What is wrong with me?

["Just Jess"]

I am once again not sleeping through the night... I have horrible reflux and I am TERRIFIED that I've got another issue with dilation or something of that nature. I haven't been feeling well -- I've been fighting with this "cold" for going on 3 weeks now. I've seen my regular doctor twice, and both times got the same song and dance about being a teacher and germ season, blah, blah, blah. She prescribed me a cough suppresant, decongestant, and nasal spray to dry up the post nasal drip... but I AM MISERABLE!

Now, I am past the point of thinking the way I am feeling is associated with this persistant "cold". And I'm afriad something band-related is brewing... I woke up with a coughing fit on Friday night AND again Saturday night... both episodes ended with me in the bathroom vomiting bc the coughing eventually gagged me so badly. It is just mucus and liquid coming up - not food. But enough it enough. Just about an hour ago - after eating my lunch of a half high-fiber english muffin with reduced fat peanut butter - I had this horrible cramp in my stomach. I said to Vinny that I feel like I might be sick............ and what do you know?! I ran into the bathroom and LOST IT! All and them some.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

When I call my band doctor tomorrow to make an appt. What do I say???? I do not want another unfill - that set me back so far that I'm still not caught up. Obviously I need some sort of slight unfill and I'm sure he'll want to get me a UGI to make sure the dilation didn't return. But I am so nervous.

Any thoughts? Suggestions? Anyone else experience anything like this?

[A1ikou]

The reflux is the biggest sign that it *might* be band related. I'm a teacher too and know how miserable all these symptoms can be and all the coughing etc can very well be related to that too. So, my advice - for what it is- is that you know your body. You have had the band long enough to know how it feels at different stages. You've had enough school related bugs to know how they feel too. If you feel one is causing more of these problems than the other or than the two combined then go see your band doctor and check... one more thing...could you be pregnant?
Either way sweetie, just feel better soon xxx

[brwneyedbeauty]

Jess I so sorry you are going through this. I will keep my fingers crossed for you that everything will be just fine.
Keep us posted.

Cheri

[maggieD]

I hope you feel better soon!!

["Just Jess"]

no, no - definetely not pregnant...............

thanks for the advice, ali. and for the well wishes, cheri and maggie.

i guess in thinking that i know my band - and i know my body - at this time, i'm just confused. the pieces of the puzzle don't fit. unrelated symptoms? pain? cramps? it's all just weird. and now add this reflux and vomiting.................. i hate feeling this way.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Jess.. isn't it when you don't feel good that you might have more restriction? When things swell up inside, like with your nose and lungs... other things swell too? Just a thought.

Feel better soon.

[PhotoNut]

Hey Jess *hugs* First off, try to relax.. stressing out over it will only complicate the symptoms and make it harder to determine what's going on. I know, easier said than done huh?

What I find helps me the most in times like these is getting b2b! Back to Basics! heh

Take a step back from the situation and do a sanity check on your band. Go through the checklist -

What are you eating? Are you eating foods that are known to be problematic for bandsters? Are you eating acidic foods, such as tomato based foods? Are you eating too close to bed time? Are you eating your protein first and then adding in good carbs like whole wheats, veggies and fruits? Are you relying on soft foods because you have trouble eating 4oz of lean proteins like chicken, fish, or beef?

What are you drinking? Are you drinking carbonated drinks? Are you drinking enough water? Are you drinking with meals?

Once you feel confident that you are following the guidelines for living well with your band, relax about that and move on to other possibilities for the symptoms. It really is flu and cold season, probably allergy season too. Runny noses tend to cause a lot of nasal drip, especially at night when we're sleeping, and that thick mucus can actually cause symptoms of being stuck.. like sliming which will add to the problem. So it very well could be that, in which case a small (very small) adjustment could provide a huge relief for you.

But most importantly, do not avoid communicating with your band doctor because you fear being unfilled. If there is an issue with the band being too tight, you'll want to get it taken care of right away to avoid any long-term consequences, right?

*gives you another hug* It's going to be ok. Really.

Keep us posted!

[New Life for me]

Jess- So sorry you are feeling bad. Hope you feel better very soon.

["Just Jess"]

thanks, susan,

i can honestly say that yes - i've been making good band food decisions, let's say about 95% of the time. (won't lie - there was ice cream in the house last week)

i try to be really good about eating before bed - the latest i eat dinner is at 7 on the nights i have class (which is 2)

i don't drink with meals - cannot do carbonation - and haven't done any tomato-y dishes this or last week.

i do protein shakes for breakfast, smart ones or lean cusines for lunch (sometimes i can't even finish those) and for dinner, protein first, veggies second, and sometimes... if i'm still hungry, some of whatever the starch is i made for vinny.

i am at a loss......................... my doc did say that the fills required to reach restriction could be different after the dilation/unfill in july. so maybe we just went a bit too far? i wonder if he'll be willing to do a slight adjustment to see if that helps - or if the vomiting will automatically get me another unfill (((which, have i mentioned TERRIFYS ME?!)))

[PhotoNut]

Well see there? Just what I figured... You're doing great with your band! So try not to let you mind wander to the negative thoughts about stretched pouches and such. You haven't done anything which would put you in jeopardy of that. Sounds like its those other things in life that can affect the stomach - colds, tom, etc. Call your doc tomorrow and get their advice ok? Better safe than sorry, and even though you are worried about what he'll do, the fear of the unknown is far more unnerving than knowing what you have to deal with. Once you know what needs to be done, you can begin to take corrective action. Knowledge is power! :rockon:

Hang in there, girl. We're praying for you and waiting to hear what the doc has to say.

*smooches*

["Just Jess"]

thanks, girl - you've made me feel so much better.

[newlifeat57]

Jess, I know exactly how you feel. I got a complete unfill last Wed. for the same reasons. Over the past 7 weeks I have dealt with a hurt back, been sick with a cough, cold, and nasal congestion, and then I broke my little toe. then for the last 2 weeks, I was waking up in the middle of the night doing the same things you are experiencing. I will be seeing my nut. and fill Dr. on Tuesday, to get a fill under floro. I hope you find out what is going on. I'm a bit scared as well.

The receptionist/Nurse aide made a comment that really struck home with me. She asked me if i had had anything get stuck--really stuck. I had... it had been my pills that i took early in the morning about mid/late Sept-- they got so stuck that they ended up coming up through my nose. She said that she found that sometimes when the pouch gets irritated--with whatever--food, pills, etc, that it seems more susceptible to more irritations. And then sometimes, it just snowballs from there. Which really struck home because years ago, when i was working with a physical therapist--for one of my students--she mentioned that our bodies have memories and will continue to repeat certain behaviors--good or bad. It seems like for me, it has been not accepting my pills. i think i tense up and this causes me to have some difficulty with swallowing them. I need to talk this over with my pcp and my nut. and try to get smaller pills.

With the cold I got from the kids at school, the toe I broke, my hurt back (hurt it about 4 weeks ago) and some poor eating/chewing habits that i am still dealing with, and fearing my pills, I figured that I was just irritating my pouch more. When I went in last Wed. I could not take my pills, could not drink protein drinks (it took me an hour to drink down 12 oz.), and creamed soups were a big no-no. So, now i'm unfilled, and fighting my bad habits that seem worse and harder to control.

Jess, I'm praying for all those on B2G that are having problems with their fill. I'm praying those of us that are dealing with bad habits that are difficult to control, for our health, and for God's grace on us.

Hope you get better....*hugs*

Susan, thanks for your post. It's a great reminder.

[bgrand]

Jess, hoping all goes well with you. I had a slight amount of nocturnal reflux return, but it was because i wasn't drinking enough fluids during the day. I also stop eating after 7pm and just try to do liquids, but nothing after 8pm for sure. I can eat anything I want during the day time, so i know i am not too tight as i was before. It's only at night that i have to stop eating and drinking.

As far as the germs, spray your room and frequently touched items with Lysol, make sure everyone washes their hands with soap and water or handgel, and try some Zinc and Vitamin C!!

I sure hope you are feeling better real soon.

[503-250]

I think you're pregnant, and...the really good news is you can tell V that I was nowhere near you. Imagine the issues that would arise if I went to the DC/NC get together. Rumors would be flying like mad.

Meantime...relax...do all the things that calm you down and go see the doctor. Stress will aggravate any condition you have so it doesn't help. Do something that makes you feel better...like imagining me, Neal and Paul naked (you know...separately...otherwise it's just creepy for us)

[PhotoNut]

thanks, girl - you've made me feel so much better.

This made me smile!

I have to confess something... when I see thread titles like this one, my first instinct is to post a really smart ass reply. I'm glad I fought my urges and said something nice instead!

Love you girl. Jess? *nudges Jess* Jess, are you paying attention? Hey! Stop thinking about Bear, Paul, and Neal all naked and.. wow, hm.. *scoots Jess over* Never mind, I think I'll join you.

[503-250]

wait wait...lemme put on something more seductive......

There we go, silk boxers, combat boots and suspenders....Ladies I am ready for your fantasies.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

are they the camo 'spenders or the john deere ones ? I have a preference ya know :)

[itsfinallytimeforme]

wait wait...lemme put on something more seductive......

There we go, silk boxers, combat boots and suspenders....Ladies I am ready for your fantasies.


What about wearing a thing that they wear in hawaii? wiggles brows

[503-250]

grass skirt?

coconut bra?

[New Life for me]

Oh Bear, we'll never get anybody to focus now, you have just single handedly distracted every woman in B2G.........

[Jill]

When I have a cold, I have to be careful about coughing. All that activity can move things up that shouldn't be coming up. I know that when I PB, I cough the B out. So when I cough for a cold, I am always on alert.

Maybe your fill is good enough that the english muffin and similar foods aren't going to work for you. I know that if I tried to eat an EM right now, it'd definitely come back up. Bread is a no-no for me with good restriction.

["Just" Paul]

Picturing Bear dressed like this...


grass skirt?

coconut bra?

I think I just threw up in my mouth a little...

[Gabrielle Skoro]

LOL!! Was checking this thread out, and of course it goes right into the gutter!! I love it!! What a good support team we have here!! Hope all goes well for you Jess. Hang in there!! BTW, I loved your wedding and honeymoon photos. Beautiful!!

[LoYoYo]

wait wait...lemme put on something more seductive......

There we go, silk boxers, combat boots and suspenders....Ladies I am ready for your fantasies.
a redwings hat on backwards....

[chrispygal]

How are you feeling today Jess???

[itsfinallytimeforme]

mm was imagining that little loin cloth, grins n shakes it off of her head cus its wayyyyyyyyyyytomuchexcitement


Jess? please tell me your ok, cus ive suffered with a chest thing for like six weeks, and wonders if its cus of tightness and aspirtion pnumonia? My friend ended up in icu getting this cus she was too tight and aspirtated at night and developed a horrible infection. I dont want to worry you, oh well im worried enough for the both of us, but we have to figure this out.

My Dr took cultures and we will find out. Keep in touch and let us all know how your are doing

sends best wishes

Jo Ann

["Just Jess"]

Good Morning everyone,

This is Vinny (making my B2G posting debut) for Jessica, who is lying here beside me. In expanding on what was written above, her symptoms worsened on Sunday, so we called her doctor's emergency number. The doctor suggested taking Jessica to the emergency room at his hospital in Baltimore where she was admitted just after midnight on Sunday night/Monday morning. She was provided IV fluids for dehydration as she had not been able to keep down any food or drink for over 24 hours.

On Monday morning, her doctor visited and performed a complete unfill of the band. He also indicated that she has pouch dilation, and that the band may have slipped. An X-ray taken on Monday afternoon confirmed both.

In addressing this issue, the dliated pouch needed to be drained (as the unfill still did not allow liquid to pass through), so they needed to insert a tube through her nose and down her throat to remove all the fluid that was sitting in the pouch. The tube remained in all night on Monday evening (and still remains on Tuesday morning). In quoting her (in a manner appropriate for this forum), this was one of the most horrendous experiences of her life, and she is utterly miserable. On a positive note, the severe "cramping" just below the band location seems to have ceased after the unfill. Of course, this is after 72 hours of no food or liquid by mouth.

We are awaiting the doctor's visit this morning to determine the following:

1. If the tube can be removed and the dilated pouch has been successfully drained.
2. If the band was able to slip back into place as a result of the decreased dilation.
3. Whether or not surgery will be necessary to re-position the band.
4. Whether or not she can attempt food or drink my mouth today.

Jessica knew that all of you would be concerned so we wanted to provide you an update. She asks for your prayers that good news comes through the door (in the form of Dr. VR) in the next hour or so and that we are on our way home today. Thank you all for your continued support. Jessica is lucky to have so many wonderful friends.

Sincerely,

"Mr." Vinny

[wingsfly825]

Thanks for the update vinnie. I am sending my prayers over to you both. I am so sorry jess had to go all through this. Im wishing her a speedy recovery. she is in everyones thoughts and prayers here. You guys are so sweet together.. god bless

[Gabrielle]

OMG, I am so sorry that you are having to go through all this and I am hoping for a full recovery for you!! Will be thinking about you!!

[PhotoNut]

Oh lordie. My heart just sunk to my feet. Has the doctor given any reason for the dilation and slip?? I mean, she's been being very careful about her food and such. I'm at a loss for words, and angry at the same time. How and why??

Jess, I love ya girl. I can only imagine how upset you must be over all of this. I still believe its all going to be ok. Vinny, thanks for keeping us posted. We really appreciate it! I'm going to PM you my phone number. When the appropriate time rolls around, one of you give me a quick call or txt me and let me know how things are going? I'm not going to be home all day and I'm going to worry about this every minute.

*sigh*

[LoYoYo]

Jessica, thinking about you and Mr. Vinny and hoping that you get good news and this will be an easy fix. Keep us posted.

[New Life for me]

Oh Jess, I hate to hear what's happened and that you feel so bad. Thanks Vinny for the update, I know Jess feels better having you by her side. Praying for you both. Hope your band went back into place and you get to go home today!

[AnnDe]

Jess & Vinny, Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts.... Looking forward to positive news from the Dr.
Hugs to both of you!
(Gosh! I hope it was not due to the special white powder I sent you!:Cry:)

[TwinMom]

Oh no!

TwinMom here sending loads of hugs and get well wishes. :need_hug:

Vinny - thanks for posting for all of us. I know you know how special Jess is to all of us.

[grmmom]

Get better soon, Jess. And thanks "Mr." Vinny for keeping us updated and please let us know what the dr has to say when you see him. Hopefully it will be not so bad news. Thinking of you, Deb

[Txblue_eyedqt]

O.M. GOODNESS JESS!
I just said a prayer for you and a quick recovery. I can't imagine the discomfort you are dealing with. I hope everything gets better. Look forward to hearing about a positive update.
BIG HUGS

Cynthia

P.S.
Thank you Vinny for keeping us updated. We appreciate it bunches!

[bgrand]

Jesss.....I am thinking of you and sending well wishes your way.

["Just Jess"]

Good afternoon everyone,

This is still Vinny. Sorry to disappoint in that this is not Jessica directly, but I have a positive update on Jessica's condition.

Dr. VR was in to visit about an hour ago, and after two sets of X-rays this morning, he confirmed that the dilation went away and it appears that the band shifted back into the appropriate position. As a result, he removed the tube from her pouch (making her quite happy) and does not believe that corrective surgery will be necessary.

Jessica will be trying to sip on liquids this evening and remaining in the hospital for one additional night for another series of X-rays (with a swallow study) tomorrow. If all goes well, she should be back in her bed by this time tomorrow (maybe a bit later with the complexity of the discharge procedures).

Thank you to all for your continued support. We will let you know if there are any further updates.

Sincerely,

Vinny (for Jessica)

[bgrand]

Yeah!!!!!!!!! Great News......

[JDru]

Just seeing this today! Thanks for the update Vinny, please tell Jess we're thinking about her. :)

[Txblue_eyedqt]

Awesome News Jess! I am glad no surgery is needed.
Will be thinking about you.

Cynthia

[MoOrLess]

HUGS Jess! I'm sorry to read all of your recent struggles with the band and not feeling well...to put it mildly, eh?! Prayers are coming your way - thank you Vinny for updating us as things have progressed. Your band family is here anxiously waiting to hear you are home and feeling better. Love you girl! Kick that band's behind will ya?

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Jess, get well soon, and thanks for posting Vinny.. means a lot to us!

[PhotoNut]

Wonderful news!! Thanks for updating us, Vinny. You're such a sweetheart!

Jess, I hope you're feeling better very soon. So glad you got that tube out of your throat. Gag!

Much love,
Susan

[kristina]

ahhhh where the heck have i been!!! i am always a day late and a dollar short jess!!! SOOOOOOOO SOOOOORRRRYYYY you have been going through this. u poor thing...and youre right you have been through hell and back on this journey....i am so very glad you are not having surgery again, but still it sucks that you have went through this at all...and you follow the rules!!! thats just scary!!!!
heres hugs and kisses floating ur way....get better soon girl...we miss u!
thanks vinny for taking such good care of our girl!!!

["Just Jess"]

my heart swells................

:love:

thank you all for your warm wishes while i've been in the hospital (gag, is right, btw!!!)

unfornuately, i am still here. he did not discharge me tonight, as we had hoped. apparently, i have to "pass" a swallow study tomorrow first... and the way they move around here --- who knows what time tomorrow i will be FREE.

regardless, i feel great. the "dinner" i had tonight was truly fit for KINGS and QUEENS after having NADA but IV fluid since Saturday night. i had a lovely cup of broth, tiny bit of jello, a half-melted popsicle, and some juice, water, and tea. YUMMO! haha -- i have no idea what kind of eating plan i am on... how long he'll want me on clear liquids, etc. but i will tell you this - i am STARVING. not gonna mess with it though. i asked vin to grab me a bottle of isopure out of the pantry --- JUST IN CASE i'm on clears tomorrow and can't have any protein shake for breakfast.

hard to believe i am even worried about that when 24 hours ago i had high anxiety about another potential surgery - a tube down my freaking throat (((which, btw, has ANYONE ever heard of???? it's called a NG tube and it goes up your nose and down your throat, then STAYS THERE for a whole day sucking out the stuff inside you... which in my case, was backed up bile and relux crap.))) GROSS! DISGUSTING! REPULSIVE! ....truly! i had never heard of it before and when they told me it was staying in all nigth - i think i about died (they didn't mention it wouldn't be coming out first thing in the AM either.... try 5 pm tonight! ugh).

anyway, vinny is absolutely fabulous and has been by my side since sunday - he goes home to shower and change and comes back to sleep on the very comfortable pull out chair, so i don;t have to sleep alone ----- oh, and did i mention that he burned 3 personal days to do so?????? did i marry the best guy ever, or what?

i am blessed woman. wonderful friends (YOU), spectacular family, (and in-laws too) and the best husband anyone could ask for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JESSICA = :love:


ps: the doc thinks the reason for THIS issue was violent vomiting... NOTE TO ALL BANDSERS - if you get the flu or feel you will be sick, get yourself to the doc and get some anti-nausia medicine STAT. save yourself and save your band.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Here's hoping and praying your swallow test goes without a hitch! Yep.. you've got a keeper there little lady :) You'll have to get him a special card for secretaries day ;) (I mean that in the best way possible too) :)

[martha]

Sending good thoughts and prayers your way, Jess!! Your DH sounds just like mine - we are truly blessed!! Hang in there and get better!!!

["Just Jess"]

You'll have to get him a special card for secretaries day

... i don't get it???

[kristina]

jess..u just get better soon..in the meantime we will be praying for a full and complete and easy recovery!!!
we love you chica!!!!!!!!!!
poor thing..that tube sounds hideous!!!!!!!!

[PhotoNut]

Hi Jess! :wave:



:kisses:

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

... i don't get it???
I mean that he kept us so well informed like a secretary would .. that maybe you could get him a special card from being such a great secretary. Hope it didn't offend you or him.

["Just Jess"]

thanks so much everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yes, hideous is an UNDERstatement............

ohhhhhhhhh... secretary -- i get it now! (no one would be offended!!!! we're not easy people to offend ----- easy people to confuse, on the other hand??????)

thanks, nut! and i appreciate your giving your # to vin. he apologizes he didn't have time to call between everyone calling him and everything else today. but we just wanted you to know how great you are and how much we appreciated your reaching out. :hug: love ya!!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I'm glad I didn't offend you guys.. I honestly meant it as a compliment. Sometimes I need to understand that just cuz I type it, you guys can't get in my head and know what I mean.

Get well soon! :)

[chrispygal]

Oh Jess I was so in tears when I read Vinny's post! I'm so relieved and happy to hear that no further surgery is needed. I still feel horrible that you are going through this. :(

[wingsfly825]

Im so happy you are feeling better and you wont be needing any surgery. Yes i agree you have one helluva husband but im sure you would be doing the same for him so together you make one awesome team. wishing you a speedy recovery and thanks for the info on the anti nausau meds. big hugs to you both

[New Life for me]

So happy to hear you don't need surgery and that you are feeling better. Hope you get out of there real soon!

[newlifeat57]

jessica, it seems i missed a couple of days and didn't catch what had happened to you. I am so sorry to hear you were in the hospital and had to go through that gagging thingy.... YUK-O...

Your hubby is a wonderful man to fill everyone in. I just hope he realizes how much we appreciate it.

My prayers are coming your way right now... *hugs*

[brwneyedbeauty]

OMG Jess you 've had a hell of week...you poor thing. I'm glad you are now feeling better. that must of been so scary.
take care of yourself and keep us posted.


Cheri

[grmmom]

Get well soon, Jess. Hopefully you will get to go home today and rest in your own bed. Nothing is better than your own bed!! Thoughts & prayers coming your way from me. Deb

["Just Jess"]

thanks again, everyone for your words, prayers, and kind wishes!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wanted to hop on and let you know that I’m home. They canceled my swallow study this morning bc my doc wants to let some time pass to let the swelling continue to go down so he can get a more accurate picture. he discharged me at about 10 am…….. in the mean time, great weight loss opportunity. I’m on full liquids until at least next Monday – when I have this swallow study and UGI at the hospital. I lost 5 lbs. while I was there too – if one good thing came out of any of this………………………

anyway, thanks for all your love and support, as always --- I have the best family and friends --- and as you all know, the best husband in the entire universe! This first stay in a hospital could have been a lot scarier if I was all alone… but vinny didn’t leave my side. And thank you all for checking in on me so regularly.

now, vinny and i are off to the grocery store to pick up “full liquids” supplies for the next 5 days. i need to revisit my BAND BIBLE i got back at the beginning of this journey to get creative with recipes again!!!!!!!!! any suggestions on fun full liquid things to try?

[HeatherGurl]

Oh my GOSH! I missed everything... I am not around for a few days and you go and get hospitalized!!! :)
I am SO relieved that things are looking up... I read thru all of the posts and you must have been scared to death!
You are in my prayers and I hope everything corrects itself. I am thinking of you girl!
TONS of Hugs and Love to you!!!!!!!

[martha]

Glad you're home in your own bed tonight!! Thoughts and prayers are still with you!!!

[newlifeat57]

Just checking on you, jess. Hope you're feeling better. i was really worried about you, girl--you have had a rough journey. I really admire your tenacity to keep up the postive attitude and to share your ups and down. This unfill was even more interesting to me, especially since i had to go in for an unfill for practically the same thing.

i certainly learned a lot through my unfill experience. Looks like i will be doing a lot of unfills throughout my journey--considering all the health and food issues I have. But i still love my band.....

Feel better soon... *hugs*

[kristina]

hey sweets..this recipe is prob. way over done but i loved it...chocolate protein powder,1/2 a banana, a tblspoon of peanut butter and 1/2 cup of skim milk..blend till liquid, and i was in heaven. :)
any kind of vanilla protein powder in the blender with milk, ice and a frozen fruit...makes an excellent smoothie...
thank goodness you are home...my heart was so worried about u. :(

[wingsfly825]

Im glad your home and feeling better. congrats on the 5 pounds im sorry you had to be sick for it. Keep us posted on how your doing and give that great husband of your a hugs from all of us for taking such good care of you

[grmmom]

Hi, Jess. Just checking in to see how you're doing. Making sure you're okay. Hope things are going well for you. Deb

[reblynd]

okay...where have I been???! I am so sorry you are (were) feeling so bad, glad to hear things are going in a different direction now. Not exactly the jump start you want, but at least something good can come out of it. Keep well!!

["Just Jess"]

feeling MUCH better... up early bc i have a 7:30 UGI scheduled at the hospital to see if all the swelling has gone down and if i can move on from liquids...... i have no idea if he plans on giving me any of my fill back or not - we'll see. not my biggest concern quite yet (but i know it will be). wish me luck!

[brwneyedbeauty]

good luck Jess!!!! ;-)

[Dirextor]

I have been a terrible bandster Jess! Just now reading what happened and went through a myriad of emotions before I got to the good news. I am so thankful (all late and everything) that all is well. But here is the million dollar question....WTF happened? Do they know what caused it?

In light of showing a bit of narcissim, I would like to know WHAT NOT TO DO. Just reading what you went through made my gut hurt.

Glad all is well....

[PhotoNut]

Jeeze.. I got a txt from Jess a little bit ago. She didn't pass the swallow/Upper GI test so they are going to be doing corrective surgery tomorrow. Thats all I know for now. I'm sure either Jess or Vinny will be around to update soon.

Bless her heart :(

[HeatherGurl]

well SHAT!!!! Dang it Jess, I am SO sorry to hear that!!! HUGE HUGS to you and please update us when you can!
I feel like flying up there to take care of you!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!

[Dirextor]

Please excuse my ignorance but does corrective surgery mean that they go in and do it all over again?

I'm off to surf to see if I can answer my own question with my lazy arse.

I so hope all is well with Jess and that Vinny checks in soon.



Jeeze.. I got a txt from Jess a little bit ago. She didn't pass the swallow/Upper GI test so they are going to be doing corrective surgery tomorrow. Thats all I know for now. I'm sure either Jess or Vinny will be around to update soon.

Bless her heart :(

[New Life for me]

Oh Jess, I am so sorry. You have been through enough, wish you didn't have to go through all this. Hope that you feel better and you are in my prayers!

[martha]

Crap, crap, crap!! I was really hoping that you'd pass it with flying colors and you'd be on your way back to normal. I'm so sorry that you have to have another surgery. You and Vinny will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please let us know how you're doing when you can. Try and keep your chin up - this too shall pass.

[503-250]

I knew she should have studied more for her swallow test (look P'Nut...I think I can say this here without getting banned right?)

Vin, please let us know how the little wifey is doing....

[PhotoNut]

Yes, Bear, I will allow it.. this time. :wink2:

[PhotoNut]

I'm thinking about ya Jess. Haven't stop thinking about ya since you sent the message. Love you! *hugs*

[Mloukas143]

So Sorry to hear the bad news....We were all rooting for you to come back and be on your way to a normal life without all of this band chaos...I hope things will be okay for you, I am praying for you!!!

[chrispygal]

Sending lots of love to you Jess & Vinny.....

[kristina]

jess..i am sitting here crying my eyes out!!!! i am so very very sorry...i cant imagine going through what you have gone through..please know sweetie, that i am in constant prayer for you...stopping everything now for some God time...and prayer time for my very dear and amazingly strong friend, jess.
please know we are with you in spirit...and waiting with heavy hearts until we know that you and your band are okay.

[newlifeat57]

Oh.... this news stinks!!! I wish I could do more.... Sending you lots of love and prayers for a full recovery WITH the band.

*hugs*

[lyndele]

Oh, Jess, what an awful development. I'm thinking of you and hoping that the corrective surgery is not too hard on you. I'm just so sorry to hear about this. Sending warm thoughts your way...
Lyndele

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Jess and Vinny.. just want you to know that I'm thinking about you both, and also sending prayers up for you both!

Hope things get settled for you soon Jess.. it's been a long time coming! .. Special hugs coming your way.

[MarkB]

Jess, I have you in my prayers tonight and until you are well. God bless and keep you, may His hand guide the surgeon to heal you.

["Just Jess"]

update..

sorry i had no time to call anyone - it's been an emotionally overwhelming and exhausting day. i am once again in a hospital bed. NG tube is in - sucking out the protein shakes and smoothies i've had over the last week. why didn't they go down??? i only absorb half of what my doc says when he comes to see me - i'm just so BLAH.

apparently the swelling of the pouch didn't go down - so he needs to go in and correct it's location. ie: move the band up. he said worst case senario, my stomach is inflamed and he needs to remove the band. best case senario, he simply shifts it up and stitches it into place and closes me back up again. basically, i am back at square one. i haven't had solid food in 9 days, my stomach HATES me, i've got so many needle pricks in me, i look like swiss cheese, my hands are bruised from the IVs.... but good news - they're getting me in for surgery early tomorrow. i am an "add-on" so i don't have a time slot... but he said he listed me as high priority for OR, so basically i'm guarenteed to be operated on tomorow.

guys, this sucks.

thank you again for all your support AND PRAYERS - keep em coming - i just don't know what i would do without this place (and my sweet vinny) i can't sleep, my stomach is in knots. the pain meds are few and far between as i am in no pain - just discomfort from the tubing... so that is what knocked me out last week. so i guess i'll just worry about sleep later in the week? haha

happy election day tomorrow - looks like i won't be making it to the polls. :( oh well.

love to you all. wish me luck in the AM.

ps: thanks susan for updating everyone. love you!

[wingsfly825]

OH jess i am so sad you have to go through this after all you have been through. Sending you lots of prayers for you and vinnie. Wishing you a speedy recovery.. big hugs

[martha]

Praying for you guys! Big hugs! Try and get some rest.

[chrispygal]

Lots of love and prayers your way this morning Jess!!!!

[HeatherGurl]

Thinking of you Jess!!! You are going to be fine girl, keep that chin up and thank God you DO have Vinny. He will take care of our sweet Jess!

I hope that everything goes very smoothly for you today.

[bgrand]

Jess, I am just now reading this. I hate that you have been going through all of this with your band............but I am putting my belief that your doc will fix it and like Shelley you'll be right back to your old self in no time.
Sending prayers and lots of love your way. Keep us posted!!

[PhotoNut]

.......but I am putting my belief that your doc will fix it and like Shelley you'll be right back to your old self in no time.
Sending prayers and lots of love your way. Keep us posted!!

DITTO! xoxox

["Just Jess"]

ok - still sitting here in this damn room with this damn tube................... i am an "add on" surgery - which has been explained to me as being similar to flying stand by. the nurse said if they don't come before noon for me, it will probably be after 2. ugh!

i've asked vinny to update you all when it does occur - so you know when to be praying the hardest.

love you all! :love:

[Txblue_eyedqt]

Jess you poor thing.
My friend had a very similiar experience last year, they were able to fix it with surgery. I pray everything goes well and your recovery is easy. Everyone is here for you. Keeping you and Vinny in my thoughts.

HUGS
Cynthia

[brwneyedbeauty]

OH Jess I am so sorry. I can't stop thinking about you. You will be in my prayers all day. I'm so glad you have Vinny taking care of you. Good luck today:-)


Cheri

[lyndele]

Jess, I sure hope that your surgery goes very smoothly - and that the "best case scenario" wins. I know that you must be thoroughly disappointed and discouraged. Thinking of you!
Lyndele

[stac1982]

Jess, I am thinking of you. . . .I have been praying for you since I got your text yesterday. I hope all goes well for you today!

["Just Jess"]

i'm scared.
i'm angry it isn't happening yet.
i'm anxious.
did i mention before that this tube is still in????

[lyndele]

Poor Jess... I'm hoping that you'll be out of surgery SOON and on your way home. I'm just so sorry for you.

[JDru]

Thinking of you Jess and hoping you get in soon! :)

[Mloukas143]

Jess, This sucks! Excuse my terms, but it really does...things will work out for you, I know it will...things happen for a reason, keep your chin up and ur head high, and you will get through this messy ordeal...I am praying for u girl!

[New Life for me]

Jess, you are hanging in there like such as trooper, I can't imagine how scary this is for you. I'm glad you have Vinny, I know that means the world. Prayers going up for you. Love you girl, hope you sail through the surgery and they are able to adjust and repair your bsnd!

[kristina]

hey sweet girl....its going to be okay. you will be okay....he will be there soon..u will have this surgery and you will come out wondering what in the world you were worrying about. you will have no pain..that nasty tube will be out, and you will have your band exactly where it should be. you will be able to tell immediatly that you are better...and you will be so glad that this is all over with.
thinking of u allllll day today.....praying for you right now!!!!!!!
stay strong..you are the daughter of a KING.

[martha]

Has anyone heard anything?

[PhotoNut]

Jess and I exchanged a few txt messages just after 2pm her time (est) and she was still waiting to be taken to surgery. I haven't heard anything since then, but will let you know if I do.

[kristina]

thanks susan for keepin us posted! ur the best!

["Just Jess"]

Hello all. This is Vinny. Jessica went into pre-op around 4 pm. Surgery went well in the sense that she is fine and recovering. Surgery did not go so well in the sense of the "senarios" the doctor ran through with us yesterday. So, I am sorry I have bad news to report about my dear wifey and her band: Jessica's band has been removed. The doctor said the inflamation to the stomach was too great to reposition it. However, he did say that she can get a new band after 90 days of healing. That is all we know right now. She is obviously hurting over this news. She is very emotional and not dealing with this news well emotionally. Pain wise, she's dealing fine. There were 7 small incisions for this surgery.

She thanks you for all your thoughts and prayers. She will update you all when she is feeling up to it.

I thank you for the love and support you provide my wife, I know how much she adores you all and leans on you for support. Needless to say, she's going to need you over the next few months as she copes with RE-beginning her journey.

Sincerely, "Mr. Vinny"

[martha]

Oh no. Jess, I am so sorry it didn't turn out the way we had all hoped. The good news is you will get a new band in a few months. I'm sure it doesn't make you feel any better right now, but things will get better!!! I'm praying and thinking about you both!!!

[bgrand]

Jess, sending you lots of hugs and well wishes. Vinny thanks for keeping us posted and send our love to Jess!!

[MarkB]

Jess, I am sorry you had this setback, but the good news is that in only 3 months you can get a Lap Band put back in. This is just a short delay in your long term changes. God bless you and keep you.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Vinny, thank you so much for letting us know about Jess.. and Jess, we'll always be here for you.. we'll help you any way we can. You're on your way to getting a new band.. each day from this day forward is closer to 90 days k? Take care.. and rest and heal. Bless you!! I really mean this.

[chrispygal]

Oh god Jess, my eyes are tearing up right now. I would be devastated by the news if it were me - I can only imagine how upset you must be. I am so sorry!!!!

You are so very lucky to have such a wonderful family and possibly the world's best hubby to support you through this. And in a very short 90 days you'll get a new band and be heading towards your goal. Hang in there sweetie!

[kristina]

hey that just sucks. i wont pretty it up..it sucks!!! it sucks it sucks it sucks. this just sucks. and jess i am so very sorry. all i can say is i promise to be here for you if u need to talk about it, vent about it or cry about it.
wish i could do more.
wish i could say more.
wish i could hugg u.
:(
prayers your way....

[wingsfly825]

OH jess what everyone else said above me..Im so sorry and we will all be here for you to help and support you they way ou have helped so many of us.... sending my prayers and hugs teresa

[PhotoNut]

90 days Jess! You can do this! Just stay plugged into your support and we'll get you thru it! This isn't a sentence of failure, so don't start taking the "I'm doomed" approach. Instead, give yourself credit for the amazing amount of inner strength you have shown thru your entire banded journey and rely on that same strength to see you thru this next 90 days. We love you and we're all here to help you in any way we can. Be it motivation, tough love, or just an ear to listen.. we are here for you and we all believe in your ability to stay focused and committed to yourself and to your goals.

Much love and continuing prayers,
Susan

[brwneyedbeauty]

Susan is so right!
WE are all here for you Jess. Lean on us we will help you.
Thinking of you.....


Cheri

[newlifeat57]

Sweet Jessica.... my tears are flowing for you.... I'm praying for you--sweet girl. You are still my inspiration. i've read all about your journey and From what i've read, you are one tough cookie. This is just a bump in the road for you. YOu have a wonderful system here and at home....You can do it. 90 days will come and go in a flash.

Sending you get well wishes and lots of prayers. *hugs*

["Just Jess"]

thnk you, everyone. i am sore and tender this morning - but feeling ok. i cried plenty over this yesterday, think i'm cried out. hopefully this will motivate me to stay on track and kick butt without the band. i always said my only regret was not learning about this procedure sooner. so now, i guess i have the opportunity to start again at a lower weight. who knows? maybe i'll even get a different band now that my inner anatomy has changed. it seems restriction happens a lot faster for the 4cc band folks than for us 10cc bandsters. then again, i am just thinking outloud. i have no idea if that is even an option.

i want to thank everyone for their prayers and well wishes. sorry for the text messages yesterday - but my throat was raw for the tube (NG tube in all night plus breathing tube for surgery) and it was not easy to talk. i knew certain people would want to know - vinny called all my family members and i texted all my friends that i had contact info. for.

my doctor was quick to correct me last night that this was NOT the wordt case senario. and he's right. it's not. something could have gone wrong or i could be physically hurt. so i need to count my blessings. i've lost over 90 lbs. bc of this amazing tool. right now i'm being forced to take a band break. i know how to diet. i know how to eat right. i have all the tools i need to be successful on my own. i've done it before and can do it again. i feel it will be good that whatever diet i choose to follow will only have to be 90 days long. but i definetely need a diet. i need structure to be successful when i won't have the band telling me to STOP! maybe i;ll go back to weight watcrs and count points for 90 days?

90 days........................................ hmmm..

seems looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong. then there is of course, looking at my schedule. what is 90 days from now? end of january? we do not have any breaks then. i may need to make it further out than 90 days. maybe over easter break 2009? that is, if my doctor's schedule is free.

this really is terrifying. taking my band away is like taking the one sole reason i've been a successful loser for the first time in my life. i'm so close to 100 lbs. off. i don't want to mess up now. ok - now i feel i'm just babbeling....

thank you again EVERYONE. much love to you all. xo

[A1ikou]

Chin up chuck! For anyone else this could be a real set back but I've seen the way you deal with things. You are going to do just fine. You will have 90 days of healing and feeling oh so much better than you have been and that has got to be a good thing and then we will see. We will all be here whenever you need us and whatever you need us for. You will get through this and knowing our Jess you'll come out better and stronger than ever before.

[kristina]

yes yes yes!!! you can lose weight without the band!!! your tummy is shrunk!! thousands do it!!! hundreds, millions of people have lost lots of weight without the band...and u dont even need to lose that much more to be at goal! shoot jess you may be at goal on Easter. especially with your determination, and amazing attitude baby you have came along way.
we are sooooo here for you....band- or not...you can and will lose weight.
love u!!!!!! and i am proud of you....and yes..there is always worse..but dont sell yourself short..its okay to mourn the loss of something so important to you.
we are here for u...and please please babble all you want...i love your babbles. :)

okay moderator..i know ur gunna put these two posts together...however i was thinkin ...maybe the atkins diet?
or maybe a medically supervised diet from your surgeon?

[lyndele]

Dear Jess, I'm so sorry to hear this. I think that your attitude is very healthy and will serve you well over the next few months. Remember how long it seemed to take to get the band in the first place?

I agree with Kristina: your stomach has shrunk considerably, so this may help you maintain your weight loss. You've lost SO MUCH weight - and I'm sure that you'll be able to keep it off (and maybe lose even more).

Still, what a bummer for you.

Lyndele

["Just Jess"]

You will get through this and knowing our Jess you'll come out better and stronger than ever before. thank you, ali - if only i can be as strong as everyone else sees me!!!!


and u dont even need to lose that much more to be at goal! kristina, thanks for all your support and positivity. i have about 55 lbs. to lose to get to my goal of 165. i doubt i could that by easter WITH my band... nevermind without!!!! haha


maybe the atkins diet? or maybe a medically supervised diet from your surgeon? something i plan to talk with him about today. we'll see what he suggests.


You've lost SO MUCH weight - and I'm sure that you'll be able to keep it off (and maybe lose even more). thank you lyndele - i appreciate your positivity, too.

[stac1982]

Jess, my heart broke last night when I got your text. I am so sorry for you. You are strong and things will work out. I know this is easy for me to say, I can not even imagine how crazy I would be if this was me. Just take one day at a time and know we are here for you.

["Just" Paul]

Luv ya Jess...

So sorry about all this.


Right now, heal up... get better, then refocus. WE will get thru all this.

You have my support, 100%. Just let me know what ya need.

[kristina]

okay...maybe not goal..but dang close! 55 pounds? girl u look way too tiny for 55 pounds!
love ya! hang in chica..we are here for u.

["Just Jess"]

to stacey --- thank you, girl. my heart was broekn too. at the time, i felt like that was the WORST possible news i could have ever heard. however, since then i've seen the light. i have always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. so maybe this new band will not give me any problems. maybe this band will help me reach my goal faster. one of the quotes you have in your signature line really spoke to me today: "Sometimes you have to fight the battle more than once to win the war." -Unknown ISN'T THAT THE TRUTH????? in more ways than one at this point in my life.

paul - thank you for your support, sweetheart! you're the best. WE will get though this. and hey, now i can for sure have a piece of that homemade lasagna! haha -- i don't know if i've ever asked you... did you have any bumps/blips in your journey? you lost so much and had the band a long while now... just curious.

kristina - tiny?! NO you didn't just use that word to describe a 217 lb. FLUFFY woman!!!! haha.. the weight i'm "suppose" to be at is 130ish for my height. so technically, i can revamp my goal and strive to be "ideal weight". i set my goal at 165 originally with my doctor and he said that sounded like a healthy weight - so that is where we set it. i picked a weight i was at when i was happy and healthy. but you never know --- if i get cookin' on this weight loss 2nd round. i may just go for ideal (if given the opportunity!!!) :) love ya, girlie!!! thanks for all your support.

[wingsfly825]

Hey jess,
Im glad to hear you being so positive. Thats half the battle in losing weight..our mindset. Joining weight watchers is a good idea so you have someone your accountable to. Just keep telling yourself you can do this and you WILL do this. Being grateful that you didnt have more complications you can handle any thing that comes your way. You are gonna have rough days ...We all have them.. Your gonna have great days too .. your gonna have days where you feel thin ..we all do..then your gonna have those hopeless days where you feel Fat ...We all do.. My point we are all in this and we all feel so much alike. I say pretend the band is still in for the next 90 days ..still chew slow , sip and maybe your mind will tell you your full just like with the band. We all love you and anyone of us will be here for you 24/7 for any help or support you need.. you can pm me anytime you want . if you want my cell number just ask , im always available for a bandster in need.. You will be fine and before you know it you will be telling us your surgery date to put your band back in. dont look at this as if it is a set back , use it as an opportunity to stay in check for a little while. Someday you and vinnie may want children , they would unfill your band as if you didnt have one anyway so this will give you practice.. i have all the faith in the world in you...god bless

[ginabobina]

Hi Jess! I wish I could be there to give you a big hug - what an awful process and I'm just so sorry you've had to go through this! I tried to post last night when Betty sent out the alert but my laptop crashed... I've been praying for you and I am so thankful you are safe with no long term damage. Being able to get another band in is great news... you can make it until then. You are in a much different place and lots of people have to go through 3 to 6 months of supervised diet before surgery... you may well keep on losing weight. If you think you can handle it, you could ask the doc about Optifast - that's the liquid diet that is 800 calories a day and requires medical supervision. WW has always worked for me in the short term too. I know you can do it! We're all here for you every step of the way - keep on putting one foot in front of the other girlie

[chrispygal]

Jess girl if you need someone to count "points" with we can start a thread and I can be your "WW" buddy if you want. Whatever you think will help! Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better about things today. :)

[JDru]

Oh Jess, I'm just now seeing this! I'm very sorry to hear that your band has been removed, but it is true that it's not the worst case scenario. It know it must be so hard to think about life without your band, but fortunately it's not permanent. We're all here to support you as you meet this new challenge. You have such a positive attitude, I know you will do well! :)

["Just Jess"]

Jess girl if you need someone to count "points" with we can start a thread and I can be your "WW" buddy if you want. Whatever you think will help! Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better about things today. :) ** i may take you up on that...we'll see what kind of plan i come up with.


Being able to get another band in is great news... you can make it until then. You are in a much different place and lots of people have to go through 3 to 6 months of supervised diet before surgery... you may well keep on losing weight.** i didn't think about that. i had to do a 6 month pre-op myself. thanks - great perspective!!!! i CAN do it.


Im glad to hear you being so positive. Thats half the battle in losing weight..our mindset.** i had something smart ass to say at first... like "wow, do i have you all fooled... positive?! HA!" but then i re-read your post and got teary eyed. thank you for your supportive message. i know it is all about mindset... it always is. but you know what? if i could lose weight on my own - i would have long ago. but i DO have faith that i can do it short term until i wait for another band.


It know it must be so hard to think about life without your band, but fortunately it's not permanent.** it is.............. i feel like i'm in mourning... is that crazy or what?

[SheryBery]

Jess, I just posted on your other thread so ignore it! LOL...now I know the story. But I will repeat, you are so so strong and have come so far I know you will continue to stay strong and continue to lose. Know that you are loved and enveloped in many hugs and good wishes.

[kristina]

http://i222.photobucket.com/albums/dd50/medicswife554/loss1.jpg

love ya girl..its not crazy..it is a loss..on many levels.

["Just Jess"]

i feel crazy.

and i feel sad.

so thank you. i can't tell you how much i appreicate all your support.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I don't have much to add, everyone has said just what I've been thinking Jess. I just wanted you to know, that even tho I've not been in your shoes, I feel the loss for you. This band has been YOUR support for 2 yrs now... and it's gone, BUT.. and I really mean BUT... it's for just a short time, then you'll have it back. The first few days will feel like you're climbing a mountain.. but really it's just a 89 day mountain now :) Remember, from yesterday forward, it's closer to the 90 days that you need to heal.

Take care.. and I'm thinking and praying for you. Special hugs for you and Vinny.

["Just" Paul]

To answer your question Jess... no real hiccups so far. I do get some reflux now and then, but get checked on a regular basis (every 4 months like clockwork now that I'm in maintenance)... in fact I'm due for a fluoro soon.

I've had 6 fills, and 1 unfill, (was slightly overfilled one time) in the 3 years since I was banded... WOW It's now almost EXACTLY 3 years now (next week is my 3 year bandiversary)... I'm an old-timer!

["Just Jess"]

good for you, paul....... maybe i need to pick your brain on how to be a better bandster if i get mine put back. did you measure your food? count calories? how did you monitor exactly what you were eating? (((sorry for all the questions!!))) the reason i ask is bc in the beginning, i was religius about measuring and i tracked everything i ate on sparkpeople... but as i got a year or so out - i began "eyeballing it" and eating until i was satisified --- which was much more a cup to a cup and a half of food - which technically is more than we're suppose to eat at one sitting... and i wonder if that contributed to the band dilation back this summer when i was STREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSED --- which went away, but maybe not completely, bc all of this as of the last couple weeks came from left field. no new fill - no new prompting - no new eating pattern....... i just don't get it.


ps: happy bandiversary!!!! ;) i think you're the "oldest" bandster i know ((in terms of how long you've been banded)) you've been SO successful... i'm proud of you!

["Just" Paul]

I was all about "quantity"... not calories.

For me, volume eating was the problem in the first place.

But being a 'quantity counter', I was able to still enjoy my favorites (that the band allowed... i.e. my still don't like soft bread) and never feel deprived.

I use a small salad plate to eat, small fork to eat with... follow the rules about fluids before during and after meals (although I cheat on that during special occasions), and do Circle eating. Eat the protein first... then the veggie, then, if I have room, the starch. Eat it all REALLY slow... I mean REALLY SLOW, and chew the living hell out of it all.

I did change how I cook... other than a bit of my "standard" recipes, I cook a lot lower fat, and lower calorie than I did before. Part of that comes from using nicer ingredients (since I'm buying less, I buy better stuff, i.e. better cut of meat, etc.). If the food is better, you don't have to add as much to it.
My summer veggie garden helps too. We grow lots, and eat it every day all summer, and then I freeze a lot too, so I am getting in TONS of fresh veggies.

[lyndele]

Hi, Jess,
I can absolutely understand why you'd be in mourning - your band has literally been a part of you for a long time. It's been both a physical part of your body AND an emotional and mental "entity". Heck, I get attached to a rock if I hold it long enough. So you're perfectly entitled to mourn the loss of your band. Maybe it would help to hold some sort of ceremony to commemorate its loss... light a candle, say good-bye (and thank you), and make a promise to "keep the faith" (maintain your weight) until you're able to be banded again. Whatever works for you.

I think that the idea of looking at the next 3 months as a "pre-op" diet is a good one. Maybe substitute one meal/day with a protein drink (to keep up the protein, reduce hunger)?

Paul's suggestion to continue the habits of banded life is great. I know that using dessert plates, demitasse spoons and forks, etc really works for me psychologically. If I use a regular size plate, I immediately feel "deprived" just because 1/2 cup of food looks so small on a big plate :)

We'll be rooting for you!
Lyndele

[newlifeat57]

Paul, thanks for the insight to your success. I bought small bowls (more like bread dipping bowls) that I use for my breakfast hot cereal. I also use the small 1 cup glad containers that I can use for my lunches and now I am using them to measure my dinner. NOw, I've also started cooking my protein up in larger quantities, then I weigh out my 3 oz and then freeze them in their small serving containers. I don't use a small fork but i did go out and buy small dessert plates for my meals--the salad plates still seemed to big. The smaller plates makes me think I am eating more. I'm glad to know I'm headed in the right direction.

It's good to hear this kind of information often. Keeps us on our toes!

[kristina]

i eat on my kids plates. and look retarded. i need to get some cute saucers so i dont feel like a moron eating food off of spongebobs head.

[SheryBery]

LOL...I eat off of Connor's Larry Boy plate!

["Just Jess"]

I did change how I cook... other than a bit of my "standard" recipes, I cook a lot lower fat, and lower calorie than I did before. Part of that comes from using nicer ingredients (since I'm buying less, I buy better stuff, i.e. better cut of meat, etc.). If the food is better, you don't have to add as much to it.
those are all good points, paul --- thanks for the insight!!!! ;) wanna come cook for me???


I can absolutely understand why you'd be in mourning - your band has literally been a part of you for a long time. It's been both a physical part of your body AND an emotional and mental "entity".
yes, it was lyn! thanks for your support --- i also like your suggestion of celebrating the band's life with me.. and making a promise until i get it back. :) thanks a bunch! sounds like something the psychologist would have done in NC at the G2G psych session --- she was so awesome!!!!!


I also use the small 1 cup glad containers that I can use for my lunches and now I am using them to measure my dinner. NOw, I've also started cooking my protein up in larger quantities, then I weigh out my 3 oz and then freeze them in their small serving containers.those are great ideas too!!! and i have those containers. right now, i'm going to try to continue to eat like a bandster --- and hope (CROSS MY FINGERS AND TOES TIGHTLY) that it fills me.


to get some cute saucers so i dont feel like a moron eating food off of spongebobs head. haha --- what a picture!!! :pound:


LOL...I eat off of Connor's Larry Boy plate! and another!!!!!!!! :hahalaff:

[kristina]

g'morning beautiful girl..hows your physical and emotional self today...?

["Just Jess"]

good morning, beautiful, yourself!!!! :sun_smiley:

physically, i am better. still sore around the incisions, obviously. but i got out of bed a bit better than yesterday. still needed vinny's help - but not as much.

emotionally, i am EXCITED to chew something today!!!!!!!!! it's been 2 weeks since i've been on liquids - so the bowl of cereal i had this morning was heaven in a bowl. it all went down fine - i feel fine. so hopefully this is the start of a good day.

also, my mom and sister are coming down tonight to spend the weekend with me - so i am excited about that. they've been upset that they couldn't come while i was in the hospital ((apparently, my husband "put his foot down" and demanded that no one else disrupt their lives and that he could take care of me --- which was super sweet, and did take a lot of pressure off my parents and sisters, and in-laws too, that all wanted to take shifts sitting with me at the hospital)) good man! anyway, he is going to arizona this weekend --- had it planned for over a year now. he is the world's BIGGEST 49ers fan and his uncle and cousins are the world's biggests AZ cardinals fans.... so they play each other on monday night football and they've had tickets since the day they went on sale --- so he was going to cancel this trip, so i wasn't home recooperating alone, and I HAD TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN AND SAY "HEEEEEEEEEELL NO, GO!!!!!!!"

so we made a deal - my mom and sis came, he'd go. they're coming! he's going! everyone is happy!!! :) well, not happy that he's leaving - but you know what i mean!!! i love my hubby so much. he took such good care of me and never left my side in the hospital but to come home and shower and change each day - he deserves a break from me!!!! :crazy: crazy boy!

[kristina]

sounds like you have yourself a keeper!!
so i must know-what was the cereal you ate today?
i havent had cereal yet! and i miss it!
i was also thinking about this last night after i went to bed..like me..u are keeping your band a secret from most people...so what do they think is going on right now?
sooo good to hear your pain is getting better and better...when do u see your doc again? and whats the menu looking like for the rest of the day? miss. i can finally eat something!!!
gotta jet-taking kiddos to school...smooches!

[bgrand]

Awwww, Jess..........you have a beautiful family!!!!
And an amazing husband!!!!!

Glad you are feeling better...........

[lyndele]

Hi, Jess, I'm SO happy to see that you're feeling better in all ways today. You've sure been on a roller-coaster. I'm betting that you can keep close to your current weight (maybe even keep losing) - but don't beat yourself up if you gain a little. That would be the worst thing to do. Feeling guilty, despairing, self-loathing... all feelings that add up to weight gain. So do what you need to do to keep your spirits UP! Throw yourself into researching your new options. Take up a new hobby. Go out an buy an outfit that would make you glow (but buy it so that it fits tight) - then make it your goal to have the outfit fit loose. Anything to keep you focused on positives.

I'm just so proud of you for keeping your head up during such a difficult time.

["Just Jess"]

Awwww, Jess..........you have a beautiful family!!!!
And an amazing husband!!!!!Glad you are feeling better...........i really do --- i could not have hand picked them better myself!!!!! ;) i'm a lucky girl! ((and hey, they're pretty lucky too --- i'm quite a catch!!!))


Hi, Jess, I'm SO happy to see that you're feeling better in all ways today. You've sure been on a roller-coaster. thanks for the tips! and for all the support!!! :)


sounds like you have yourself a keeper!! so i must know-what was the cereal you ate today? i havent had cereal yet! and i miss it!special K with strawberries... very good! just one bowl with skim milk --- but that's something i've had before with no problems.


i was also thinking about this last night after i went to bed..like me..u are keeping your band a secret from most people...so what do they think is going on right now?honestly, i have a REALLY good cover up. only a few of my really good friends and close family know the WHOLE truth. but i was diagnosed a couple years ago with a hiatal hernia. this is the reason i give my work colleagues when i cannot have a beer, etc. and this is the story i went with for everyone who doesn't know. if you look it up - hiatal hernia repair is MUCH like having a lapband pouch. so it all worked together nicely for keeping my secret. vin and i were just commenting on that yesterday - how that worked to my advantage, and who would've thought having something else "wrong" with me would have actually "helped" me in some small way (even if it is just to maintain my privacy about bariatric surgery!!!)


sooo good to hear your pain is getting better and better...when do u see your doc again? my follow up appt. is nov. 20th.


and whats the menu looking like for the rest of the day? miss. i can finally eat something!!! gotta jet-taking kiddos to school...smooches! well, probably not the BEST choice --- but i had been dying for a grilled cheese sandwich since the first time i was in the hospital 2 weeks ago and it was the special on the menu that i should not have even been given since i was "NPO" (which we don't know what those letters stand for - it just means you cannot have any food of beverage) anyway... vinny was so sweet go to out and get my favorite bread from before banding - rye/pumperknickle swirl, low-fat yorgurt margerine, and reduced fat american cheese................ and i cooked up a can of awesome "hearty tomato basil" soup -- and we had ourselves our own lunch special of grilled cheese and tomato soup! a perfect fall lunch! i was sad when i wasn't full after half a sandwich --- but pleased that i only got through about half of the other half. so i ate 3/4 of the sandwich and half of a cup of soup. not too bad. i also had vin pick me up some apples --- and i plan on slicing them up with some PB for a snack later. dinner.............. i don't know - i haven't thought that far ahead yet. we'll see how we feel. probably my tried and true dinner most nights... chicken and veggies! haha

[newlifeat57]

Hi Jess. Thanks to you, Paul, Lyndele and basically everyone here at B2G, I am taking my no restriction a little bit better. As long as I keep to the bandster rules, I do well, but the moment I take a little detour, I don't do as well. You are a very blessed woman with a wonderful hubby and family. I'm still praying for you....

["Just Jess"]

Thanks, mel.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

i eat on my kids plates. and look retarded. i need to get some cute saucers so i dont feel like a moron eating food off of spongebobs head.
Corelle has bread plates that are sold individually .. I see them at Walmart, also I went to the baby section and found little plates there. I've gotten small spoons and forks at Kohl's store, there are 6 in a package and they have really nice handles, and don't look cheap. I got these buy 1 get 1 free. I went to the $1.00 store and got some small glass bowls, and I also use plastic Jello cups to measure things with too. Seems like I use 1/2 cup measuring cups a lot, so this works for me. I'd like to get a digital scales for measuring food. I have one that I got at Walmart, but it's not digital.

Hope these tips help.

[Will]

Yep, glass dipping bowls is what I eat out of. I love them!

[kristina]

pretty ideas guys...thanks!!!
and sorry for the hyjack jess! :)