! What happens to our folks as they work out is just as important as their actual workouts -- so please don't ever hesitate to let us know what is up in the exercise thread! silly man - YOU are a GOOD distraction :wink2:

[MrsS]

Well said, Mo!

[christie]

Oh, Dude, I'm so sorry to hear that! I hope it doesn't hurt too much!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I sure hope you're feeling better soon Bear. I'm thinking about ya.

[PattiDi07]

Hope your appointment goes well today. Keep us all posted. I love reading your posts (one-handed or not!). Take care.

[redgrldj]

aww poor Bear... I am so sorry you hurt yourself.. Are you taking any vitamins to help your joints??? Right after chemo a bunch of old (cheerleader/gymnastic) injuries flared up and I started using a joint formula vitamin, it helped alot...

Also are you getting enough calcium?? I know as a younger person works out, the body the leaches calcium from the bones, I am sure that as adults the same thing happens...

You are in my thoughts as usual.. Just thinking of you makes me smile and even giggle at times...

[kristina]

oooohhhhh noooo BEAR! NOOOOO! that just sucks..from the stones to the knee to the wrist..wait isnt that a song? poor thang! i think we should start a nudie picture thread to help Bear feel all better. :)

[503-250]

I was advised by the two docs that looked at it so far that I need to increase my calcium intake. I'm headed out now to have the ortho specialist check it out and make sure I don't need surgery...so wish me more luck..LOL

Meantime i've been trying to focus on the positive...like the fact that now I basically have an upper hand in hand to hand combat for the next few weeks...so you ladies better be nice.

On the really honestly bright side of things, I received my new pants which I ordered. (I order them because no one locally sells them, as opposed to the old days when I ordered them because my size needed to be special ordered from Omar the Tent Maker) I wear these 8 pocket cargo pants (they call them vintage paratrooper cargos....but they were made yesterday...how is that vintage?) and I normally wear a 3xl...I ordered 2xls as a goal for myself...I tried them on Saturday morning when they arrived and other then needing my wife to button them because I only had one hand, they fit...a little snug...but they definitely fit. I guess I passed that goal....LOL.

Thank you all for your wishes and thoughts, I don't think you will ever know how much it helped in this aggravating and stressing time.

[503-250]

Ithink we should start a nudie picture thread to help Bear feel all better. :)

OMG...have I mentioned how much I love you...and how much better that would make me feel?

[MoOrLess]

I was advised by the two docs that looked at it so far that I need to increase my calcium intake. I'm headed out now to have the ortho specialist check it out and make sure I don't need surgery...so wish me more luck..LOL

Meantime i've been trying to focus on the positive...like the fact that now I basically have an upper hand in hand to hand combat for the next few weeks...so you ladies better be nice.

On the really honestly bright side of things, I received my new pants which I ordered. (I order them because no one locally sells them, as opposed to the old days when I ordered them because my size needed to be special ordered from Omar the Tent Maker) I wear these 8 pocket cargo pants (they call them vintage paratrooper cargos....but they were made yesterday...how is that vintage?) and I normally wear a 3xl...I ordered 2xls as a goal for myself...I tried them on Saturday morning when they arrived and other then needing my wife to button them because I only had one hand, they fit...a little snug...but they definitely fit. I guess I passed that goal....LOL.

Thank you all for your wishes and thoughts, I don't think you will ever know how much it helped in this aggravating and stressing time.

KUDOS Bear man!!!! That is phenomenal - I'm so proud for you! I keep telling my sweetie about your progression - it's nice to brag about you!

and I already did my 'nudie' picture for Bear lol............

[kristina]

2xl??? i think u could fit in my underwear Bear!!!!! i see a photo op for Boise!

[MoOrLess]

2xl??? i think u could fit in my underwear Bear!!!!! i see a photo op for Boise!

:pound: can't wait for THIS photo op!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[503-250]

Kristina, I will definitely take you up on that, we will have to swap tho...Mo can take pictures of me wearing yours and you wearing mine.

[wingsfly825]

Im thinking video on the panty swap....lmao
congrats on the nsv bear so even if your not dropping pounds you have definitely lost inches..i hope your feeling better..

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Ohhhh myyyyy.. I have visions of an undie-a-thon.... I think I might need therapy ;)

[Alicia521]

Bear, I'm just reading this and wanted to let you know you're awesome!

["Just Jess"]

ralph....... first, sorry to hear of your injury! ouch!!!!! but congrats on finding a "bright side" and fitting into 2x!!! woo hoo!!!! don't you have a natty boh tee to show me a pic of????? ;)

[MoOrLess]

Kristina, I will definitely take you up on that, we will have to swap tho...Mo can take pictures of me wearing yours and you wearing mine.

you know - it's not nice to tease me like this! :neener:

the first image that popped into my head was Bear - with Kristina's undies on his head lol

[kristina]

i will be sure to wear my granniest panties for the big day. i want speedos from u bear! i will wear them like a bandana. proudly. :)

[MoOrLess]

i will be sure to wear my granniest panties for the big day. i want speedos from u bear! i will wear them like a bandana. proudly. :)

lol.......preferably non-worn undies from both of you?

[Want_2_B_Free]

How am I supposed to work with all of this going on? Now all I can focus on is a Bear in a thong and an Army wife in speedos.

Hope all goes well Mr. Bear. Sounds like a couple of rough last few months. It will make you stronger in the end. And you might get panties from Kristina. Kind of like a trophy for all of the things you have gone through. You can put it next to the award you got from the Allergan rep. LMAO.....

[kristina]

LOL! i want my granny panties thumb-tacked to the stalker wall. :)

[503-250]

Hope all goes well Mr. Bear. Sounds like a couple of rough last few months. It will make you stronger in the end.

If it doesn't kill you...right...LOL...so i'm alive so I guess im getting stronger.


You can put it next to the award you got from the Allergan rep. LMAO.....

I have a lot of faith in Kristina, but...she's shy on the inside....but I promise you all, if she's brave enough to strip down and hand them to me....it will replace the award I got from Allergan.

[503-250]

LOL! i want my granny panties thumb-tacked to the stalker wall. :)

Framed and hopefully signed.

[~Shelly~]

Hey there Bear - congrats on getting in Kris's panties... hmmm - lemme go back and read that again.

[Patrick]

Bear, I just stumbled onto your thread, and boy am I surprised, you are talking about women (oops, I just remembered, that is ALL you ever talk about). I guess the old saying is right, the mind is the second thing to go. lol

[Want_2_B_Free]

Hey there Bear-how's the healing coming along?

[Neal R.]

Bear,
I've been AWOL lately, so I am late to the party here. Just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you. You truely inspire and entertain us. Thank you so much for sharing your seccesses and struggles. It shows the real side of this lifelong struggle that we share with you.

[503-250]

The wrist seems to take two huge steps forward and then three back. I keep doing stupid crap like the other afternoon I took off the splint to wash my hands (I'm mildly OCD so I talked the doc out of a cast...I would have cut it off anyway...and into a velcro splint so I can shower, wash my hands etc) and hit my wrist against the sink when I turned to get the paper towels...i'm sure it's something you've done a hundred times....but it hurt like hell. Today I was carrying a box (a really embarrassingly light box) and it started to fall, I grabbed it with my other hand and instantly saw white...cursed a blue streak and stormed out of my office.

The worst part is every time something like that happens my wife instantly says...see...that's why you need a cast. Nothing worse then someone saying I told you so,....unless they're right.

I went to the gym tonight, got about 5 mins into the treadmill and my wrist was just throbbing and sore and pissing me off so I left.

I need to get back into my stride and figure out what's holding me back before I go insane.

Thanks everyone for the kind words, the concern and the support. I've said it a million times but it bears repeating (pun intended)...

I would not have come this far if I didn't spend so much time riding on your backs.

[christie]

Bear, sorry to hear about your wrist. Can you do the treadmill with your arm elevated? That might help. You'll look totally dorky, but who cares? Hope you're feeling better very soon. As always, I enjoy reading your thoughts!

[maggieD]

Sorry to hear that your are hurting so Bear... Wishing and praying that its better soon and you find the relief you need soon!

[wingsfly825]

sending you prayers and hugs bear...wishing you feel real better soooooon.

[kristina]

The wrist seems to take two huge steps forward and then three back. I keep doing stupid crap like the other afternoon I took off the splint to wash my hands (I'm mildly OCD so I talked the doc out of a cast...I would have cut it off anyway...and into a velcro splint so I can shower, wash my hands etc) and hit my wrist against the sink when I turned to get the paper towels...i'm sure it's something you've done a hundred times....but it hurt like hell. Today I was carrying a box (a really embarrassingly light box) and it started to fall, I grabbed it with my other hand and instantly saw white...cursed a blue streak and stormed out of my office.

The worst part is every time something like that happens my wife instantly says...see...that's why you need a cast. Nothing worse then someone saying I told you so,....unless they're right.

I went to the gym tonight, got about 5 mins into the treadmill and my wrist was just throbbing and sore and pissing me off so I left.

I need to get back into my stride and figure out what's holding me back before I go insane.

Thanks everyone for the kind words, the concern and the support. I've said it a million times but it bears repeating (pun intended)...

I would not have come this far if I didn't spend so much time riding on your backs.
sounds like someone needs to sloooow down..and let his body heal. ur wrist hurts- well cause its injured...now work, i get u must do..washing ur hands...yeah got that...but the gym? lifting things? hmmm. ur not being a very good patient. take it easy on U...take it easy on ur poor arm...and rest. what is it Judy always says? extreme self care? thats what you need right now...oh and i LOVE ur wife! almost as much as i LOVE u. so take care of my friend, k?

[PattiDi07]

Bear, bear, bear..... what on earth are we going to do with you. I agree with Kristina... slow down and heal! And I'm a nurse, so I know my stuff! Well.... I'm a psych nurse, so I know all about the OCD stuff!!!! lol.... Take care! And I just got caught up reading from a few days ago, and I am still LMAO about the panty-swap! lol Please, do take pictures / videos for those of us who can't do Boise this year! :)

[MoOrLess]

The wrist seems to take two huge steps forward and then three back. I keep doing stupid crap like the other afternoon I took off the splint to wash my hands (I'm mildly OCD so I talked the doc out of a cast...I would have cut it off anyway...and into a velcro splint so I can shower, wash my hands etc) and hit my wrist against the sink when I turned to get the paper towels...i'm sure it's something you've done a hundred times....but it hurt like hell. Today I was carrying a box (a really embarrassingly light box) and it started to fall, I grabbed it with my other hand and instantly saw white...cursed a blue streak and stormed out of my office.

The worst part is every time something like that happens my wife instantly says...see...that's why you need a cast. Nothing worse then someone saying I told you so,....unless they're right.

I went to the gym tonight, got about 5 mins into the treadmill and my wrist was just throbbing and sore and pissing me off so I left.

I need to get back into my stride and figure out what's holding me back before I go insane.

Thanks everyone for the kind words, the concern and the support. I've said it a million times but it bears repeating (pun intended)...

I would not have come this far if I didn't spend so much time riding on your backs.

I deal with disabilities every single day -- that said, I know you don't have a disability - but right now your wrist is dis-abled --- go get the dang cast! and stop doing anything except the most basic "walking" and not on a treadmill...you have to let it heal, or you'll suffer long-term with your wrist if you don't take care of it NOW....I'd be happy to carry you on my back - but I expect you to have a cast on that wrist! :)

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I have a scathingly brilliant idea!!!! (I know I stole that from "The Trouble with Angels).. let's all get Bear.. tie him up.. and welllllll... put that cast on him .. ;) Wait.. he might actually like being tied up.. ok.. plan B... someone call T.. and have her take care of business :)

Really Bear.. Mo is right.. if you don't let it heal now.. you'll have loads of problems later.. but I'm sure you already know this.. we just want you to be well.. take care..

[MoOrLess]

I have a scathingly brilliant idea!!!! (I know I stole that from "The Trouble with Angels).. let's all get Bear.. tie him up.. and welllllll... put that cast on him .. ;) Wait.. he might actually like being tied up.. ok.. plan B... someone call T.. and have her take care of business :)

Really Bear.. Mo is right.. if you don't let it heal now.. you'll have loads of problems later.. but I'm sure you already know this.. we just want you to be well.. take care..

lol...something tells me that Bear would prefer to be tied up --- but yeah I guess we'll just have to let T take care of this :wink2:

[Patrick]

Bear, as stubborn as always. Nice to see that some things never change.

[kristina]

T could def. handle our Bear.

[Shellster]

Hello there sweetness....you have totally inspired me to get back to the gym. I have been doing oh-so-terrible....allergies. (excuse - most definitely, but true) I will get my butt back in those running shorts and my "just do it" tee and get back to the Y. ( I couldn't resist...I had to say "do it" in a post to you Bear and that is the only way I could work it in.) I plan to go tomorrow morning, so I'll come back and let you know if they have to drag out the defibrillator for me.

If the pounds aren't coming off and you're doing all this work at the gym - MEASURE! I think you'll be surprised. I didn't lose hardly anything for 6 months while running and working out last year, but lost a bunch of inches. Someone said you should write your memoirs. I second that! Read "Such a Pretty Fat" if you haven't ever read it. http://www.jennsylvania.com/ She has a blog...she reminds me of the female version of you.....take a look, I know you'll love it.

Love UUUUUUU Bearilicious.......

[Patrick]

Bear, it is so obvious that the women on here really do understand you, and that should scare you 1/2 to death. lol

[Shellster]

Okay Bubba...where are you? I went to the Y this weekend and believe it or not - no defibrillator. I was actually able to still run a decent distance without A) collapsing on the treadmill only to be catapulted sling shot style back onto the innocent probably "barbie perfect" person behind me on the elliptical B) Screaming obscenities - although, I did have enough breath to do so if I wanted, but decided to sing along with the muzak instead or C) cry.....there was way too much sweat pouring off of me to waste it on tears. Yeah baby....I'm back! You're such an inspiration......

[MoOrLess]

Okay Bubba...where are you? I went to the Y this weekend and believe it or not - no defibrillator. I was actually able to still run a decent distance without A) collapsing on the treadmill only to be catapulted sling shot style back onto the innocent probably "barbie perfect" person behind me on the elliptical B) Screaming obscenities - although, I did have enough breath to do so if I wanted, but decided to sing along with the muzak instead or C) cry.....there was way too much sweat pouring off of me to waste it on tears. Yeah baby....I'm back! You're such an inspiration......

lol Shelley -- you go girl!

and where ARE you hiding Bear? wrong season to be in a cave....

[503-250]

MEASURE!

OK...bring your ruler to my house and we can measure each other.


Love UUUUUUU Bearilicious.......

Love you too Shelly.....COME ON!

[503-250]

Bear, it is so obvious that the women on here really do understand you, and that should scare you 1/2 to death. lol

Halfway is all I can afford, I feel like an cat whose gone through 8 of his lives.

[503-250]

Okay Bubba...where are you? I went to the Y this weekend and believe it or not - no defibrillator. I was actually able to still run a decent distance without A) collapsing on the treadmill only to be catapulted sling shot style back onto the innocent probably "barbie perfect" person behind me on the elliptical B) Screaming obscenities - although, I did have enough breath to do so if I wanted, but decided to sing along with the muzak instead or C) cry.....there was way too much sweat pouring off of me to waste it on tears. Yeah baby....I'm back! You're such an inspiration......

I'm here...i'm here, i'm just crazy busy lately. I need to get a break in my schedule and get back to the gym.

I knew you would be great at the gym, how come there are no hot girls singing along with the muzak at my gym. I guess you will have to move here!

[503-250]

No cave for me Mo...just work work work work....I need a break so I can get my life straight again. The weird part is that work isn't really busy, I just have a million things going on all at the same time.

You'll see...i'll be back more now.

[christie]

Hey Bear, I just wanted to stop and say Good morning! Grrrrrrrrr! (That's my bear growl.) Did you see on Facebook that my Patronus is a bear?

[MoOrLess]

Glad things are settling down Bear! it's way too quiet around here when you're missing!

[Patrick]

Nice to hear that you will be getting back in the groove Bear, it ain't the same wid ut ya!

[Want_2_B_Free]

Hey Bear-just checkin in on my East coast band brother. Have a good day.

[newlifeat57]

Hi Bear, just stopping by to say, Hi.

[MoOrLess]

I take it things still haven't settled down -- ya gotta get out of that work cave more often Bear - we miss you!!! well I do!

[Patrick]

Bear? Bear who? Oh yeah, there used to be ...........!! LOL

[MoOrLess]

I know....sniff sniff...he's so busy he just doesn't think about us - off he goes to exercise after work and live a full and busy life! the nerve.....................lol

[Patrick]

What can we do to tempt him to return?

[christie]

It seems that the lure of lingerie photos are the only hope.....

[MoOrLess]

hmmm you're right Christie...maybe we'll need to post a thread called - BEAR (BARE) ALL! rofl

[Patrick]

I am CERTAIN that that would bring him out from behind the curtain.

[503-250]

*PERK!
did someone say Lingerie?

[503-250]

Sorry folks, crazy work, more work ramping up and vacation looming as well as a business trip so I have been insane and in my rare few minutes of downtime I try to see my wife and sleep.

Meantime, since breaking my wrist I have not seen a real workout, the issues with the wrist are done, so my excuses are over. The brace is in hiding, my wife followed me around with it the first day I took it off and kept giving it back to me and reminding me I didn't have it on. I would graciously thank her for it and throw it. Finally, I started throwing it lefty to prove my wrist was doing better. It was a fun game, but thankfully in a rare turn of events...I WON! So I have been without the brace for a few days and all seems well (as long as I don't lift anything heavy...cos that hurts like a bastard).

Currently, I don't want to say what I weigh, but the scale has shown some movement in a positive direction, as soon as I can get to an "official" scale I will post any changes.

Now the travel.
6/20-27 I will be in Costa Rica so...I will not be here, when I come back I should have thousands of photos to share.
7/3-7/9 I will be in Georgia near Columbus...I know we have some locals there and I should be free most nights...so...Anyone up for some fun?

[Patrick]

Can't meet you Bear, since upto and including the 27th I will by in NY for Patricks and Ann Maries' wedding. They still talk about that wild night that we tried to burn NYC down. Have safe travels.

[maggieD]

Hi Bear... I live near Columbus and would love to meet... Let me know.

[newlifeat57]

Bear I live in Washington (state) I would love to meet you!!! When are you coming this way? LOL.. seriously...... I am hoping to visit some friends on the east coast next year, i sure hope I will be in your neck of the woods by then.

[503-250]

MaggieD, of course, as soon as I have details I will PM you and make sure you know how to get ahold of me. I'm mildly familiar with the area, but if you have suggestions i'm sure I can make my way there.

[503-250]

Mel, trust me if I get to Washington you won't need to try to find me...I will find you!

[Want_2_B_Free]

Hey Bear, have fun on your trips. I want to go. At least out the country....

[503-250]

Country or County (orange of course...LOL)

[Want_2_B_Free]

Isn't Orange a Country? I don't know anymore. So many people live here now. Someday I vow to get away from the rat race and live a nice quite life.

[Patrick]

So, when do you think that you will leave the US? Since I think that it is almost impossible to leave the rat race and stay in this country (not a political comment) just an observation that even in the country, our life styles tempt us back into the civilized rat race before we know it.

[MoOrLess]

So, when do you think that you will leave the US? Since I think that it is almost impossible to leave the rat race and stay in this country (not a political comment) just an observation that even in the country, our life styles tempt us back into the civilized rat race before we know it.

That's so true Patrick...I moved out to a quiet, country (farmland) area an hour away from where we used to live. But 15 minutes away is every single store and traffic jam one could imagine....so I "pretend" I live in the country, far far away lol

[503-250]

I'm out away from the city, but not really the country...but there is nothing worse then the stress of traffic and the nuisance of people who have no clue how to drive (45 in the left lane of a road with a 55mph speed limit and most people are doing 70mph is just ridiculous...move to the right if you are not keeping up with the pace of the left lane).

I definitely don't miss my early morning rides into the city for a long annoying day (at a job I loved), I can't even imagine how people do it for jobs they hate.

[503-250]

In a more rambling mode.....

side note...
Nothing sucks the value of losing 187lbs like trying to find clothes and realizing you are still shopping at big and tall (I call it you fat bastard) or nowhere. To make matters worse, I found a pair of Nautica cargo shorts I was looking for (size 44) and I realize...hey...there's a nautica store in the outlet...I go in and ask if they have the shorts in a 44...the little waif says, "no...sorry...we only carry normal sizes". If looks could punch someone in the face, that little girl would look like Mike Tyson had spent the weekend working her over. I turned and simply said...oh sorry...so where to abnormal beasts like myself go then?
She was quite embarrassed now and said...oh I didn't mean it that way. I said...no I get it, i'm not normal...so I need to shop elsewhere...is there an Omar the Tent Maker here or perhaps a deformed freaks outlet?
She looked at me weird and said she can't tell if i'm kidding or not, so I said, don't worry sweetheart...normally, only intelligent people can tell if i'm joking or not.

[503-250]

Adding to the mystical experiences of working in NYC, shopping for clothing and being insulted by anorexic half witted store morons, I also stumbled across a Wii Fit.

So, tonight after work I setup our Wii fit with my wife and we added our Mii's, we started our workout account and weighed in.

I'm not sure the weight is accurate (it thinks im 312lbs) but I was glad to see it says that my body age is 30 and I have good balance (both facts stunned my wife as well as me). I tried out some of the yoga and liked it, I see that being a good piece of my workout.

[MoOrLess]

aw Bear...I have to admit I know EXACTLY what you mean...I drool at "normal" size 18's in every store I walk past....it's the same thing for me - I can wear cheap stuff from Wally World but it doesn't look all that great - but "regular" stores - nope - still have to find the nicer stuff at Lane Bryant....and it doesn't make me happy either...

hang in there - one day you and I will both be able to walk into any store we want (hey at least we CAN walk) and pick something off the rack and it will fit - and maybe even be too big! It's hard, I know -- you are so near goal and have done so damn well...hang in there Ralph - your day will come!!! (and some day that "waif" just might find herself on the other side of life lol)

[MoOrLess]

Adding to the mystical experiences of working in NYC, shopping for clothing and being insulted by anorexic half witted store morons, I also stumbled across a Wii Fit.

So, tonight after work I setup our Wii fit with my wife and we added our Mii's, we started our workout account and weighed in.

I'm not sure the weight is accurate (it thinks im 312lbs) but I was glad to see it says that my body age is 30 and I have good balance (both facts stunned my wife as well as me). I tried out some of the yoga and liked it, I see that being a good piece of my workout.

You have dang good balance and flexibility if you can do the yoga! You go Bear! Yoga just isn't going to happen for me - my sciatica and flipped disks make it near impossible...but I do love my Wii -- just be sure to wear the same clothes and pick the same "weight" for your clothing and try to weigh on it the same "time" every day - it does make a difference. I love my Wii!!! and you will too, the more you use it -- I used to use the Fit and now I mostly do the Wii Sports -- and get a good workout and sweat!

[503-250]

The upside to the YFB sizing issues is that the size 44 clothing puts me just outside of the size 40 top number for the "normal" stores and a lot of clothes I was drooling over.

[MoOrLess]

Did I mention how much I missed you? You ALWAYS bring a smile to my face and keep me laughing....even when you're ready to beat the heck out of a waif....I know life is not always funny Bear but you find the humor in almost every situation. Thanks for being you!!! And don't let so much time go by next time!

[503-250]

I'm tryin Mo, I really am, it's not as easy as it would seem.
I can honestly say I really love my job and enjoy the work I do. I have a vacation coming up, a trip for my job where I will hopefully get to meet some B2Gers and mebbe a much longer trip coming soon which would mean A LOT of good income.

I will also know after the trip in July if I can go to the B2G G2G in October...so I'm excited no matter which way to week in July goes.

As for the yoga, I only did the basic stuff, no one leg in the air with your foot on your other knee, cos then I would be doing more laying down on the floor crying position.

[MoOrLess]

lol I get ya on the crying from yoga part ........that would be me!

AWESOME-I sure hoped you were going to be at October's gathering -- I can't wait to meet YOU and all the folks you already have met!!! I think I'll feel like a "real" bandster after that lol

[503-250]

So I had a fun night tonight, I went to the lapband meeting, enjoyed interacting with the new people who were all looking for information from the long timer and reminded myself of the rules of the road which is good. I find I do much better when I show up and get a dose of accountability.

I weighed in officially and I past 190lbs finally...191lbs down, 62lbs to go. Less then 10lbs to the next tattoo...I need to find a dragon that looks right and fits with what I have now.

[Patrick]

Bear, well done on the weight loss. Too funny hearing how you 'diplomatically' handled that ignorant sales clerk, but know that feeling well. Nice to see you posting a lot more now. I know that your schedule can be hectic sometimes, but enjoy when you get back in touch.

[dolchanmom]

Great job Bear!!! Love your stories!

Brandy

[firefighter30603]

In a more rambling mode.....

side note...
Nothing sucks the value of losing 187lbs like trying to find clothes and realizing you are still shopping at big and tall (I call it you fat bastard) or nowhere. To make matters worse, I found a pair of Nautica cargo shorts I was looking for (size 44) and I realize...hey...there's a nautica store in the outlet...I go in and ask if they have the shorts in a 44...the little waif says, "no...sorry...we only carry normal sizes". If looks could punch someone in the face, that little girl would look like Mike Tyson had spent the weekend working her over. I turned and simply said...oh sorry...so where to abnormal beasts like myself go then?
She was quite embarrassed now and said...oh I didn't mean it that way. I said...no I get it, i'm not normal...so I need to shop elsewhere...is there an Omar the Tent Maker here or perhaps a deformed freaks outlet?
She looked at me weird and said she can't tell if i'm kidding or not, so I said, don't worry sweetheart...normally, only intelligent people can tell if i'm joking or not.


I really really like the way you handled that. Its kind of like the looks that i get when I go into Banana Republic and some of the other "skinny" people stores. (I have a skinny friend that loves to shop there)... the people just kind of look at you like... what are you doing in here you freak...


On a more serious note thanks so much for this thread. I have truly enjoyed reading it and knowing that someone else has gone through the same things. Have fun on your upcoming trips!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Well done on your weight loss Bear!! And for that mindless twit.. I wished I could have seen her expression. Normally when something or someone says something like that to me.. I don't think fast enough, the fret about what I 'could' have said.

I hope you'll be able to come to B2G in October too!!

["Just Jess"]

how about this (sorry jess)

jess P and I went on the ruby walk last weekend and a reporter (some teeny little thing, at that) came over and wanted to talk with us afterwards. jess had shared her before pic with ruby and OF COURSE everyone went crazy at her progress... anyway, the reporter asked something to the effect of "what can you do now that you could not do before" and jess spoke rollercoasters and seatbelt extenders, etc.. etc.. the reporter stops and asks............. "what is a seatbelt extender"............. awkward silence...............

jess was so peeved - rightfully so. don't send some uneducated little twerp to report on a walk with an obese woman and all her followers.

jerk!

[kristina]

bear..just got home..had to stop by and blow ya a kiss! smooches!

[503-250]

So, We landed on Saturday and drove a few hrs from the airport to the hotel near the volcano. That night, we settled in, walked around, had dinner and went to bed.

Early the next morning we headed to the local town, had breakfast at a small shop and then drove up to see the volcano. We saw the volcano from several locations and took hundreds of pictures of EVERYTHING. Then starts the exercise. We walked several thousand meters to see different views of the volcano and tons of birds and other animals. After that another few thousands meters down into a valley where there was a beautiful waterfall (at the base of slippery treacherous downhill crazy trails) then back up the crazy trail again. We followed this up with another short walk back to the reception area through beautiful plants and flowers. Back to the hotel for some delicious food at a small restaurant and then back to the hotel for a swim and then a nice long soak in their natural hot springs.

On the third day we went into the canopy for a trek through the jungle on hanging bridges. Two and a half miles of some of the most beautiful sites I have ever seen. Tons of pictures of snakes, frogs, monkeys and other assorted canopy life. We ended our day with a nice swim in the pool and then dinner in town again.

Day four was a long walk up and downhill through the beyond imaginably beautiful butterfly gardens near the volcano...tons more pictures of butterflies (including in my hand, on my leg and on my shoulder.
We have just arrived (a few hrs ago) in Tamarindo at our new hotel just a block from the beach in this beautiful hotel.

I added some pics below and will post more when I get home.

["Just Jess"]

GORGEOUS pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[wingsfly825]

wow sounds like your having such an awesome time..the pictures look beautiful..natural hot springs , great food , butterflies it all sound great bear enjoy

[MoOrLess]

absolutely amazing Bear! can't wait to see more pictures..........it's too bad you aren't getting a lot of exercise in lol

[firefighter30603]

IM SOOOO Jealous Bear!!! Have fun!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I love that picture Bear!!! I'm not sure I'd like to walk on that rope bridge but heyyyyyyyyyyy.. I'm afraid of heights unless I have steel around me... lol I'm so happy you're enjoying yourselves... you deserve it.. and so does your honey :)

[maggieD]

Wow... those are awesome pictures... so beautiful. Glad to hear your having a great time. Enjoy!

[MrsS]

Wow! I was calculating all that hiking in my head. That is a Before/After success story. You are making the most of your new life!

Those pics look like something out of a travel magazine. Wow.

[503-250]

Thank you so much for your comments, compliments and jealousy. I can't even begin to tell you how different I feel on this vacation. I have run and climbed and jumped and hiked all over the place and it constantly reminds me how I didn't do any of this when I was in Hawaii on my honeymoon. I realize now more then ever how much my wife has quietly suffered through...how do I repay this wonderful woman? The other day when we hiked to the waterfall we were almost back to the car when she just had to sit...the poor kid was exhausted...and the jackass I am, I turned stunned and said..."I can't believe i'm in better shape then you".

Yes...I know...let me stand still for a few seconds here while you throw things at me and call me names...I deserve it.

Luckily, she took it very well...all I meant was normally she would have to do this stuff without me, or wait for me to feel good enough to continue moving (keeping in mind this would be for torturesome stuff like climbing stairs) and now suddenly I had out lasted her...it wasn't meant to sound as stupid and mean as it came out, it was just supposed to be shock and suprise.

Anywho...time for dinner here, yesterday when we arrived...after we settled in...I took this picture of the sunset here in Tamarindo from our balcony.

[MoOrLess]

can't wait to see the picture once it's approved...uh Bear - I won't hit you - I get it -- sadly, I said the same dumb thing when I walked around the track as my sweetie and I exercised and in shock, I realized I had left him behind by 1/2 a track and was like what's up with you? I didn't mean it the way I said it either -- it's just "different" to have the kind of energy and stamina that comes with weight loss! You go Bear! just be kinder to your worn out wife lol

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Can't wait to see the picture either Bear.. sounds like you guys are having a great time. Have fun (I know you are) and just totally enjoy this wonderful experience you've earned. Get your wife some diamonds.. that that works for me when Max says something kinda on the 'stupid' side ;) (noooooooooo I don't get diamonds.. I wish!!!!) :)

[Want_2_B_Free]

Glad your vacation is going well. You have definetely inspired me to keep on going strong during this pre-op phase. I am down 30 and hope to get 15-20 more off before surgery. Even though I didn't start at the same weight, I know of the same struggles. Thanks for sharing, it really does help to see where I can get to.

[ladytonya]

Bear, those pictures are absolutely amazing! I've been looking at what you've posted on Facebook and that is an absolutely beautiful country. I spent 6 weeks in San Jose when I was in high school. We went to the volcano, to Tamarindo, to Puntarenas, and several other places that I can't remember. I wish I could go back, I was too scared to do the hanging bridges. I didn't think they would hold me! Looks like ya'll are having a blast, and I'm sure your hunny understood what you meant. I have the same problem with my hunny. When we were the same size, he could run circles around me. Now, I sometimes leave him behind without realizing it. Sometimes it is hard to slow down enough so he can keep up. He says he's happy for me, but I still feel bad. Anyway, have a wonderful rest of your vacation! Can't wait to see more pics!

[503-250]

Clearly I have slipped into the lazy mode.

I don't remember it happening, it wasn't an announcement I made or a decision I thought about. I woke up this morning and realized I haven't been to the gym, I haven't ridden my bike, I haven't gone for a walk, i've been lazing around watching movies and tv and not moving.

The sick part is that I realized this early this morning and have done nothing about it. I wonder what gets into our heads and settles in comfortable with the thought that we are undoing all the good work we have done. Stopping short of nearby goals and getting frustrated even though we know we are doing it to ourselves.

I am watching a show on discovery about a young man who lost 400lbs naturally and is now trying to go on his first dates, get his first kiss, start his life.....it's interesting, he's been through so much more difficult trials in my mind, but the thing I find easiest he's tortured by. He can't flirt, he can't talk to girls, he's brutally shy. I need a little of his inspiration, he needs a little of my ego....how can I arrange for this trade?

(I'm also really jealous of the surgeries he was given as gifts based on the tremendous amount of work he's done. Skin removal, dental and facial surgeries. I'd settle for the skin removal and determination.)

So...as a closing note...Good luck to David...i'm overwhelmed by your success and it's going to inspire me this week to get my lazy ass back into the gym.

[Patrick]

Bear, amazing photos, you two were obviously having a great time. And as far as exercise, you are going to get plenty during football season, so you had better start warming up now. lol

[MrsS]

You'd better get your butt to the gym, mister! You have a weight loss challenge named after you....IN YOUR HONOR! I will not have you sabotaging yourself that way! *said in a stern, slightly raised voice* Your friends here are counting on you! *said in a softer, more sensitive voice*

Although....I probably shouldn't be lecturing you, since I'm still sitting on the bed, laptop on lap, cappuccino in hand. ;)

[MoOrLess]

I concur with everyone else - as you said - get your ass back to the gym! That goal of 59 lbs is just around the corner -- come on Bear you can do this! (and not meant in an inappropriate way at all - but I had a dream two nights ago about YOU -- yup, we were all meeting up somewhere - probably in Boise :) -- and I was shocked at how SMALL you were lol....so get to it! Make my dreams come true lol)

[Patrick]

Hey, all, lets remember that this is supposed to be a family friendly site LOL LOL LOL

[MoOrLess]

Hey, all, lets remember that this is supposed to be a family friendly site LOL LOL LOL

yup it IS - that's why we can hollar at one another when we need to :wink2: and either people don't listen or don't take offense lol

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

<--- me standing on a chair with hands on hips.. giving Bear my famous "why ya laying your ears back at me" look (it works with Max ;) ) saying.. you better get to the gym Mister Man. (there.. did that help?)

[503-250]

Bear, amazing photos, you two were obviously having a great time. And as far as exercise, you are going to get plenty during football season, so you had better start warming up now. lol

I know, that Niner choice is going to hurt...but it's ok, I have two niner's jerseys that are just a little too tight for my taste. Perhaps their consecutive losses will push me over the edge.


You'd better get your butt to the gym, mister! You have a weight loss challenge named after you....IN YOUR HONOR! I will not have you sabotaging yourself that way! *said in a stern, slightly raised voice* Your friends here are counting on you! *said in a softer, more sensitive voice*

So...i'm sure P'Nut will be editing this but...is it wrong that I find that TOTALLY SEXY!! (it didn't hurt that you managed to slip in that you were in bed...LOL)



I concur with everyone else - as you said - get your ass back to the gym! That goal of 59 lbs is just around the corner -- come on Bear you can do this! (and not meant in an inappropriate way at all - but I had a dream two nights ago about YOU -- yup, we were all meeting up somewhere - probably in Boise :) -- and I was shocked at how SMALL you were lol....so get to it! Make my dreams come true lol)

Mo, I always knew you were having dirty dreams about me....admitting them in public is so brave but....DETAILS...I need all the dirty filthy details. I noticed you said ALL....so...this was an orgy?


<--- me standing on a chair with hands on hips.. giving Bear my famous "why ya laying your ears back at me" look (it works with Max ;) ) saying.. you better get to the gym Mister Man. (there.. did that help?)

I think if I had a photo of this, it would definitely work....so whattya say....time for a photo to get me back in the gym?

[Want_2_B_Free]

Bear-a big thanks. For what you way ask? Getting me back to exercising. I took 2 days off, then it turned to three, and then turned to four. I read your post and pushed myself to hit the exercises again. I did 30 min. of cardio last night. I did 20 min. this morning before work and have added 30 min in the evening to tonight's schedule. My knee had been hurting and was using that as my excuse. Well it is still sore, but I knew I could get through and I did. It's your turn, just do it...(I hope Nike mails me a check for advertising LOL).

[PattiDi07]

So, Bear, did you exercise today??? I was a slacker and did not.... I was up a lot through night with this frickin' knee!!!! So yeah, that was my excuse today.... Some day I hope to replace my eating obsessions with exercising obsessions.

And Monte, if you get that check from Nike, be sure to let me know.... I'll start dropping slogans and jingles on here all the time! Right now, the only one that comes to mind is "have it your way... have it your way ... hold the pickle, hold the lettuce, special orders don't upset us.... all we ask is that you let us serve it your way." But on a weight-loss web-site, it just doesn't seem to fit! lol.....

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Maybe when I lose a little more weight I'll get on that chair for a picture. :)

[Patrick]

Hey, don't put it off, climb on that chair now, even if you need help. The picture would be awesome.

[MrsS]

So, Bear, stop avoiding the question. Have you been to the gym???

[MoOrLess]

yeah, inquiring minds want to know!

[Patrick]

Well, it sure seems quiet over there!!!!!!

[MrsS]

I think Bear is avoiding the question....

[PattiDi07]

Or he's so busy at THE GYM, he doesn't have time to chat!!! ???

[TwinMom]

Hi Bear -

TwinMom here. I have been out of the loop for a while and am trying to catch back up with the "regulars." I have always found your posts - no matter where they are - very funny and heart-warming. Once again, you didn't let me down when I found this thread. I have laughed out loud a couple times! You really are a blessing to this site. Hey, hook me up with the link to all your vacation pics. The few I saw on here were gorgeous and I would love to see more. Thanks! And....get to the gym !!

[PattiDi07]

Youuuuuu-hoooooooo..... anybody home??? We miss you!!!!!

[MoOrLess]

I think Bear's picture is actually on so many "female" stalker walls that he gets kidnapped at least once a month!!! So when he goes missing - just hollar and say hey - share that gorgeous hunk with the rest of us!!!!

:)

[kristina]

jumpin on the band wagon....*waves* hiya Bear. miss u!

[503-250]

Sorry folks, simple update...I spent a week of quality time in Georgia, there was a lot of heat, a lot of exercise and several PB moments.

I have not yet been back to the gym, but in my defense I have been traveling an insane amount and it has not stopped, hopefully I will be in California next week...we shall see.

In the meantime, I need to get to the gym, clearly i'm going to need that chair picture to make this happen.

[maggieD]

I just hate that I didn't get to meet you Bear... but oh well maybe next time if you are close to the area...

Wishing you success on your goals!!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Workin' on the chair picture :)

[kristina]

bear- u were in my neck of the woods. hot aint it? :) lots of pretty girls though. (if they have all of their teeth)
missed ya! hope ur back for a bit. smooches.

[Patrick]

Glad to see you back on the scene Bear. It ain't the same without you.

[MoOrLess]

:pound:
bear- u were in my neck of the woods. hot aint it? :) lots of pretty girls though. (if they have all of their teeth)
missed ya! hope ur back for a bit. smooches.

:pound: on the teeth comment!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I was in the back woods area of NC and saw a lady sitting on her front porch with a spit can about 5 feet from her and she MADE a perfect shot.. no teeth :) What a favorite memory of my time there.. I loved it!!!

[Patrick]

Hey, stop talkin' 'bout my mamma!!!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Mum's the word ;)

["Just Jess"]

just popping by to say HI to my dear friend, ralph... love ya!!! xo

[503-250]

Love you and miss you all, it's going to be a while in between my next updates. I'm not going to go into a lot of details publicly, but I can say that Thursday I will be flying from NY to DC and then from DC to Kuwait. After some time in Kuwait I will be moving to Iraq.

I promise to post some pictures and keep my updates coming as soon and as often as I can.

[MoOrLess]

Oh Bear...thank you for letting us know that you'll be traveling out of the country and WHERE...I know those are not the most peaceful situations and will be saying extra prayers for you during this time. Sounds like you'll be gone for a while this time - I'll pray for patience and peace for your wife too. Check in when you can - obviously we understand you won't be able to do that all that often. HUGS! Hope you're feeling great and staying healthy!

[PattiDi07]

Yeah, what Mo said..... Take care, Bear!!!! And when you can get online, you know that we'll all be waiting here! :D

[Patrick]

We will be thinking of you Bear. Hope you enjoy your trip.

[kristina]

i will be praying. take care of our heros! and thank you for all you do to make their lives easier. ur a blessing to the armed forces.

[Want_2_B_Free]

How long in Iraq? Is the Mrs. moving too or flying solo? Got desert?

[MrsS]

This is distressing to me. Is this something you are happy about? I am out of the loop. :ohwell:

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you Bear.. hoping you made it safe and sound and will continue to be safe and sound.. we sure miss you here.

[MoOrLess]

I think it's just another day in the life of a Bear at work :)

but you are missed terribly - that's for sure!!!!

["Just Jess"]

finally time, eh??? please be safe and communicate as often as you can! keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!! ;)

love ya! xo

[503-250]

Hi all...safe and sound here in Iraq right now...

I spent several hours on a runway in a c-130 in full armor at 115f and then flew for two hrs to get here...but I am here. The base I am on is TREMENDOUS and I have to walk everywhere so I am sure I will be dumping off some of this excess poundage before I come home.

Hope you don't miss me too much, I will try to post some fun pics for ya!

[MoOrLess]

wow Bear - body armor - base - yup I'd say we're glad you posted that all is well!!! And yes, most bases are huge - so you'll definitely be changing that ticker!

continued prayers for your safety!

[firefighter30603]

Thanks for the update Bear, be safe!!! And keep us posted on the pounds you drop!!

[Patrick]

Bear, trust you to find the silver lining, with the potential exercise plus the heat will probably cut your appetite. Keep us posted. Looking forward to any pics that you can post (that will get through OUR censors here).

["Just Jess"]

glad to hear you're safe! stay that way!!!!! xo

[Stitchy]

Bear, thanks for letting us know you are safe and sound. PLEASE keep posting so us worry warts don't stress.

[503-250]

I'm not sure how many of you follow this thread, or have me as a friend on Facebook, but I recently added a picture of me that was taken in full body armour while flying around Iraq in a blackhawk...i'm actually really have a good time, but it is REALLY hot here.

I just wanted to thank everyone for the kind words, the warm wishes and of course the fantastic words of encouragement. I will try and drop in as often as I can, i'm moving around quite a bit right now, but you will definitely see more of me as I settle in.

Be good everyone...and don't forget there is a birthday challenge going on. I am going to turn 40 here in the sandbox...so you people have to really kick some serious butt!

[redgrldj]

Bear post an address for us..My nephew has done a few tours over there and he always needed stuff, plus we need to send stuff for your b-day... kKeep safe..

[PattiDi07]

Hi, Bear! Glad to see you here again. How would I find you on facebook? I don't know your name! Other than Bear.... LMAO..... But would love to invite you as a friend. Stay safe! :D

[MyGenesis]

Bear...
Holy crap...I dropped off for a couple of weeks and you blast off for Iraq? What's up with that? Gonna have to figure out how to celebrate our b'day together half way around the world. I think you will blow that birthday challenge away living in a country that is a sauna...Please be safe. Our collective thoughts and prayers are with you...

[redgrldj]

Bear please tell me you were no where near the bombings that happened earlier...

[503-250]

im not allowed to give out locations, but I am doing just fine...it's been noisy everywhere I have been for the last few days....beginning to make me think it's me LOL...but all is well

Thank you for worrying about me Pattie, but I promised my wife I won't get hurt and i've never broken a promise to her.

[firefighter30603]

Glad to hear all is ok Bear... keep us posted and our prayers are with you!

["Just Jess"]

you stay in my prayers, ralph!!! love ya! stay safe and wear earplugs!!!!!!

[redgrldj]

Man my heart dropped while watching BBC news... Thank God you are ok.. will be majorly pissed if anything happens to you and I don't get to meet you..

[chattykathywlc]

Stay safe and God Bless you! TY for all you do for your fellow Americans, Im so proud of ALL of you!
Kat

[Patrick]

Nice to hear that things are going ok for you Bear. As we used to say in nam, keep your eyes open and your head down.

[LilMissDiva]

I have no idea what is even happening but it sounds just awful! Glad you are fine, so stay safe!! Keep in touch and definitely keep that promise to your dear Wife.

[MoOrLess]

Ralph - you sure as hell better not get hurt!!! It's bad enough you won't even be in the States for your birthday - yeesh -- who had this genius idea to ship you off to the sandbox anyhow? Brave you - you are definitely better than the average bear!!!!! Much love and hugs - stay safe and know that I'm praying for you to return unharmed once your work there is finished.

[remmi]

Bear, I am out of the loop, but want you to know that I am thinking of you and picturing you returning home safe and sound! You take care, please.