M & Ms

[wingsfly825]

Ok here i am 6 weeks into being banded and i ate probably a half of cup of m & ms tonite. Im on here telling you guys cause im really ashamed to tell anyone else, they would look at me and say god you had surgery and this is what your doing. i came home after midnite been kinda stressed lately and fell into eating something just to eat it. ugh. i was looking at some healthy snacks but they werent gonna cut it, did actually think of making the dessert fudge but got too lazy ( which is pathetic cause it would have took the same amount of time it took me to eat the m & ms). .... ok so i just got up and threw the m & m s away. Im just very dissapointed in myself for eating them. I should also throw my scale away but i cant bring myself to do it..where else would i go stand in the morning before i do anything else. OK well i shared and honestly im not used to being accountable for my eating . so now i mentally and physically feel like crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[martha]

Teresa - don't beat yourself up. At least you only ate half a cup...you could have eaten the whole bag but you didn't. Remember this is all about moderation - don't think of anything as off limit, if you do you'll wind up eating 10x's more! I know when someone tells me not to do something I want to do it even worse than before! Must be a childhood thing...I hate authority!!!:pound: Keep your chin up.....no more self-loathing.

[wingsfly825]

Thanks martha , yes i am self loathing right now and i feel sick to my stomach. So now im going to lay down cause its 130 am here if i had only gone to bed when i first came home..ugh.. im afraid to get on the scale in the morning but i know i will.... I just hate how the old habits just creep up on you...:Cry:

[kristina]

hey..u did start an mNm thread! LMAO!
okay so i know u...i have known your jounrey...and you have done remarkable!!!! you never cheat..which is why u feel bad right now...
you follow the rules to a T..you are the one I call first!!! cause i know your going to lead me in the right direction!!!! not coddle and say...go ahead and do it!
u are down dang near 50 pounds...and it didnt happen cause u arent doing the right thing...so as u would say to me...get over it! its all about how we start over..how we get back up..not about how many times we fall.
loooooveee youuuuuuuu! and i am so glad there is now a teresa thread..even if it is all about stinkin mNm's!
smooches chica!

[bgrand]

Teresa, don't beat yourself up.........well, that's what we are suppose to say right. But the reality is, that is what we do....beat ourselves up!!!
I have had the old M&M slip up too, beat myself up for being so stupid, then threw them away, then bought some more..wondering why in the heck did I throw the others away....LOL

See..........we are all human and we will turn to food for comfort from time to time.
Here's to keeping it real, to M&M's, and to getting back on track!!
Luv ya..

[wingsfly825]

Thanks girls. im still punching my self a little today not as hard as last night. Then i got on the scale and there it was a pound heavier and im thinking ugh i didnt eat enough to put on a pound did i ? oh i know im human alright , for so many years i made mistakes when it came to food choices. Anyway i go for my first fill on the 18th. i cant wait. its funny though because sometimes even now i can eat something and be full for hours , im not sure what happened last night other than i made the mistake of bringing them into the house in the first place. thatnks fo all your support....

ps kristina...ill make a personal thread soon

[martha]

Teresa....STOP! You have nothing to feel bad about! Keep telling yourself everything is ok in moderation! If someone told me that in order to get the band I had to eat fish, chicken and veggies for the rest of my life - I'd tell them to go fly a kite...well, that's not what I'd say...it would have some 4-letter words in it!

I think you also need to stop getting on the scale everyday...or several times a day. Our bodies are constantly changing - esp us women. I only weigh myself in the morning....nekked and without having had a thing to eat or a drop to drink....and I only do this once or twice a week.

Found this on Shine by Yahoo:

I’ll never forget the LONG debate I had with a friend of mine about why you CAN eat a pound of food without gaining a pound of weight. He disagreed, saying it was impossible, but I’m absolutely right. In fact, you can down several pounds of food without gaining an ounce, let alone a pound. Here’s why: in a nutshell, body weight is controlled by calories (http://www.prevention.com/100calories/?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-100%20ways%20to%20cut%20100%20calories), and the weight of food has absolutely no relationship to its calorie level.

The perfect example is water. A gallon weighs eight pounds, but water has no calories (http://www.prevention.com/cda/article/water-gets-a-makeover/8c51b1e8a6138110VgnVCM20000012281eac____/nutrition.recipes/grocery.guru/?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-water%20gets%20a%20makeover), so you can’t gain body fat by drinking it, even though it’s quite heavy. In order to gain one pound of fat, you need to eat an excess 3,500 calories (on top of the number you burn off). So if you typically burn 1,500 calories in a day, you’d need to eat at least 5,000 calories within 24 hours to gain an actual pound of body fat.

And 3,500 calories worth of food can weigh a lot or a little. Each of the following contains about 3,500 calories, enough to create a one pound fat gain if not burned off:


1 pound of butter
5.5 pounds wild salmon (http://recipes.prevention.com/Recipe/SalmonwithWhiteBeanandCitrusSalad.aspx?cm_mmc=yaho o_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-salmon%20recipe)
10.5 pounds of grapes
21 pounds of raw broccoli


When you step on the scale, you're weighing everything that has weight, not just muscle, bone, and body fat, but also water, undigested food (even if it will all later be burned off), and waste your body hasn't eliminated yet. The latter three are why your weight on a scale (http://www.prevention.com/cda/channelpage.do?channel=weight.loss&cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-weight%20loss%20channel) can shift very quickly, from day to day or hour to hour--even if your muscle and body fat remain exactly the same.

Sodium (http://www.prevention.com/cda/article/a-savvy-way-to-cut-sodium/47b929a3588b8110VgnVCM10000013281eac____/news.voices/in.the.magazine/may.2008.issue?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-savvy%20way%20to%20cut%20sodium)’s another factor. It’s attracted to water like a magnet, so if you eat something salty (say salted nuts), you’ll probably retain more water (temporarily) than if you ate unsalted nuts. And as I’ve shown above, certain foods weigh more, even when they don't provide more calories.

So the next time you step on the scale, if it’s creeped up a bit, don’t panic. Ask yourself a few questions:


Have I been eating “heavy” foods (even if they’re low cal)?
Am I well hydrated (http://www.prevention.com/cda/article/the-best-ways-to-stay-hydrated/cf828169c1903110VgnVCM20000012281eac____/health/health.experts/andrew.weil.md?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-best%20ways%20to%20stay%20hydrated) (or could I have been dehydrated the last time I weighed)?
Have I had anything especially salty?
Am I constipated?
Have I eaten enough excess calories (http://www.prevention.com/100calories/?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-100%20ways%20to%20cut%20100%20calories) to cause this much of a weigh gain (i.e. if your weight spiked by 2 pounds, have you really eaten 7,000 excess calories since your last weight in)?

Fluctuations are normal. There are numerous factors that affect the number on the scale that have nothing to do with changes to your “fat mass.” So if you weigh yourself daily (http://www2.prevention.com/cda/healthtracker.do?cm_mmc=yahoo_blog-_-FoodforThought-_-weight%20fluctuations-_-my%20health%20trackers), look for a pattern over time instead of focusing on every spike and dip, and don’t forget to put those digits in perspective.

[JDru]

Teresa I echo what everyone has said: don't beat yourself up! Candy ALWAYS tempts me and sometimes I do give in. I think I might die if I was never able to eat M&Ms again. :) Ok, maybe not, but you get the point. I think it's important that you acknowledged it and now you're moving on. You're doing great!

[Leslie2Lose]

Okay - so here's what I think - M&M's are EVIL. Enough said. Temptation yes - I too would have (and have) eaten the whole bag. Just don't do it again! K? (joking)

It is okay hun...really. We all have those days. Pick yourself back up and start a new. Learn from your mistakes and move forward. Did you enjoy them? Yes? Then Se La Vie! :-)

[kristina]

hey martha..i loved that post...but where does pregnancy come into play...did i really eat sooo much...that i gained 100 pounds in 9 months? i would love to read something like that...regarding pregnancy and why the weight stays on...why some gain alot and some a little..why some women bounce right back, and some never do...

[kristina]

teresa- if u dont..ur maddening m&m thread will be your personal thread for me..lol!!!

[Leslie2Lose]

LOL Kristina. They have Cherry M&M's now...OMG!! They are so good...taste like chocolate covered cherries. I have to walk past them at the store now...I'll never get to goal with them around!!!!!

[martha]

hey martha..i loved that post...but where does pregnancy come into play...did i really eat sooo much...that i gained 100 pounds in 9 months? i would love to read something like that...regarding pregnancy and why the weight stays on...why some gain alot and some a little..why some women bounce right back, and some never do...

Good question Kristina....don't know...maybe its natures way of making sure that the baby and mom can survive in a famine? It's also genetics and hormones, just like some people are always thin and some are fat, I'm sure it's the same in pregnancy. Ask your OB/GYN when you see him next!

[kristina]

good idea...but i am afraid to ask weight based questions to medical professionals..i usually walk away feeling like a big fat SLOB! :)
u shoulda heard the cardiologist telling me to walk around carrying a 50 pound barbell today..describing me and my weight loss. its just uncomfy- even when they are trying to be nice...i think i will go on an internet hunt.
survive a famine?? LMAO...could be...loved it martha!!!!!
this isnt fat, this is famine survival you dorks! hehehehe



Good question Kristina....don't know...maybe its natures way of making sure that the baby and mom can survive in a famine? It's also genetics and hormones, just like some people are always thin and some are fat, I'm sure it's the same in pregnancy. Ask your OB/GYN when you see him next!

[kristina]

did someone say chocolate covered cherries??? good Lord. i should write the company. thats just torture...they are my favorite treat!


LOL Kristina. They have Cherry M&M's now...OMG!! They are so good...taste like chocolate covered cherries. I have to walk past them at the store now...I'll never get to goal with them around!!!!!

[kat]

Teresa, I hope you're over beating yourself up. Never helps. I think if we're going to learn to take care of our bodies the way we should, we have to start by loving them even in the dark times. Why would you work so hard for something you didn't love, or worse? At the very beginning of my weight loss journey I started being deliberately grateful for my body - big and jiggly as it is - because it got me to this place in my life, and my life is pretty darned good, all in all. So now you know M&M's (at least in large quantiies) don't work for you. Lesson learned.

I ready somewhere that one way to tell emotional eating from true hunger is if it is for something very specific - like chocolate or chips or bread - it is likely to be emotional hunger. True hunger is more generic - you just want to eat something.

Oh- the pregnancy thing. Finally, something I know about! A lot of women gain the extra weight in pregnancy because eating takes away that little edge of nausea that so many have. And it is socially acceptable to eat anything you want when you're pregnant! You're encouraged to eat 350 extra calories a day and gain weight - so why not? It's hard to tell what's fat and what's pregnancy when you're wearing stretchy maternity clothes. And then for breastfeeding moms, you get to keep eating those extra calories as long as you're lactating, so when the time finally comes to wean, you've been on an increased calorie diet for so long that it has become the norm.
25-35 pounds is pregnancy weight (which does include a small layer of fat all over the body to protect against famine, etc.) - the rest is just us.
Women who stay active (not me) and eat mostly only healthy stuff and have good metabolisms lose the weight fairly quickly.

I gained 40 pounds with my first and never lost one pound of it. Gained 35 with my second and lost maybe 5 of it, and gained about 30 with my third and never lost it. If I lose enough to get to my weight before my first pregnancy, I'm going to be thrilled!

[kristina]

kat..thank you for that!!! i gained 100 pounds with the first..i had gestational diabetes..and he was 11-4. lost 50 of it.
took depo gained the 50 back...
the second i gained 45...
the third 60.
before that..i was never overweight. it was so hard to gain so much so fast-emotionally!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Teresa.. like everyone has said.. don't beat yourself up. I'm pretty good at doing that and so are a lot of us, but it really doesn't get us any where, but feeling really bad after. We're gonna have to deal with this the rest of our lives, but I think (for me at least) it's much harder not to because I figure I had surgery NOT to do this (eat stuff I'm not suppose to), and I go and do it anyway. It's human nature.. plain and simple. (Now if we could just tell our heads that, we'd all be lots better eh?)

Hugs!

P.S. I've just had a protein rich supper, and here I sit, wondering what's out there I could eat.. and I KNOW I'm not hungry!!! Your post has helped me realize this.

[itsfinallytimeforme]

Theresa

just hugs ok, tommorow is a better day,

love

Jo Ann

[wingsfly825]

teresa- if u dont..ur maddening m&m thread will be your personal thread for me..lol!!!
Maybe tomorrow kristina ill make a personal thread


Teresa, I hope you're over beating yourself up. Never helps. I think if we're going to learn to take care of our bodies the way we should, we have to start by loving them even in the dark times. Why would you work so hard for something you didn't love, or worse? At the very beginning of my weight loss journey I started being deliberately grateful for my body - big and jiggly as it is - because it got me to this place in my life, and my life is pretty darned good, all in all. So now you know M&M's (at least in large quantiies) don't work for you. Lesson learned.
Kat id like to say i learned my lesson but i know this band land has its ups and downs since its connected to my head.


Hugs!

P.S. I've just had a protein rich supper, and here I sit, wondering what's out there I could eat.. and I KNOW I'm not hungry!!! Your post has helped me realize this.
donna oh if we could only master just eating when we are hungry. i am so the emotional eater. im gonna have to try drinking a large glass of water or some hot broth next time and see if that curbs it.

Theresa

just hugs ok, tommorow is a better day,

love

Jo Ann
Thanks for the hugs joann.. i love hugs

Thank you all ladies for the support. I am sharing because i needed to be accountable to myself.. thanks for being here for me.

[wingsfly825]

Teresa, don't beat yourself up.........well, that's what we are suppose to say right. But the reality is, that is what we do....beat ourselves up!!!
I have had the old M&M slip up too, beat myself up for being so stupid, then threw them away, then bought some more..wondering why in the heck did I throw the others away....LOL
yeah betty im great at beating myself up , im a regular mohamid ali
[quote=JDru;174074]Teresa I echo what everyone has said: don't beat yourself up! Candy ALWAYS tempts me and sometimes I do give in. I think I might die if I was never able to eat M&Ms again. :) Ok, maybe not, but you get the point. I think it's important that you acknowledged it and now you're moving on. You're doing great!
thanks i dont always feel like im doing great and candy always tempts me 2 , i should know better than to bring it into the house lol

Okay - so here's what I think - M&M's are EVIL. Enough said. Temptation yes - I too would have (and have) eaten the whole bag. Just don't do it again! K? (joking)

It is okay hun...really. We all have those days. Pick yourself back up and start a new. Learn from your mistakes and move forward. Did you enjoy them? Yes? Then Se La Vie! :-)
Well i did enjoy them as i was chomping on them lol after they hit the stomach they werent sitting right. i do plan on moving forward , i know i am not perfect .

thank you all ladies for being here for me and taking the time out to write and support me...

[wingsfly825]

LOL Kristina. They have Cherry M&M's now...OMG!! They are so good...taste like chocolate covered cherries. I have to walk past them at the store now...I'll never get to goal with them around!!!!!
Shoot im glad i havent seen them in the stores around here lol

[kristina]

i know i am not perfect .

well i think ur pretty damn close. :)

[wingsfly825]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaw your so sweet kristina

[itsfinallytimeforme]

You know, I do something that is so weird when I go to the store. I think I can control myself, when I buy crap ie, m and ms, they are a personal favorite too, moanssssssss, I actually put these things in my cart, I hold them and then think how lovely they will taste, and then I pray to God to give me strength and tke that cart and go right back to where I found them and put them back!!!!!!

SEEEEEE I told you, sugar is the devil!!!!!! I am sure of it and its something that I think we have to fight and pray to get past this horrible m and m demon!!!!!!

Just coming clean about it is so good!!! You will be stronger next time. Its also good you post things here. We are together and holding you!!!!!

jo Ann

[wingsfly825]

yeah i hear you, the funny part is i can justify the crap out of anything. the m & ms were on sale and i picked the up for my daughter (size junior 3) she didnt even see them cause i threw them out . i would buy cookies for " the kids" but there really isnt a cookie i wont eat so i would eat them. imagine a cookie i wont eat! i am such an addict.............

[kat]

I know emotional eating is going to be the hardest part of this journey. I'm figuring it's going to be a fight for the rest of our lives. All I'm saying is that I think adding shame and guilt to the already enormous amount of physical and emotional work we're all doing to become healthier just makes the work even tougher. Most of us try very hard not to shame and guilt-trip our kids, but we're really quick to do it to ourselves. Of course you are/I am/we all are going to slip. And slip. And slip. Then we say "what just happened here and what can I learn from it?" and hopefully with time and Grace, we'll figure something out.

I SO love that we can come to this wonderful safe place and say "I ate M&M's" or "I ate an entire bag of french fries" and know that our band sisters and brothers are going to love us through it and gently help get us back on track. What a gift.

[kristina]

well said.


I know emotional eating is going to be the hardest part of this journey. I'm figuring it's going to be a fight for the rest of our lives. All I'm saying is that I think adding shame and guilt to the already enormous amount of physical and emotional work we're all doing to become healthier just makes the work even tougher. Most of us try very hard not to shame and guilt-trip our kids, but we're really quick to do it to ourselves. Of course you are/I am/we all are going to slip. And slip. And slip. Then we say "what just happened here and what can I learn from it?" and hopefully with time and Grace, we'll figure something out.

I SO love that we can come to this wonderful safe place and say "I ate M&M's" or "I ate an entire bag of french fries" and know that our band sisters and brothers are going to love us through it and gently help get us back on track. What a gift.

[kristina]

hey beautiful. hope your weekend is amazing!

[newlifeat57]

yeah i hear you, the funny part is i can justify the crap out of anything...........

I think most of us can do that. let me tell you about the girl that sat and ate oreo after oreo after oreo cookie right there in front of me. Now, i am not an Oreo fan, but after watching this girl sit there and eat these, with milk, for about 15 minutes, I was ready to rip that bag right out of her hands and shove a bunch of them in my mouth and then yell at her asking her why she did this to me.......

Thank God, there was a giant counter separating the two of us. But it didn't stop me from grabbing a bag a couple of days later and eating some. I learned right then and there just how bad they taste. i could taste the grease--or whatever it is that is in them-- and I didn't like it one bit so I threw the remainder away. I hate, Hate, HATE those things that trigger those seemingly uncontrollable behaviors. Whew.....

[mindwing]

I am practicing to do without sugar. I don't want to feel deprived, so twoce a month I go to the store and while there I buy three individual candy bars, which go into the vegetable drawer to be eaten over the next few days. By buying the small packets, and only buying six a month, I am avoiding the problems I had when I'd eat three half pound bars in a day.

So I think we all have the same problem when it comes to sweete.

Another problem, the extra weight. It isn't only salt that causes our bodies to hold water, sugar causes us to hold water also. I discovered that by accident, when I stayed salt free but ate sugar. Oh- how much I swelled up. It all went away when I stopped eating the sugar.

mindwing

[wingsfly825]

I find that for me sugar triggers me to go into what i call a carb fest. or carbs in general will do that. i remember before banding eating 2 bagels for breakfast and then a little while later i would be looking for something. not cause i was hungry just because my mind set was well i blew the diet for today so why not eat like im on the titanic. Too many days on the titanic lead to way to many pounds being gained , then i would get more depressed and then eat more..i draining cycle to say the least.

[kristina]

i had french toast for breakfast! yummo!!!
2 slices..before the band, i woulda had 6.
i have no guilt. why dont i have guilt anymore?
this could be a very bad thing.

[wingsfly825]

you dont have guilt cause your eating in moderation just like a normal person would do kris. when we binge thats when we beat ourselves up.

[newlifeat57]

Kristina, My nutritionist keeps bringing up moderation, too. She doesn't want me counting calories on a reg. basis, but does want me to do it occasionally, just to remind myself of what i should be eating, and how much.

French toast sounds good. Not a big fan of it... would rather have waffles....mmmm
ok enought about food.

How are you girl. Feeling oK??? thinking aobut ya

[wingsfly825]

i also think that sometimes we think we are eating so much yet if we remember what we used to eat we really are doing ok. last night i went to dinner with my friend and i couldnt even finish one cutlet of chicken marseille. and i had 2 small pieces of this mozarella stick ( sortof ) anyway she had eaten the rest of the mozarella stix and 2 cutlets and a piece of cheesecake and she is a small woman. i ate slow and was amazed at how much she comsumed while i was still chewing..there was a time where i would have ate so much more that i would be feeling overstuffed.. we need to keep it simple and remember where we came from

[kristina]

somebody is getting a fill tommorow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

somebody will have restriction again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

somebody is gunna call me right after!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH TERESA!!!! i am sooooo stoked for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wanna tell everyone...teresa's gettin a fill...teresa's getting a fill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:nod::nod::nod::nod::nod::nod::nod::nod::nod::nod:

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

LMAO!! Who's the most excited??? lol

[kristina]

ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!! i think? where's my girl?????

[kat]

Hey Teresa, how did it go? Hurray! Another big step! We want all the details.........

[wingsfly825]

I am having my fill tuesday at 230 and will give all the details . or maybe ill give them to my number one fan kristina and she can post them with those great little pictures she comes up with all the time.
sorry i wasnt on most of the day went out with the bf to dinner . I ordered a chicken gyro , didnt eat the pita , had some of the salad. probably ate a little more than a cup ( I need my fill ) that was around 7 and around midnite i was getting hungry again so i had about 5 pretzels with some hummis . then i made that pumkin surprise to have in the fridge for my sweet moments . i licked the spoon lol . i was going to do all liquids like donna but i wound up having dinner, but i was liquids all morning so i guess i didnt do half bad. let you guys know how i doooo. thanks for caring....

[wingsfly825]

i also know my doctors scale makes me 5 pounds heavier than my home scale so im prepared to be a little bummed.

[kristina]

no bumming allowed. dont even read the number. my docs scale has me +7 pounds. so dont even look. and he made you wait FOREVER for a fill.
just be happy u r getting one...and i would be happy to post the fill details..cause i am ur #1 fan!!!!
smooches!

[bgrand]

Teresa how was the fill? Sorry i didn't get to talk with you last night. I'll call you sometime today.

[wingsfly825]

Dont worry betty you didnt miss it..im going for it in 2 hours from now....

[bgrand]

OH I can't wait. Call me!! I am so excited for you.
You have lost 40+ pounds without a fill. You go girl!!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

How ya doin Teresa???? Been thinking about ya all day long!!

Kristina.. my Dr's scales are about 2 lbs heavier than mine, but then again I'm kinda nekkid on mine and I had warmer clothes on (it was cold here yesterday).. I still weighed 192 over there :( Trying not to be bummed either. I should copy off one of your pictures and paste it on my fridge so I see your pretty face to remind me not to be bummed all the time :)

[kristina]

i talked to teresa....she sounds great...and she is super happy....i know she will be on to update u all soon!

[kristina]

awww ur so sweet!
i was bummed today. i tried not to be! i kept telling myself all the things i believe...theres a reason for everything...blah blah blah...
Gods timing not my own, ect. i missed the doctors appointment. the big one. the specialist. the one i have been waiting for. to fix all of my problems. it was yesturday at 3:30. i was doing nothing yesturday at 3:30. i just forgot to check my calendar. so when i called today to reschedule...jan 7th. jan 7th before i can get in to see him. i dont understand. what will happen to me if i am in severe pain again? what will i do now?

so i am not always cheerful. that one made me cry...and sing poor pitiful me for about 2 hours this morning. ed is in the field..and so i sat in the tub..my thinking spot..and told bray all about it as he splashed water all out of the tub, and i did nothing to stop him. i didnt stop him when he dropped the soap in the water either. i just sat there crying my eyes out wondering what to do as he splashed soapy water all over my face. i am over it now. and it was my own fault. noone to blame but me. and i went to the gym and worked out. then ate japanese with bray...then had 6 peanut mnms. DANG!
now i am sitting here trying to have patience with my 3 amazing yet annoying all over me kids. they all have questions at once. hopefully answered and on their way now! :)
man did i ramble!!!!



How ya doin Teresa???? Been thinking about ya all day long!!

Kristina.. my Dr's scales are about 2 lbs heavier than mine, but then again I'm kinda nekkid on mine and I had warmer clothes on (it was cold here yesterday).. I still weighed 192 over there :( Trying not to be bummed either. I should copy off one of your pictures and paste it on my fridge so I see your pretty face to remind me not to be bummed all the time :)

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Aww I'm sorry you missed your appointment.. doesn't your Dr's office call to remind ya of appointments or send out postcards? I've missed some appointments too.. I know it's important for you to see this Dr.. let's just pray that you won't have any pain until Jan. You've had a lot on your mind lately, I can see how this one slipped past ya. My Dad used to tell me all the time "Don't fret Pet"..

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.

Love ya!! Mean it!!

[wingsfly825]

Hey i posted on fall bandsters . the fill went fine. Im feeling good. I feel like im back in control again cause i did have a rough week. i think we all have our moments being bummed. I like your dads saying donna. thats so cute. Kristina im sorry you missed your appointment.Im forever forgetting things some important some not. Thanks All of you just for being YOU

[bgrand]

Teresa, glad the fill went well. Are you feeling some restriction?

[kristina]

i got my fill...and i can barely sip water...LOVING it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehehe!

[wingsfly825]

wow barely sip water...dang i cant wait for my second fill cause i can DRINK water shoot

[bgrand]

Be careful....if you can barely sip water, how are you gonna do mushies, or eat?
I say this, because you all know i was too tight by choice. And yes i loved it, but it did cause problems and an unfill for me.
So, just be careful and hopefully it will loosen up just a tad!!

[kristina]

i am betty boo...i am going to drink something warm for breakfast and then try and eat an egg...everytime i drink or sip i should say...it makes me feel like i need to burp. how gross is that. i was on the phone with Ed last night and i kept burping..he finally said, babe..everything allright? woopsie!

[bgrand]

Yep, we burp alot!!!!!

[Leslie2Lose]

Betty - I'd say we expell a lot of bodily gasses a lot (Did I say that outloud?)

[kristina]

LMAO..ur too cute Leslie!!! i am loving all of your posts today! :)

is that a restriction thing? cause i havent been burping at all. till now.

i had speggettiO's for lunch, 1/2 a cup and 4 club crackers...went down fine..that was at 11...and i am starting to get hungry...its 2. i hope this is restriction..but if it isnt..i know i will get there...


Teresa- hows your restriction now? are you on solids yet?

[maggieD]

Teresa... I am feeling bad right now myself because i broke down and ate reese cups last night.... I know how you feel .... i find myself punishing myself... you know only can have water today etc... crazy isn't it? Hang tough you have done wonders!!

[kristina]

maggie- go read fall bandsters baby!

[wingsfly825]

Well i had my fill on tuesday. I was kinda hungry but i think it was no protein to speak of. Weds was my daughters 17th birthday so i made her a strawberry shortcake . She went out with her friends for dinner and we were going to have it at midnite when she came home. Dinner for me that nite was cream spinach , some mushrooms and a little bit of mashed potatos.
Well my daughter didnt get home by midnite and by 1 Am i was out looking for her. She finally came home a little before i got there at 2am. MY stomach was in knots. She had been drinking and was lying in her bed texting on her phone. I asked for her phone and got an unprintable response so i shut her phone off . that started her up even more she was already upset about a kinda ex boyfriend. I finally fel asleep around 345 feeling crappy ( no birthday cake celebration as a family) Anyway i woke up at 645 to find out that she had jumped out her window and ranaway. I know im making this a real long story im sorry. BY 9am still not knowing where she is the police are spoken too and i am told that at 17 they really wont look for her but i can fill out a missing persons report after 24 hrs. i wont give you all the details but by 830 pm i had finally tracked where she was...the sorta exboyfriends house. Which mind you the lying bastard was talking to me all day telling me he had no idea where she was. Finally at 11 she called me to tell me where she was and she isnt sure if she is coming back. I guess that was her birthday present to me. She thinks her life here sux. The problem is i am too easy . so now when or if she decides to come back her life will be without a car a phone and a computer. I am heartbroken , i couldnt eat all day ( which is so not like me) finally at 8pm my bf made me eat a cheese omelet. SO its 115 here and my son is in his room and my baby is somewhere else. my stomach and my eyes are swollen. I am asking for all your prayers for my little girl because she has gotten involved with a manilpulating controling jerk . she needs to become a stonger woman one who will not stand to be owned. thank you in advance for all your prayers. im going to try an attach a picture of her. her name is angela
ok i couldnt attach a picture because i have no idea how to resize it..

[kristina]

teresa send me the picture...i will see what i can do...
and oh my gosh i am so freaking sorry baby girl..i know this is no consulttion right now..but at 17 she is going to have a major fight with that punk, cause he's an ass..and she has never lived with an ass before..and she will come back crying and begging for your forgivenes...i was 17, not that long ago. she is trying to play grownup but doesnt have a clue what that entails...she will find out sweetie, and she will then appreciate all that you have done for her.
one day..and it wont be long...angela will regret so much how she hurt you last night. and one day when she has kids of her own...she will really know the love of a mom, and also the pain of a mother too...and she will appreciate what she has done to your soul...
i know it seems bleak right now..i know it hurts...and i know you feel helpless...but you are not alone. and its not about you to her..its about her. she cant see what she is doing to you right now...all she can see is herself.
i will call you later..i love you, i am praying for you and for angela...and i am so sorry you are hurting. so very very sorry.

[kat]

Teresa, I am so sorry you have to go through this. Worry about kids is the worst - it physically hurts. One of mine went through some crazy stuff a couple of years ago, and it was the most out-of-control I've ever felt - because I couldn't fix it. Only they can.
I love what Kristina said. Angela will need a safe place to fall when she comes to her senses. That doesn't mean no consequences, but it does mean a place where she can be loved and earn forgiveness and eventually trust again.
It will be hard, but you can do it.
When the crisis part is over, maybe some counseling might help. Sometimes it can be a bridge to better communication - no easy job with a 17 y.o.
You and Angela are way up high on my prayer list. Keep us informed, and you know you can always come here for support. Feel free to call me if you want. - Kat

[bgrand]

Oh, teresa.............i am so sorry for what your going through. This has to be a very hard thing to deal with. I am praying she returns and some healing can take place.
Call me anytime you need to talk.

[wingsfly825]

Thank you all for your prayers. So this morning at 530 she called me and asked if i could come pick her up , her stomach hurt. So i went and got her . She doesnt plan on being with that guy anymore ,she said she called him cause he was the only one that could come get her. She said she was sorry. We talked about if she wants to be responsible she has to act responsibly. I also told her she cant runaway everytime she gets mad. Some of the rules have changed , she doesnt have her car and her cell phone is for when she goes out. I have tried to get her into therapy a few times because of her self esteem issues and how she wants to save these guys who have problems. She also has some issues growing up with a drug addict brother. She gets to therapy and says little. She talks to me alot but i felt an outsider would help her more. I am happy she is home. But my head is still splitting so im going to lay down just wanted to give you guys an update and thank you for your prayers and ask you continue to pray for her to find her way...love you allllllll teresa

[bgrand]

I am so glad she came home!!!!!!!!!!!

[kat]

Whew! So glad the worst of the crisis is over. It sounds like all of you have been through the wringer. Continued prayers that smooth waters lie ahead. Take care of you, OK?

[kristina]

mama teresa..u need to rest. rest. rest. i knew she would come back..how could she not! ur a great and wonderful mama, and it sounds like Angela has a good head on her shoulders....she was raised by an amazing woman! i think when things calm down..telling her how much last night hurt you..wouldnt be a bad idea..talk about the next time this happens..and what would be a better idea...so she can get the separation she needs...without scaring her poor mama half to death.
i am so very happy this has resolved itself...

[mindwing]

Teresa,

What an emotional roller coaster you have been on. I will be praying for you and your daughter. Now you need to get rest so you have the energy and composure to deal with her.

Good luck.

mindwing

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Love you Teresa.. and sending up prayers for everyone.

[503-250]

M&Ms are evil, I have a peanut M&M addiction and I have literally eaten them until I am physically ill. There is no way to handle that addiction other then destroying the drug...if it was pharmaceutical, you would flush them, if it's chocolate, throw some liquid soap on them...etc.etc...

Conquer your addiction by not letting it control you.

Just know while you are fighting the good fight, I am standing there with you.....cursing the evil bastards who invented and make M&Ms.

[wingsfly825]

oh i know if they were peanut m & m s it wouldnt have been just half a cup i ate. I dont bring them in the house anymore.. plain or peanut..lol

[mindwing]

M&Ms may be bad for us, but they were originally made so chocolate candy could be sent to military personel-M 'n M= men in military.

for that purpose, they are perfect. They don't melt. But for people like me, who adore the taste-- well, thats a different story.

But I work at staying away, and only allow myself one or two small packages a month. Of course, I am still pre-band. I may see things differently once I am banded.

mindwing

[wingsfly825]

Wow mindwing thanks for the info , i never knew how they got their name.. very interesting

[503-250]

They were designed after a Mexican army trick of sealing chocolate in sugar to keep them from melting, (Smarties). Forrest Mars and his partner Bruce Murrie thought they should name the candies after themselves (M and M's). Murrie was a strategic partner, he is the son of one of the owners of Hershey which is how they were able to get chocolate during war rationing time (1941 is when they started).

[503-250]

I hope that doesn't come across as snooty as it reads back to me...this is just more useless info that is stored in my head...my wife calls me a wealth of usless knowledge...LOL

I seriously kick ass at trivial pursuit.

[mindwing]

Thanks for the correction and further information. I got my info off a forward that went around the internet. Yours makes a lot more sense.

mindwing

[maggieD]

My addition is Chocolate Kisses. I can still eat them so i just don't buy them. :( missing the kisses...

[503-250]

My brain works in mysterious ways, I was catching up on this and have no idea why I posted Mexico...it was the Spanish Civil War.

[wingsfly825]

Its ok bear...really spanish /mexico/the M & M s still dont melt in your hands and they are still little evil buggers trying to get in my stomach lol

[*Holza*]

LOL teresa!
Are the evil things not going into your tummy? hehehehe Or they are just to evil?

[wingsfly825]

oh they are just plain evil..they call my name from across the room so now they are not allowed in lol

[--SPEED--]

every time my hand reaches for the M&M's I remember Bears famous re-titling of the M&M's.... " Satan's Poop" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

[newlifeat57]

So did the thought of those M&Ms being satan's poop keep you from eating them??? Just curious...

[--SPEED--]

yes... yes it did... lol

[wingsfly825]

i would said satans poop is mighty tasty lol