Ali...a work in progress [Archive] - Band2gether™ Lap Band Forums and Support Groups

Kathy

10-04-2006, 06:02 AM

Good heavens I'm watching!!!! Fabulous work Ali! Good for you posting your bathing beauty shots. It's hard! but you know we all love you and just look at how skinny your legs are! Like me, your belly and hip weight will probably be the last and hardest to go. Unlike me, you will have skinny little legs! And I can see a big difference in how your outfit falls...the pretty moss green top? It pulls apart so much less on that side slit! And your face...don't you feel more like YOU emerging from underneath massiveness? I do, I look older (you look younger) but it's ME I see in the mirror, not some blown up something I lost in my massiveness. I'm so proud of you! Work it, girl!!!

hehe, I keep staring at you...well done!!!! Thanks for sharing your pics.

Jeannine

10-04-2006, 11:23 AM

WOW. Not only are you beautiful, you are brave. I don't think I could ever put my pics up for the world to see.

Loving-It

10-04-2006, 12:48 PM

:thumb: Looking good! I certainly see a difference, way to go!

You are braver than me. :hug: I can't even bring myself to post a pic fully clothed, let alone in a swimming suit. I admire your gazungas. :tongue1:

:happy: Congrats again! :hug:

MoOrLess

10-05-2006, 10:12 AM

Ali girl - you look fantastic! I can definitely see the difference - wow - especially your head shots! are you sure that is the same person? amazing, truly. And yes, it is hard to post pictures of yourself online - don't we all know - when we say you are brave - it is because we are chicken. Good for you - it is a wonderful way to see the difference for yourself as you travel this road. Congrats! You are doing a great job Ali!

A1ikou

10-05-2006, 11:12 AM

Thanks everyone, but I'm still not sure how I feel about the swim suit pics...guess the reality hurts sometimes...I never felt that big- even when I was 90lbs more than I am now.
I do wonder who I will be when this journey ends?!?!?!?

Telly

10-05-2006, 11:21 AM

Ali, you have done an amazing job and even still that your journey continues you are impressive and should be proud of how far you've come in soo little time. It takes alot of guts to do what we did and to push forward and do what's expected is alot of pressure, but to enjoy it and to allow a healthy lifestyle to become a habit is admirable.

You have really worked this band thing out and though we both have a ways to go before we are able to say.."were at goal" I know that you ..as well as others appreciate honesty, integrity and the "reality" of this journey. So don't worry about the swimsuit pictures, just consider it a landmark.

Tricia K.

10-05-2006, 11:27 AM

*mwah* A1i! You're doing such a good job and it's definitely paying off. Kudos to you, girlfriend. :hug:

sallyjo

10-05-2006, 01:44 PM

Ali,You go my girlfriend. Would'nt have known you if I had of just seen the first pics. Leave the bathing suit pics. They are fine. Ali I am so proud of you and more proud for you. I probably really won't know you by cruise date. Oh yes I will with that laugh you have. Keep it up sweetie you are doing a wonderful job.

MoOrLess

10-05-2006, 10:35 PM

I do wonder who I will be when this journey ends?!?!?!?

Ah, the words of wisdom.....isn't that exactly the hardest part of this journey to fathom?! I know for myself I have been hidden beneath fat for so long I have come to accept it, much like a sweater thrown over my shoulders. Eventually I guess it gets too uncomfortable and the time comes to remove that sweater, like we are all doing now. Keep on keeping on Ali!

Maryb

10-05-2006, 10:41 PM

Your doing great!

You will be glad you took lots of before and at least monthly progress pictures. I couldn't see it myself just looking in the mirror. The pictures showed me how much actual progress I was making.

jucyc

10-07-2006, 09:37 AM

hey ali girl. You know how proud i am of all you have done. Posting here just for you keep all the pics. You have earned everyone of them by hard work. I wish i would have taken pic. because they truly tell the tell. Anyway i need to see the changes so will know you when you get off the plane in June lol. Love ya you know that without me saying it and am proud of you.

A1ikou

10-08-2006, 09:59 AM

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I haven't been able to wear this waistcoat for more than 15yrs...and can you see the blouse is too big?...all my tops are getting like that YAYAY...picture doesn't make me look my best but hey ho...wedding number one! Next week (wedding 2), I'm wearing a dress I could never get into...and the top has had to be altered cos the bust was waytoo big...pics to follow.

A1ikou

10-08-2006, 10:05 AM

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OK, first pic was 3mths out...2nd was 6mths out... What you now can't see is that the top just hangs...it doesn't touch my belly at all and the pic doesn't show this and the trousers are so baggy they look bigger than they are, if you see the back of them they just fall away from my legs...time to try new clothes in my pics I think.

A1ikou

10-08-2006, 10:11 AM

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Here are the final two for now...3mths and 6mths...again I don't think my clothes do me justice...They are much looser that they look but this is how I turned out lol..next time, different clothes!

MoOrLess

10-08-2006, 10:14 AM

wow - I can definitely SEE the difference - I agree go for some new clothes lol - it's time to go shopping! woo hoo!

A1ikou

10-08-2006, 10:29 AM

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OK I couldn't resist...my original and my now pics...now here I can really see the difference!!!!!!!

shackdog

10-08-2006, 10:54 AM

The whole issue is "Its a journey" and this is what is so spectacular. The "Journey"

LindaV

10-08-2006, 05:09 PM

Ali - You look fantastic! Keep up the great work!

PhotoNut

10-08-2006, 05:42 PM

Heyas Ali :)

In a PM today I asked you how your weight loss journey was going. Well, it is true that a picture is worth a thousand words. My goodness woman! Look at you! You're just melting away! I'm so happy for you and proud of you. Keep up the great work. And now that I know this thread is here, I'll keep watching!

*big hugs*

PS. I still keep your poem with me and read it every day. It still gives me goose bumps and inspires me to no end!

EmileeKaye

10-08-2006, 06:22 PM

WOW I just reread this thread and took another look at your pictures. You are doing a great job! And those last pictures you posted show it best! You are shrinking!!!

P.S. I really love how you are doing your hair now, its very cute! You look younger in your current pics!

A1ikou

10-09-2006, 01:21 PM

When I look at those last pictures, I'm surprised myself at the difference and yet I'm sure many of you will relate when I say it's still not happening quick enough...Now this thing is happening for me I want this weight gone yesterday. I guess tomorrow will have to do and a few more days after that too LOL...

A1ikou

10-10-2006, 12:24 PM

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Found this pic of me last Christmas...now I want to see what this Christmas will bring me...Sorry I keep posting pics in the wrong order but it's how I find them 'lurking'.

JoyceGA

10-14-2006, 08:56 PM

Isn't it amazing that we really can't see the loss till we have pictures wearing the same clothes side by side.

You look fantastic!!! Time to max the cards!!!

Maryb

10-14-2006, 09:15 PM

Not only are you shrinking, you look like your getting younger!

Great Job!

A1ikou

10-15-2006, 03:33 AM

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Thanks for all the positive comments..they mean a lot :nod: I went to a wedding last night and have been waiting since my operation for this moment...I have had this dress years and have never worn it. The material has no give and I couldn't sit in it because I stretched the buttons so far it looked awful. Now the dress hangs loose and when I sit it looks fine and so I wore it. I had a good time too and had a wedding NSV- I danced! I don't know for how long but well over half an hour and we are talking real boogie dancing here. I only stopped because my feet were aching or I would still be there. Not something I could have done before.

Telly

10-15-2006, 08:01 AM

Damn classy! You look....words cannot describe.

I'm so happy today, seeing these pics makes me happy. Damn girl you look slim and classy. Great NSV!

Idahobeauty

10-15-2006, 08:59 AM

You look so much younger! I can't believe the difference. You are doing such an amazing job!!! Keep up the great work!

Stitchy

10-15-2006, 12:00 PM

Ali - You do look fabulous! The side by sides really show it. New clothes, new hair. And you have passed the halfl way mark. Good on ya' girl! Take a picture of your this Christmas and post those together, too!

Maryb

10-15-2006, 03:33 PM

Boogie Down Ali! You look hot to trot!

A1ikou

10-26-2006, 07:12 AM

Well folks, as of this morning, I'm 101lbs down :nod: It feels great to know I've lost so much but there's a downside too..I still have so bloody far to go <sigh>. hey, ho, hum..onwards and upwards then!

shackdog

10-26-2006, 08:02 AM

Ali: Keep the focus you are winning, just like me its a long path but one that is filled with many blessings for you

Diva

10-29-2006, 09:43 PM

You've lost 101 pounds, you are really an inspiration Ali. Please be proud of yourself. You've worked so hard, you deserve a lot of praise. Congratulations!

"T"

11-13-2006, 06:41 AM

Girl I was just going through your pics and you look awesome. Tears for you girl. Keep up the great work.

A1ikou

12-10-2006, 05:47 AM

I thought I would write Christmassy 'cos I have nothing better to do with my time lol! I have taken a new pic like the one I did last year next to the tree. I've been on a bit of a plateau recently and am hoping to kick start the weightloss again real soon - like now! Anyway I thought I would post them together and see what you guys think.
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Idahobeauty

12-10-2006, 08:21 AM

Ok, why am I only seeing 1 picture? I wanna see them both!

A1ikou

12-10-2006, 09:16 AM

ooops! Goodness only knows what I clicked or didnt click but I think it's fixed now. Thing is, I dont think these are the best 'spot the difference' shots but never mind...

PhotoNut

12-10-2006, 09:34 AM

Psshaw! I can see a huge difference! Honestly, Ali, you don't look like the same woman in the face. In fact, I would have been certain that these were pictures of two different women! Yay! :) :) :) :)

Telly

12-10-2006, 09:36 AM

Wow...just wow!

I see the major difference and it's all over you. You've lost so beautifully and you look awesome.

Your tree is too cute for words.

Stitchy

12-10-2006, 10:30 AM

Ali - you don't look the same at all. So, yeah, you have 100 lbs to go, but now you are at the minimum most docs will give the lapband to. (That's where I was - 100 over). You've made wonderful progress.

Idahobeauty

12-10-2006, 11:09 AM

OH HELL ALI!!! Huge difference. You are looking amazing! I swear it took 20 years off of you!

sallyjo

12-10-2006, 12:28 PM

Looking great Ali. Got your e-mail. I would put those lights up by myself if I were you.LOL. Love ya keep it up:nod:

A1ikou

12-12-2006, 01:06 PM

Oh alright then. I'll just nip off to the optician and get my eyes checked LOL. Once again folks, thanks for the comments, they got me back on my treadmill and drinking enough water. B2G works again. Kisses to all xxx

Diva

12-12-2006, 09:43 PM

Ali, from now on when I need a kick in the pants I'm going to look at your pictures again. You look so beautiful! You really do. You look younger and happier. In addition to the changes in your body I looked in your eyes when I look at the after pictures. Your eyes are always sparkling. You truly sparkle Ali, you truly sparkle.

NurseTeresa

12-13-2006, 12:37 AM

Ali. was lookin at your pictures and man oh man do you look fantastic! What a change. Then I had to cringe....you looked like my nursing instructor(she was nurse and teacher from hell)!!! LOL they say everyone has a twin, so i know your United States twin. So glad that you are so much nicer person. hee hee hee

MoOrLess

12-13-2006, 09:00 AM

Girl - I just got a chance to see this! WOW and double WOW!

Who IS that other person? I totally agree, it looks like two different people. Girl anytime you are being too hard on yourself go look at those pictures! You look absolutely stunning!

A1ikou

01-05-2007, 02:14 PM

2007. New year, new goals, new hopes and dreams and lots more work.
I would love to end this year less than 200lbs. I know things slow down as you go along and I'm going to try my hardest to keep pushing and working this band and my body to do the best I can. I want to prove the odds wrong and lose all the weight I need to. I wont be happy with 60 or 70%. I have some pretty special events coming up this year and each one will help me with a target to get to by then. My first is my 40th birthday is to get to about 250...thats 27lbs from where I am now. After that is the lapband cruise in June and then Christmas in England and hopefully somewhere close to goal by then.
I wasn't as good as I should have been in December and nibbled way too many chocs and so first thing is to get back on track. I have had a fill and hope it doesn't make me too tight. I got back on my treadmill and am feeling positive about getting it all together again. I will do some more pics when I feel that there is a difference to show and if not before, then absolutely the fab and forty ones :nod:

Kathy

01-05-2007, 10:43 PM

:jaw: Dang Ali!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where'd you go?! Time for smaller tops, you look FAB! Huge difference from last Christmas! Wow! Keep it up, you ROCK!:nod:

JDru

01-05-2007, 11:12 PM

Good luck in 2007!! I have a feeling that this year is going to be very, very good to you!

A1ikou

01-21-2007, 08:53 AM

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I had my hair permed just before Christmas and thought I'd have a pic with the 'do'. I am trying hard to get back to where I was...I gained a little (ahem) over Christmas but didn't want to change my ticker because it reminds me of what I have achieved and what I can do.
I am finding the eating and drinking side of things easy enough but my treadmill seems harder than ever. Doing 20mins at the moment is honestly all I can do before my legs feel like they will give way...why is this? I was doing 2x30mins before and working up a sweat but doing it easily enough??? This bit I don't understand.
I've got 8 weeks til my BIG party...in England for the big 40 where most people don't know I have been losing weight. I want to try and lose another 25lbs but have decided not to worry. If I'm doing the best I can then what is, is what is.
One thing I have noticed - the more I lose weight off my face the more I look like I'm going to be 40 soon...wrinkles, wrinkles everywhere LOL...

JDru

01-21-2007, 11:16 AM

I love the new hair!! You are beautiful inside and out. Good luck getting ready for your big party!

Stitchy

01-21-2007, 12:00 PM

Ali - I posted on another thread before I found this one. I LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair. And OMIG, look at those cheekbones! You look stunning, my dear!

Kathy

01-21-2007, 08:45 PM

Oh Ali you look just beautiful! awwwwww! Look how pretty you are!!!!! :hug: I loved the avatar but it's so good to see it close up. I'm glad you posted it. Just wonderful! And you do NOT look older or more wrinkly...you must see something we can't. You look Fab!!

Goannabanda

01-22-2007, 04:58 AM

aaawwwwww Ali - you are gawgeous! What a great pic of you. You look much younger in this one than in any of the other photos I've seen of you.
mwwwah!

HeatherGurl

01-22-2007, 06:59 AM

Beautiful pic Ali!!! You look amazing. I think you look younger and SO full of life!

Alicia521

01-22-2007, 07:55 AM

I LOVE your new pic and your new DO!

Neal R.

01-22-2007, 05:07 PM

Love the new pic! Great look.

Tricia K.

01-22-2007, 05:17 PM

Al1, I really like the new hair. :hug: Good luck on losing those 25 pounds before the big party!

DebbieChoos

01-22-2007, 06:41 PM

Wow you look so HOT!! Great hair and cheekbones! Love the new look!

Debbie

MoOrLess

01-22-2007, 08:41 PM

Ali girl - woo hoo! my jaw dropped - where has your face gone - wow hon you are looking absolutely fabulous - they will be shocked when you go to your party! Smile - you definitely are supermodel material!

aaamom

01-23-2007, 10:08 AM

beautiful!

A1ikou

01-23-2007, 12:06 PM

Thank you ladies and gentlemen, I like the perm too...as for the looking younger comments- well I have a husband who takes fabulous photos and add to that digital photography and soft focusing and hey anyone can look good! :D

Telly

01-24-2007, 05:07 PM

Ali I love your hair! You are so beautiful and the highlights work soo nicely on you and those blue eyes of yours. You English/Greek Goddess you! You got a chisled face gal.

A1ikou

02-08-2007, 01:36 PM

Confessions and more...
I have been kind of ashamed of myself recently. I gained more than I ever said I had to anyone, between end of Octoberish and the end of Jan. Well I didn't gain in January I just didn't lose any either.
I fell off the wagon big time. Dunno why, loads of reasons and none. I stopped exercising and started letting bad things back into the house. I gained 10lbs back :( I didn't say anything because I felt bad about it, really bad and didn't want to come across as some whinging failure.
Anyway, I have been away from here the last couple of weeks and thought a lot about everything. I have learned some things about myself and I hope they help. I'm not saying I can fix them but since I know they happen, its a start.
I'm all or nothing with food and that's the most important thing I understand about me. If something is mine I don't want to share with you. I can give you some at the end when I'm done but please don't pick from my things...I don't do moderation. If things are nearby I have to eat them all but can do very well if there is nothing about too. I just can't just eat a little and leave the rest. So we have nothing tempting in the house and that works for me. Well there is a tub of brownies but you see that's another thing. I see them as Jordan's not mine and so won't touch them. I am unable to do the same with things I see as 'ours'. The mind demons just take over and I want to eat everything, immediately!?!?!?!
I was wide open until Jan 3rd when went for a fill and now after a slight unfill because I tried to cope when too tight I think I'm alright in that dept.
Starting 1st Feb I began working again. 20mins a day on treadmill and a 10min bike ride. Not much but at least its regular and I can do it. Today I hurt my knee (first time in months) and will see how it is over next couple of days but am trying to be positive that I'm already made a dent in losing these pounds. The scale is up at mother in laws because if I don't see that the pounds aren't going down I can at least believe they are and then I keep on trying. I want to peek...I really want to peek but will try and hold out until next week at least.
I've been honest and updated my ticker and will get back to where I was...
I've still lost loads and am hopeful by my 2st anniversary on 20th March that once again it'll be more than 100lbs gone.
I know now that I have to keep working, even with the band if you aren't good(ish) and eat loads of crap then it all comes back.
I feel better, I am motivated again and I know I turned away from you guys when I should have screamed HELP because I am not good at being shouted at :Cry: but now I'm back 'cos only with you guys can I feel positive enough about myself to stay back on this wagon I've climbed aboard once more.

Tricia K.

02-08-2007, 02:10 PM

:hug: :love: A1i, I'm so glad that you shared this with us. Stay positive and don't forget to come here for support. We love you!!

JDru

02-08-2007, 02:48 PM

You have taken the most important first step: admitting that you slipped up. Now that you have done that you are free to kick some butt again and get back on the wagon. I'm so glad you're back because I have really missed you and your encouraging posts. Keep motivated and on those days when you feel like you can't do it...talk to us!!

HeatherGurl

02-08-2007, 02:50 PM

Girl, you just remember that you are not alone! Although a lot of us may not admit... there have been times or will be time when most of us will sway from the right path.
I have been there, done that, still do that at times... but me checking in here helps to keep my head straight!
We love you and are here for you. I am so proud of you for posting what you did and getting back on track.
I am actually a confessed swayer and I am also back on track. I go up and down now all the time 5-10 lbs. I think that is my body's way of maintaining. WE ARE HERE for you.

dynamomini

02-08-2007, 02:50 PM

Thanks for sharing your pain. We are all food addicts, otherwise we'd be thin or more "normal." Just think how much the band really helped you not gain 25 or 30 pounds back when you were "off", it's that reality that is encouraging me to get banded. So much of the work is mental and biochemical. I am thrilled that you have faced yourself, it's the hardest part of this. Yeah! We aren't a number, we deserve a healthy life, and we're working hard to get there. Who can ask for more? You are wonderful!

Stitchy

02-08-2007, 07:24 PM

Awww, Ali. That was hard to share. I'm glad you did. You do need to post here and share your frustration. We don't shout it you! We're here to help each other.

I came through the holidays OK. Only gained a lb, but it was because of the band, not my resolve . I sure was wanting to nibble.:ohwell:

kebsa

02-08-2007, 07:37 PM

Nice to see you back Ali, i doubt that there is any of us who can not relate to slipping up and fearing that we are failing- it is so much easer for most of us to focus on our faults than are positives.
I can relate to you thoughts about food too, Nothing that equates to a potential hazard for me gets through the door these days- At work a lot of the girls bring in chocolate, cookies and other junk to share and I do much like you- it is not mine, I can't have. Maybe one day moderation will work but at the moment its better to avoid tempatation.
Try not to be afraid to ask for help here when you need it- all of us have either needed to ask for help or will do in the future- At least we have a safe and non judgmental place to get help from others who understand

MoOrLess

02-08-2007, 09:44 PM

Hi Ali - hugs to you! it's good to SEE you :)

Telly

02-09-2007, 10:21 AM

I'm so proud of you Ali! I love your honesty. Best of all, you found out about yourself and you are physically doing what needs to be done to get back to where you want to be. You observed the problem, you analyzed it and now you are attacking it. That shows how strong you are.

P.S. no one is going to yell at you now O.O

PhotoNut

02-09-2007, 12:47 PM

Well I'm going to yell at you. Ready?

*Yells* WE LOVE YOU ALI!! AND YOURE NOT ALONE IN THIS!!!!!

*snickers*

Like Heather said, many of us have hit this point of emotional struggle. I really believe its a necessary part of the journey. It forces us to stop and deal with the issues that brought us to this point in life. And thats a good thing, right? Right! While we are in the early stages of banded weight loss, the euphoria overshadows the issues. We are thrilled to see the symptoms being eliminated (symptoms = pounds and pants sizes) but once that levels out a bit, we begin to see that the reasons we have been dealing with symptoms are still there and in full control. It's a scary thing to realize, but the great thing is - the band is helping you keep a reasonable amount of control while you are going through this. THIS is why we all got banded. THIS is what the real work is all about. THIS is why you will succeed. You have a wonderful tool to help you hang in there and even get back on track WHILE you face those really difficult times of self evaluation and improvement.

Every day we improve. Every day we learn more, grow more, and become more aware of the fact that we truly can do it this time. And I want you to know Ali, that I'm very very proud of you. I know right where you're at emotionally because I'm there too. And because of that I KNOW how hard it is to keep pressing forward and not give up.

Keep your head up, lovely.
We are all in this together and you will NOT sink.

*big hugs*
P'Nut

A1ikou

02-09-2007, 12:55 PM

As always....thanks guys.
Knee feeling better, back on that dreadmill tomorrow morning.
Kisses to all of you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

okielapgirl

02-10-2007, 02:04 PM

You look really amazing Ali. I see such a difference. I love the upclose face pics. A really big difference. You look awesome! Keep it up!

Telly

02-12-2007, 03:38 PM

Thinking of you Ali, hoping you are doing better.

A1ikou

02-13-2007, 04:07 AM

Thanks telly.
I'm doing OK. I try not to get weighed too often because the scale is still sticking. I keep reminding myself that my weight loss pattern has been like this all the time...lose some and then wait...sometimes for weeks and then lose a lot. So, I'm moving generally. Jordan's aunty came down for something today and caught me mid boogie to Shania Twain!!!:dizzy: I'm eating and drinking water as well as I can and am just getting on with it until that magic 100lbs + gone is back in my life.

A1ikou

02-17-2007, 10:33 AM

A month from today I will be boogying on down with friends and family in England, celebrating my 40th birthday. I'm glad I have a month to improve things a little and I'm glad that I have things back on track. Little ups and downs but now they are the things I can't really control and not the self imposed things.
My knee has been playing up so I'm careful with exercise but I haven't stopped doing it.
My doctor put me back on insulin. Seems my pancreas just aint making insulin at all now and so the tablets just can't work. So I have had a couple of problem days while I try and find my levels again. Thing is, I'm not too bothered. I AM diabetic and that's not going to go away, so if the insulin is only a little each day and it keeps those levels normal...well, that can only be good right?
So, hopefully the weight will begin to drop again in this next month because I'm finally doing all the right things to make it work. If it doesn't, then I'll go to England and not expect anyone to notice a difference and then if some do all the better. At least I'm tons better, fitter and lighter than I expected to be this time last year.
Here's to being 40...pics and party details to follow!

dynamomini

02-17-2007, 11:37 AM

Hi A1ikou,
I am interested in following your journey. You are doing so well. I am also diabetic, but am lucky that the meds are working. Are you Type I or Type II? How long have you been diabetic? Did the banding affect your blood/sugar levels? You can answer me privately if you prefer.

Best wishes I love England,
Michelle

DynamoMini

okielapgirl

02-18-2007, 01:15 PM

You look amazing Ali...I am so happy for you. The progress you have made is nothing short of amazing. You look so young and full of life. I love your new hairdo!

Neal R.

02-20-2007, 11:41 AM

Your doing so great! :) I am so jealous of your trip to UK and the cruise. Have fun for us :)

factory-girl

02-21-2007, 11:15 AM

Ali. Way to go girl! Way to go to all of you banders.........I'm one now as of 2-5-07. I'm down (with the 1 week of liquids) 311 to 283. I haven't lost anything for about a week. That's okay though...I know that it will come off. Thanks to all of you and the pouring out of your heart and your thoughts. You are all awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A1ikou

03-22-2007, 01:53 AM

O.K so I finally got here and I'm now well and truely 40! I went to the UK to celebrate the occasion with family and friends at a big party. I had a great time and it was lovely to see many people I hadn't seen for years.
Did they notice my weightloss?...erm no! Did it matter? Not a bit in the end. Actually, two people did, my hairdresser and one friend. When everyone saw the pics they were then shocked. :eek:
It`s also my year anniversary of having my band as of the 20th March. I haven`t lost what I had hoped and still have 100ish pounds to go but I am celebrating being so much better than I was a year ago and knowing life is a million times better than it would have been without my band. So now to year two and still working this thing.
So, you want a few pics?
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A1ikou

03-22-2007, 02:06 AM

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The first pic is my mum, my niece with her mum at the back and my niece's best friend.
The second is with my sparkly cake and the last is me, my brother, niece and me boogying...nuff said!

HeatherGurl

03-22-2007, 07:27 AM

Oh Ali!!!! It looks like you had a GREAT birthday party!!!! I am so glad!!!
You look beautiful in all of your pictures!!!!

shackdog

03-22-2007, 08:11 AM

Ali:
Have not talked to you for awhile read the before and during pics, you are doing greatttttttttttttttttttttttt, keep it up and keep the faith.

tarad

03-22-2007, 08:26 AM

Thank you.........you're such an inspiration! You look marvelous!

A1ikou

03-22-2007, 11:59 AM

OK, a couple more pics now I have 5 mins and then I'm done for now and I'll see where I am in a couple of months from now...
The first is me at home with Greek pals and a cake (I had a teaspoon only) and the second with my beloved niece and nephews...I miss them most of all when I'm here in Athens but its great when I do see them...
1529
1530

Kathy

03-22-2007, 12:16 PM

OMGosh, Ali...you look FABULOUS!!!!!!! Look how young you look! Well done. Thanks so much for posting pics, it looks like your birthday party was wonderful fun. You deserve it! You really do look great :love:

Tricia K.

03-22-2007, 12:33 PM

A1i, you are so pretty. And, you look fantastic! Thank you so much for sharing the pictures with us. :hug:

HeatherGurl

03-22-2007, 12:57 PM

Yummy! Who's the hottie in the black shirt?

JDru

03-22-2007, 01:41 PM

Ali you look awesome and so happy!! I love it when you post pics. And your niece and newphews are adorable. :)

Yummy! Who's the hottie in the black shirt?
Ha ha! I thought the exact same thing. Mmmmmm... Greek men. :lick:

Natural-1

03-22-2007, 01:47 PM

I can't see them here at work Ali but I'm sure you look marvalous!!

I'll check them out later on.

A1ikou

03-22-2007, 02:50 PM

Down girls....he's the hubby of the lady next him (in black too) and the daddy of the cutie in my arms. He's also the daddy of the little guy I wrote about in the spiritual thread...Nikos...and as good as he is gorgeous!

stac1982

03-22-2007, 02:59 PM

Ali! I think you look marvilous (sp? :) I know you said you are not where you wanted to be for your 1 year bandaversary. But from an outsider looking in, all I can say is, look how far you've come! You look so happy in your b-day pics. Just think what next years will look like!!!

lil'bitty

03-22-2007, 03:02 PM

Sorry Ali, I saw noticed the guy first too. Had a short fling with a greek guy right before I met DH, still think about him sometimes..................

BUT after drueling over him, I did notice your fabulous looking self!!! Amazing lady, keep up the excellent work!

cathy

03-22-2007, 03:31 PM

Yummy! Who's the hottie in the black shirt?

That's Ali silly!!!

Ohhhh you mean the GUY in the black shirt!

(Ali - have you tried any of the pudding? )

Natural-1

03-22-2007, 05:32 PM

Ali, you look great, keep up the hard work cause it's not easy for us. We fight for every pound. I am a witness.

MoOrLess

03-22-2007, 07:48 PM

Ali - welcome back!!! It seems you have been gone forever girl! But how awesome you look in your birthday bash pictures! Can't wait to hear more! love ya girl!

Neal R.

03-23-2007, 05:22 PM

You look great Ali - looks like you had a great time. Thanks for sharing :)

CaribnQn

03-23-2007, 05:40 PM

Ali....a work in progress - you're beautiful work in progress. Keep up the good work.

Telly

03-23-2007, 08:12 PM

Look at just how amazing you look. I'm in awe. Every new picture shows a beautiful progression.

I love all of your pictures. Stop being modest with them. Show us all of them!!! I'm sure I speak for everyone. We want to see more of you Ali.

A1ikou

03-24-2007, 02:52 PM

Thanks guys. I had a fantastic time and was treated so well by all my friends and family. Now it's back to work and see if I can get anywhere near goal by the end of my second year- not as my lovely Telly says "We want to see more of you"...I want to see much much less!!!!! Bring on the dreadmill...

Stitchy

03-24-2007, 03:12 PM

Ali - what great pictures. You look so happy. Made me smile to see you.
:nod: :nod:

A1ikou

04-10-2007, 02:36 PM

I'm still stuck at 275ish and its becoming real boring. So today I woke up in a good mood and began drinking my water. Then I walked on my treadmill and I found something else that might just help me out. I was reading my diary from last year when I was just starting out on my journey and doing very well. So, as I wrote down all that I ate each day I am going to simply try and eat the same things now and see if I can do somewhere near as well again.
I think I'm afraid that now my first year is over I've lost my window and I wont be able to do it again. I suppose time will tell. I have ten weeks until my cruise and I'm not going to be anywhere near where I wanted to be but right now I'll settle for being better than I am now!

JDru

04-10-2007, 04:08 PM

Ali you're off to a good start! I find when I get back into a routine (exercising, keeping a food log, drinking enough water) that I feel much better. You have definitely NOT passed your weight loss window!! That's the beauty of the band...sometimes we just have to adjust our lifestyles in addition to adjusting the band. :) Easier said than done right? Maybe use your cruise as a motivator. Or break things down into mini-goals: for example, I will exercise 5 times in the next 2 weeks.

I find I go in cycles of "being good". I'll do pretty well for a couple of weeks and then fall off the wagon. Then for a few days I kind of do wahtever I want, eat whatever I want...basically don't care. But then I don't feel very good, so I dust myself off and try to get back into my routin again. It's a constant struggle and I hate it!!

I guess my point is, we're in this together and we're all struggling with the same issues. You have done SO well! Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are an inspiration to me! :)

gigemkc

04-10-2007, 04:55 PM

Hey Ali, I just read the entire ... "a work in progress" and am inspired. What an awesome job you've done. You are beautiful and look so happy to boot. I'm pretty new to B2G and am awed by your honesty. We are all in the same boat, struggling with the same issues. It helps to read what others are going through so we realize we're not alone. Hugs to you :hug: and thanks for sharing.

Tricia K.

04-10-2007, 05:16 PM

A1i, I have no more words of encouragement than JDru has given you but I just wanted to give you a BIG :hug:!

A1ikou

04-11-2007, 09:08 AM

Thanks ladies. I'm not down about it really in fact the last few days have been the most upbeat for ages. I think my own biggest problem is setting myself unrealistic goals and then getting all melancholy when I dont achieve them. So from now on I'm just doing it and where I get is where I get and anywhere further down the scale is going to be better than here!

HeatherGurl

04-11-2007, 09:15 AM

Drinking that water and getting on that treadmill are GREAT steps to getting that scale moving! :)
Water alone will knock a few pounds off of you.
I am glad that you are with this new mentality... to not set up those unrealistic goals. I used to do the same thing! We can be SO hard on ourselves.
And don't you dare think you lost that window of oppurtunity....
I want to say that Emilee lost more AFTER the first year, than she did the second year.... Just check her out! :)
You are doing great Ali!!!

Telly

04-11-2007, 08:47 PM

Ali I like your realistic attitude. I've pretty much been where you are and I agree with you, I will get there when I get there. There's no real rush anymore.

If I never lost another pound I'll be ok but I do want to lose a few more or just gaine a few more muscle pounds. But the truth is, we all get burned out one time or another. I think it's normal to feel the way you do. But what's even better is that you aren't giving up.

mizfish

04-11-2007, 08:56 PM

Ali,
you are doing great! i can certainly see a difference! keep up the fantastic work:party3:

JDru

04-11-2007, 10:41 PM

I love that you have such a great attitude Ali!! :)

NurseTeresa

04-12-2007, 12:28 PM

My dear friend Ali! Sorry I havent posted in awhile but just wanted to tell you how absolutely georgous you are! Ya remember me tellin you you resembled that mean nursing instructor I had??????? Well.....thats no longer the truth! You are really blooming into a more beautiful flower every day! Sure do miss our long chats too btw! (however, you are always in my thoughts!)

A1ikou

04-13-2007, 07:56 AM

Thanks for all the wonderful support and comments from everyone. The day to day outlook is going ok. I still have the odd slip up but let them go and move on. Summer is always easier for me as regards food, water and exercise so bring it on!

A1ikou

04-30-2007, 12:46 PM

A new look for me. My perm was getting long and frizzy and needing cutting out so thats what I did , oh yeah and a few hightlights too...what d'you think?

1892
I am still struggling with eating the wrong things and exercising. I will get there..I am just trying one step at a time to get back to being the me I know I can be. Not always easy this trip we're making. I have lost steadily the last two weeks and have now given the scale to m-i-l upstairs so not getting down if that damned dial doesnt move (or worse moves the wrong way!). By the end of May I should be back to more than 100lbs down and on the way again.

Alicia521

04-30-2007, 01:03 PM

I love it!

CaribnQn

04-30-2007, 01:14 PM

Love the hair Ali. The color, highlights, and cut is real cute on you.

JDru

04-30-2007, 03:04 PM

So cute Ali!! It's nice to have a change every once and awhile. Is that picture your husband? He's HOT!! :)

tattooedsuess

04-30-2007, 06:04 PM

I LOVE the haircut! It makes you look younger and fresh. I agree that your hubby is very nice looking too! Greek men are so handsome to me though.

Neal R.

04-30-2007, 06:07 PM

Ali, you look great!

stac1982

04-30-2007, 06:16 PM

Ali!!! I love the new hair cut. It is so cute! The highlights make you look younger and really compliments your skin! I bet with you new look, it will make you feel great and maybe help to motivate you! Beautiful. Does DH like it?

SpookyJulz

05-01-2007, 03:12 AM

Ali~

Your hair is darling!!! I love it! I think looks very updated and sophisticated. LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!!!

DebbieChoos

05-01-2007, 03:32 AM

Ali - The new cut/style/color is perfect for you!! It's funny how something as simple as a hair change can make such a difference, you look years younger now!

All those greek men had better look out! There's a new heart-breaker in town!!

FemmeMode

05-01-2007, 07:28 AM

ALI....
CONGRATS for all your progress....
You are soooo encouraging...I'm sending your post onto my really good friend that had LapBand in November!!

You are looking soooo beautiful...I LOVE your new hair!!:wink2:

A1ikou

05-01-2007, 08:40 AM

Thank you all. It's had mixed reaction here. Hubby loves it and generally prefers my hair short and my mother in law loved the perm and so isnt too chuffed with the cut but does like the highlights. I like it and it will definitely be easier for the summer.

wavydaby

05-01-2007, 09:51 AM

LOOOOOOOVE the new look!
Smashing!

Shellster

05-01-2007, 11:36 AM

I love your new cut! It is very flattering...I love short hair and the different crops, layers, cuts, and highlights that are available now really make a new "do"! You look great. Chin up....you are on the right track!

Tricia K.

05-01-2007, 12:12 PM

A1i, I love your hair!!

Neal R.

05-01-2007, 01:06 PM

It will be nice for the summer for sure :)

PhotoNut

05-02-2007, 12:31 PM

Ali!!! I love the new hair cut. It is so cute! The highlights make you look younger and really compliments your skin!

DITTO!! You look wonderful! Love the change!

HeatherGurl

05-08-2007, 02:28 PM

love the new cut and color ali!

tann

05-09-2007, 01:28 PM

Wow ALI, you are doing a great job, thank you for the pictures!!

A1ikou

05-22-2007, 12:47 PM

Anyone who has read the 'frustration thread' will know that things haven't been easy recently. I was having reflux so went to see the doc. he gave me a complete unfill and said I'd had a 'slight slip' and in the next breath said ' absolutely nothing to worry about'. Doctors!
I'm still not quite back to my 100lbs lost :ohwell: but am getting there and when I do I plan on taking a couple of new pictures because I never did! Maybe when I'm on my cruise. Only three weeks to go and I am so excited. I am not worried about food there because I'll be in company the whole time and I'm always most relaxed around food and on my best behaviour when others are around. I'm a loan snacker...it's a head thing :wink2: One of the things I still can't believe is that all beig well I'm getting to meet our very own Heather...won't that be great!!! I just wish more of you lived near Houston. best thing in the world would be if one day we could all get together :nod: :nod: :nod:
So for now that's all. Hopefully very soon it will be pics from my trip and news that I'm more than 100lbs down and on my way again to that goal of being less than 200lbs...

JDru

05-22-2007, 01:25 PM

You'll get there Ali...you've been son well the past couple of months! I am SO jealous you get to go on a cruise AND meet Heather!! I can't wait to see the pics. :)

PhotoNut

05-22-2007, 01:30 PM

When are you going to be in Houston, Ali?

A1ikou

05-22-2007, 02:18 PM

Only the 16th June- when I'll be having lunch with Heather...cruise departs Galvaston 17th and when I return I'm staying three days in Aquilla with friends.

Telly

05-28-2007, 09:27 AM

Damnit, I wish I booked that cruise. I waited and waited and then forgot about it.

I sent you a PM Ali. I miss you lots! I pray that your band is A-OK!

A1ikou

05-28-2007, 11:13 AM

Thanks Telly girl...doctors tomorrow so I'll see what he has to say.
I wish you'd booked the cruise too!
Less than 3 weeks to go and I'm getting more excited by the day!

A1ikou

06-03-2007, 11:08 AM

I went to the island of Poros for lunch with my friend Friday. As we were walking round the shops I saw a small bag I liked to take on my trip. Just big enough for documents, purse and a small book. great. Alongside it was a bum-bag..do you call the fanny packs? A bag that ties around your waist to keep hands free? I didn't bother at first but told my friend I'd always wanted one. Try it she said, looks like it has a long band. I looked and I wondered...so I pulled it to its limits and gave it a go. It fit!!!! :nod:OK stretched out but it fit and they never have before, so now I have one of those too and my trip is less than two weeks away and my reflux has gone and Im losing about a pound a every 10days so slowly but surely Im getting there....Happy days.

HeatherGurl

06-04-2007, 04:28 AM

I am SO glad to hear that the reflux is gone!!! A pound every 10 days sounds good to me lady! That is better than gaining, right? See you soon!!!

Alicia521

06-04-2007, 08:04 AM

Ali I am so glad to hear you are doing well! 1 pound every 10 days is great...that's 3 a month and 36 per year if you break it down and that is great progress!

A1ikou

06-04-2007, 08:06 AM

well its better than none the last 6mths so I'll take it!

Neal R.

06-04-2007, 10:40 AM

Great NSV Ali, glad you feeling a bit better :)

JDru

06-04-2007, 01:58 PM

Ali that is so awesome!!! I can't wait until I get see the pics of your cruise with your fanny pack. :)

Natural-1

06-04-2007, 02:25 PM

Ali, you've done an awesome job & you should be very proud of yourself.

I'll take a pound every 10 days, believe me, I know about that acid reflux because I've lived with it for the last 4/5 years taking 2 pills a day. Now I'm down to 1 pill a day & I just take it because the doctor don't want a hernia in my pouch.

You keep up the good work!!!

A1ikou

06-12-2007, 08:35 AM

I have been pondering a few things. Today I went to buy a couple of new blouses for my trip. I walked into the town and my back ached. I was in shock. I had gotten so used to, over the winter, being able to get up and go wherever I want. Today I realised just how much the exercise I was doing had helped me and when I just quit I have started now to go back to how I used to be. My weight has gone up and down so much that I stopped bothering which isnt good. I confessed going up 10lbs but since then I gained and gained oh so slowly and kept thinking tomorrow...tomorrow...tomorrow.
Now my trip is upon me and I thought Id be all slim and sphelt but Im not...
So with all the inspiration flying around here at the moment I'm joining the spirit and saying ENOUGH is ENOUGH. I do not like feeling like this...I was so loving being a success and now I want it back.
I could say I'm waiting until my holiday...or even I'll wait until I get back but then I could be well over 300lbs again and I dont want to be.
So now. I start now. I'm going to use this page like a journal and once a week I intend to write how I'm doing. OK, that will have to wait until I'm back because I'm not going to have a computer with me.
Where do I start...this morning I was 293. That's what you get for not getting weighed and then using someone elses scale. I think I've been enjoying no reflux too and eating too much. That is something I am absolutely gonna take care of as of this moment.
I will see where I am on July 1st when I get back. I'm not happy about the way things are but I am motivated and haven't felt like that for a loooooong while.
Not happy but feeling positive.

NurseTeresa

06-12-2007, 09:28 AM

Ali...I am so glad that the reflux is gone and that your feeling better that way. You went through so much and have come a long way since. Yes you gained some weight back and lost your motivation but IT IS BACK!!! You will be fine. You have such courage and strength. It will be so much easier now that you know where you have been and where you need to go from this point on!! Congratulations on the fanny pack! What a fantastic NSV. Today fanny packs tomorrow tube tops..(do you believe they are back in style?) You will reach that point where you want to be! So what if it takes awhile. It is better to lose slowly then to gain fast! I am here if you need me! Ya know I have a soft spot in my heart for you! Have a fantastic cruise. Sure do wish I lived closer to where you will be so I could come join the rest of the bunch for lunch with you. Maybe next time!

HeatherGurl

06-12-2007, 09:59 AM

You know I am here cheering you a long! You will do great journaling once a week what is going one. We will be here to encourage you all the way! :)

Alicia521

06-12-2007, 10:01 AM

Ali, you will get back on top of things. Heck, with all the motivation around b2g lately, you will have lots of buddies to help you stay focused.

"Just Jess"

06-12-2007, 05:04 PM

no time like the present, they say! :) i wish you the best!!!! you have the right attitude! keep it up!

A1ikou

06-13-2007, 06:50 AM

Don't know if its the excitement (and some anxiety) of this trip (I'm off soon so will stop boring everyone sensless) or what but I feel really quite down today. I was sat having my nails done and all I could see was my belly that seems to have gotten so big again. Not that it ever got too small but now it seems to be hanging down again. Thats what gaining 20lbs that you worked hard to lose does to you.
I have eaten OK today mainly because the mood I'm in I just don't feel like eating anything and so the cravings go along with the general appetite. Havent drunk nearly enough water though and have that dreadful 'can't be bothered to get up and get some' feeling.
How can such a positive happy mood that I had just yesterday and that I was sure was a 'here to stay' feeling, disappear with such entireity so soon?
More headwork needed in this woman's life me thinks...

HeatherGurl

06-13-2007, 07:31 AM

How can such a positive happy mood that I had just yesterday and that I was sure was a 'here to stay' feeling, disappear with such entireity so soon?
More headwork needed in this woman's life me thinks...

We all go thru those ups and downs... I seem to have them everyday! I ate horribly yesterday and then I was crying last night because none of my freaking clothes fit. I am horribly bloated due to my TOM, and I was feeling really sorry for myself.
Beau gave me a pep talk, and I feel a lot better today. Everyone goes thru this stuff. I know first hand how bad it sucks to gain 20+ pounds when you worked so hard to lose it! BUT, if we can lose it once, we can lose it again!
Perk up girly!!! You have a wonderful vacation in store for yourself!

A1ikou

09-11-2007, 12:49 PM

Time for an update...
So, I have been in a slump for wayyyy too long now and have no-one to blame for that but myself. I could not be bothered to get my ass into gear and exercise and that's the jist of it. I thank god foe my band otherwise with the lifestyle I've led recently I would have gained and gained. My lowest was 273 and I have gone back into the 290's but without my band I swear I would have been 320/330s by now.
I have gotten my head in the right place only to be struck down by a mysterious illness. I'll hopefully get a better diagnosis by the end of this week and then I'll start to plan life around whatever they tell me it is. I know from the inspirational folk like Kebsa, Heater and P'Nut to name but a few of the many on here that despite the downs in our lives we can get on and we can move forward.
My strength these months has been my refusal to give up and say thats that. I know I can still do this (despite my doctor) and I know I have the head and the logic and the commonsense to do this and I will.
I am planning on going home to the UK for Christmas and will be taking lots and lots of pics. When I come home in the New Year I seriously want to post some updates on here. They are more than overdue! I would love to start the New Year in the 250's and so thats my goal. I might not be able to move as much as I want right this moment but I'm eating right and getting in reasonably low cals and most of those from protein....loads of salads and fresh veg too.
So, we will see.
For those of you reading through my thread for the first time...I may be a long work in progress but progress I intend it to be!

diana j.

09-11-2007, 01:02 PM

Hi Ali......I think your progress is wondrous.......your head shots tell alot...you look very serene in the second one. I have a hard time with formatted exercise.....I'll swim and hike when I can and today I walked the mall (twice) but my key has been good eating habits....I try never to deviate and even if my portions aren't always the best......WHAT I eat has changed drastically. So my conclusion is (for me) it's not so much about how much I eat but what I am NOT eating.......and even with my minimal exercise routine....I'm slowly losing. But I feel GREAT and how important is that? Keep on your path...there are many (myself included) who are amazed by you. :nod:

JDru

09-11-2007, 01:19 PM

Ali you are amzing and inspiration to everyone here. Your attitude is great and I know you will get back on track. You can do it!! :) I hope you feel better soon!

may

09-11-2007, 01:43 PM

Thankyou for sharing. You have really made some progress! I am inspired by you! and I too have a goal of 250 or lower by new year! We CAN do it!!!! I am tryin a new approach to all of this by telling myself everyday that I AM what I want to be. Healthy and active. and not to think about what I dont want to be or feel. It feels silly cuz I feel like I am lying ...but each day it gets easier. If my mind really believes that I am a healthy size then my body will get there. hehehe it sounds a bit silly but I think its true. :)

cathy

09-11-2007, 01:46 PM

Hey Ali - - need another supply of SF pudding to help ya out? ;)

A1ikou

09-13-2007, 11:39 AM

Thanks all, as usual you have a way of making me feel positive and happy all at the same time. Knew there was a reason I keep coming back here...

DonHoll1

09-13-2007, 12:13 PM

I think you can really see a big difference in your before and now shots. You look really good. Donna

mizfish

09-13-2007, 08:00 PM

Ali,
keep your chin up girl! Take one day at a time. Think about today and save tomorrow for tomorrow. You are quite an inspiration and should be proud of your accomplishments. I am proud of you.:flowerysmile::grouphug:

MoOrLess

09-13-2007, 10:03 PM

Ali - of course we are ALL here to support you - heck without you here...well it would be a sad day sweetie! I'm sorry you've battled some pretty big issues over the past few months - but you've stood on the top of that mountain once - you WILL do it again - and I am here to cheer you on every single day! Congrats girl - your head is on right, your eating is healthy, you are on your way DOWN girlfriend! HUGS and more HUGS!

CaribnQn

09-14-2007, 07:24 PM

Ali we have all had our moments from time to time. You have done so well and I'm quite sure that you will be back on track in no time - that's the benefit of being banded.

DonHoll1

09-16-2007, 10:56 AM

Ali, You sound as if you have been pretty down of late. I hope you feel better soon. Hope you have a great trip!!Donna

bgrand

09-16-2007, 11:44 AM

Ali,
We all have those swimsuit pictures!!!! Thanks for being the brave one and sharing. Keep up the good work.

MoOrLess

09-16-2007, 08:59 PM

ok Ali Girl....I went back and looked at your beginning pictures - the comments - and OMG do you realize you lost 54 lbs in 3 months? and 92 lbs in 6 months?! I am sitting here in shock - and you are giving yourself a hard time of late?!!! you need to stop that nonsense and realize that you blew us all out of the water with those kind of stats! Truly girlfriend, I am sitting here with my jaw dropped to my knees - I can only DREAM of losing that kind of weight in that short of a time period - amazing job! You just keep on doing what you do and everything will be fine - you rest when you need it - walk when you can - and know that your band and all of us are here for you every single day - I'm so proud of you....a cyber hug will have to do for now

A1ikou

01-10-2008, 12:50 PM

Wow, I cannot beleive how long it is since I have been here.
So, 2008 and heading in a couple of months towards my 2nd band anniversary. I'm not exactly a raging band success story but I refuse to say Im a failure either.
I was doing fabulously well and then something happened. The head demons kicked in and they won in a hell of a way. In the lat year I gained and lost silly amounts of weight. I did have some health probs that led to a complete unfill but what have I done since...I've rested on my heels and slowly and steadily slouched back into my bad old ways.
So now I am back from my low of 272 to 315 and I feel as unfit as ever.
I have spurts of doing well and then get bored or tired and out the window it goes. So why am I not a failure? Well for sure without my band (unfilled or not) I am sure I would have been more than my 375 starting point.
I have been sitting in the background and not mentioning my weight or what's been going on with me because I hating feeling I am not doing well.
Today I am ready to write. The head demons are dozing, they may even have gone on vacation. Either way I'm ready to fight for a while at least. I have my menus planned. I have an exercise routine I plan to ease myself into so that I dont quit as soon as I start with back or knee problems and at the very least I am going to get to where I was before.
I loved how I felt when I was losing and getting fitter and nothing those damned cravings and feeling sorry for myself so I'll eat ice-cream feelings do to me now will work. I want to feel the good again.
You know I don't care about the scale. I dont care about what clothes fit or dont or why my pant size doesnt go down like everyone elses. I want to feel healthier, that's all. So don't expect weightloss totals etc right now because that's not what I'm about. I am going to concentrate on what I put in my mouth to eat and how healthy it is. I will drink as much water as I can each day and I will damned well try and move each day too.

I am looking to find a new doctor to start working on small fills again. Those who know me will remember I have a silly doctor and had reflux probs...dont want either again.
So that's about it.
I don't know how long it will take me to get to where I was and beyond but I have thrown away a year and so will just be happy with each piece of success i 'feel'.
I'll post her periodically and maybe ask for help along the way. Always knowing you people are here to tell all and fear nothing has been a huge benefit for me. Without you, being here in Greece, I'd be doing this alone and then I know I would be crying failure right now.
Thanks for listening.

JDru

01-10-2008, 01:06 PM

I'm so glad you posted Ali! I often think about you and wonder how you're doing. I think your new mindset is great. Too often we focus only on the numbers and not enough on being healthy. You can do this! I know you WILL do this! Know you can always come here to talk and ask for help. Please keep us updated! :)

Tricia K.

01-10-2008, 01:09 PM

*mwah* I've missed you, A1i! I'm so happy to hear that, despite the minimal weight gain, you're doing well and have a great outlook for the new year. Please keep us posted! :love:

CaribnQn

01-10-2008, 03:22 PM

Hi Ali and welcome back. Don't beat yourself up about last year because you can't change that. Like you've said this is a new year and getting healthy is most important. I hope that you find a new doctor soon, and please don't ever feel too ashamed to come here to talk, vent, cry, cheer, or whatever you need or want to do. Chances are someone is experiencing, have experiened, or may learn from your experience so don't be a stranger.

"Just Jess"

01-10-2008, 05:32 PM

don't be so hard on yourself! we all go through slumps here and there...

best of luck to you, ali, as you set forth with your new resolve and new goals!!! we're all rooting for you!

Neal R.

01-10-2008, 07:15 PM

Hey there Greekish girl. Glad to see ya and wishing you all the best. You know we are all here for you :)

MoOrLess

01-10-2008, 08:40 PM

Sweetie - congrats on a new year and a new you! Healthy IS the real reason every one of us gets banded - you certainly are not a failure -- and overcoming obstacles is part of this new lifestyle eh?!

HUGS and know I, along with everyone else, are always here for you!

I have to say I agree - throw out the scale/clothes size/etc etc mentality-

HEALTHY IS "IN" GIRL!!!

spiketvl

01-11-2008, 02:06 AM

Good on you for posting and tackling those buggar head demons. If it helps something that is good for me is that I have changed the mentality that food is a "treat". So instead of saying "I have had an awful day I deserve icecream" I now say "I have an awful day so I deserve to blow off steam and have a walk". It may sound strange but it works for me :). And I totally agree about the health aspect. I have a chronic back and neck condition and need the weight off. When I see my blood sugar levels be at better than normal every single day since the band I know I am doing the right thing. Don't look back at last year- nothing can be done now and think how much you have learned from it - just seize the new day and celebrate your better health to come.

munch2much

01-11-2008, 08:56 AM

That's the spirit Ali. Be tough with those demons.

Speechlady

01-11-2008, 01:40 PM

I think you are awsome. It's probably a good idea to take the pictures. It would help your mind get a reality check. It is hard for me to have an accurate body image. I also look at pictures of myself and think how big I look. I also remember before I gained most of the weight, I felt just as bad about my body and how I looked in pictures back then. If I could only weigh that much now. Just keep plugging along and one day you'll have accomplished your goal!

A1ikou

12-06-2009, 10:33 AM

WOW, it's been a year since I last saw this page.
It has been the toughest year of my life in so many ways and none of them good.
I don't want to tell a long boring story but my husband (beloved until this point as many of you know well) decided about a year ago that an affair with my best friend here in Greece was the way to go.:Cry:
I have been living and dealing with the fallout and consequences of this ever since. I think I have cried an ocean so if the news reports a new one you know where it came from.
All this has had a huge effect on all of me, including my weight!
OK, band stuff...
My band is still inside me and sometimes I know it's there. It is fully open and has been so for more time than it was ever closed. Another long story some of which is in these pages... bad doctor, reflux issues and a small slip (that rectified itself)... Anyway, with the stress and stuff I have been through and losing my - who will come to the Greek doctors who don't want to speak English and help me out - support I have left it as it is. I can eat anything. Sometimes meat sticks if I forget and don't chew enough but a PB for me now is a rare thing.
I had lost 104 pounds in my best and then when band was opened it started to creep back. Add last Christmas and then consequent problems and it allllll came back over last two years - plus some more. I was eating junk to get me through the days. I didn't want to cook and eat alone and so I was surviving on chips, ice cream, biscuits. I'm diabetic too so self destruct doesn't cut it!
This last summer I went home to UK to think about everything and about my life and what I want. I like Greece and I like my lifestyle here (other than the husband bit) and so decided to come back. BUT I also decided to try and fix some things. So, I cut the junk... just like that. I am an all or nothing girl. So now its nothing. I can't remember the last time I looked at chocolate or ice cream. I also started - very slowly and sooooo unfit, to walk again.
It is working.
Stress and my new choices and the band still being there - I can't eat still anything like as much as I could pre-band so it's doing something. I have lost about 90lbs on my own and am still going downhill slow but steady. I eat whatever I want and exercise when I can.
My first set target I just gave myself is to be one pound less than my best weight by my next birthday in March and I think its very doable.

As for the rest of the stuff in my life. One day at a time. I have mainly OK days and some when I don't want to get up... he broke my heart but I'm getting there and trying to have some fun along the way as some know :thumb:

For first time in my life I am not bothered about Christmas.... I just want 2009 to go but to end on a positive note I am looking forward and am hoping 2010 will bring me some good and new things in my life... and that there will be less of me to be around to welcome them!8615

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Neal R.

12-07-2009, 08:22 AM

wow, Ali! Big hugs. I knew you were going through some things, but did not know to what extent. So proud of you! Sounds like your well on your way to a better you.

redgrldj

12-07-2009, 08:50 AM

aww girly... I love ya.. You are such a beautiful woman... Your strength and good heart are going to see you through this.. OMG I love the close up pic, you are sooo beautifulll....and a giant woooooooooooo freaking hoooooooooooooooooo on the 90 pounds gone.. You ROCK!!!!!!!

gregken77

12-07-2009, 08:56 AM

Wow----That is some Jerry Springer show crap goig on in your life. He had an affair with your best friend in Greece? How did you keep from killing someone? Seriously my wife would be cutting things off. Im sorry girl. Hey I know he broke your heart but he is a bumb. Yeah Ive heard men talk about there "moments of weakness" Weakness my foot! He planned that out. Nobody believes in commitment anymore. Your not going to find anything better sexually by sleeping with another woman. Its one of the worst things a husband or a wife can do to each other ----cheat. I would rather the person die then cheat. At least with death he was faithful till the end. A cheating dog just totally rejects you with that act. Im sorry girl. Hey you deserve better than that guy anyway. Yeah thats why me and the first wife got divorced ---I just couldnt get along with the boyfriend she had on the side. We were only married 9 months though (thank God) Sounds like you two were together for awhile. Anyway just keep your head up. Time takes care of even the worst hurts. I use to never believe this but its true. One day he will just be this guy you use to know. Good news is he can never hurt you again. Keep making those good choices for you ok?

Greg K

MoOrLess

12-07-2009, 08:51 PM

hey Ali girl....love the new you! You just keep that chin up -- and know that I am ALWAYS here for you, no matter what. Love you girl!!! You are rockin' the weight loss - I'm so proud of you :)

A1ikou

12-08-2009, 12:55 AM

Thank you ladies and gentlemen... one day at a time!

Nick N Ava's Grammy

12-08-2009, 02:29 PM

Thinking about you Ali.. and I love your hair and make up .. your eyes are sooooooooo blue!! :) You're beautiful.. and just wanted to say that even tho it's hard right now.. you're so much better off without him. Wishing you peace in your heart.. and congrats on your weight loss.. you're really an inspiration!!

kfowler

12-08-2009, 08:46 PM

Ali,

I have just spent the last hour reading all of your post beginning in 2006. I am in tears and disbelief with the thought of what a true inspiration you are. Thank you for sharing your story so openly. I am newly banded only 3 weeks out and already beginning to struggle with the head games that have controlled my every move for the last 44 years. As I read your post I was able to see myself in so much of what you had to say except I have to say you are way more courageous than I could ever be. You are truly a beautiful woman inside and out.....thank you ...thank you... for sharing your story with us....congrats on the recent weight loss, I wish you nothing but the best in 2010.

Kelly

newlifeat57

12-09-2009, 03:18 PM

Ali, I just quickly went through your thread and read about your struggles. I am glad to know that you have struggled and have come out stronger and more focused. Its good to know that one is not alone in the struggles that seem to hit at different times in our lives and for whatever reasons. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your journey. You are an amazing woman!!! I keep telling myself that slow and steady wins... but sometimes it is so hard!!!

A1ikou

12-11-2009, 11:46 AM

Thank you again for the kind words all. I'm finding Christmas really tricky so your support and encouragement means an awful lot to me.

Patrick

12-11-2009, 07:34 PM

Ali, you are an incredibly strong woman and you are going to go on to better and greater things. You do have a support network behind you, right here.
I too feel your pain but you will recover, and the fact that you are getting your eating back on track proves that. 2010 is going to be your year, I know it!!!

A1ikou

12-14-2009, 12:49 PM

Thanks Patrick...

I made a decision to start the New Year away from here and am going to London to stay with a friend....

The good thing about things being the way they are is the food... there isnt any LOL No chocs, no biscuits, no cakes, no nothing tempting...

Always something good from something bad!

Patrick

12-14-2009, 03:31 PM

My DW and self are planning our England trip for 2011. Will keep in touch and if you are in neighborhood, it would be great to meet up with you. I know it is a long way out, but we are commited to other activities with the kids this year. We will probably come off season to avoid the crowds and give me time to take DW around areas I used to live.

A1ikou

12-17-2009, 08:22 AM

Patrick

12-17-2009, 03:59 PM

We look forward to that. We will definitly keep you informed.

catmom50

12-17-2009, 05:06 PM

Stay strong Ali. I'm looking forward to some more after pictures.

Stitchy

12-17-2009, 08:28 PM

A1ikou

01-08-2010, 08:53 PM

I knew none of this until a little birdie told me at the G2G (but we're not naming names). I am so sorry but I can't tell you how much I admire your spunk. Coming back to Greece! I would have hightailed it home to where ever home is!

Congrats on losing that 90 lbs ... again. And no fill? What a woman! A mighty beautiful woman at that!

Love to you, my friend.

Thank you...
Well things are moving downward still....slowly! I need to up the exercise but am doing two things not done for years... 1. learning to balance in high heels (ex was shorter than me) and feeling sexy in them too :thumb: and 2) wearing first jeans ever without elasticated waist... so not too bad a start!

A1ikou

01-12-2010, 02:14 AM

Ummmm.... it is hard not to reach for the most comforting of comfort foods right now but I am working hard on distractions (and no not all male LOL) and not letting myself slide back into the bad habits. You all have been there. When we feel low especially it is hard but I think I am winning... so far!

Patrick

01-12-2010, 03:31 AM

Keep fighting off the comfort foods. I have had a very bad fall and was not that successful and many pounds later I am getting back into the bandster routine. Just do the best that you can right now and know that there is something bright waiting for you just down the road.

MoOrLess

01-12-2010, 06:06 PM

Thank you...
Well things are moving downward still....slowly! I need to up the exercise but am doing two things not done for years... 1. learning to balance in high heels (ex was shorter than me) and feeling sexy in them too :thumb: and 2) wearing first jeans ever without elasticated waist... so not too bad a start!

woo hoo on THREE NSVs! I'm so excited for you Ali..

sexy - heels AND jeans! awesome :thumb:

A1ikou

01-18-2010, 05:07 AM

woo hoo on THREE NSVs! I'm so excited for you Ali..

sexy - heels AND jeans! awesome :thumb:
Thank you Mo... as always (((HUGS)))

"Just Jess"

01-24-2010, 04:42 PM

how ya doing ali??? still beating them off with a stick, i presume??? hehe ;)

Telly

01-27-2010, 12:54 PM

Ali, so happy to see you are doing well again and the best part....you are putting in your time with "the headwork"

I love you and I often think about you. Are you on facebook?

A1ikou

03-28-2010, 06:12 AM

Update time...
Life is still a surreal rollercoaster (ask Mo, she gets hit with it and usually has to ask... which one is that again LOL?). The level out parts and the ups are definitely beating the downs but they still take me pretty low when they hit.
I cannot believe the changes in me... I kind of hope not too much 'cos I kind of like being me!! I am going home to the UK at the end of April for a big family party and apart from the blond hair etc it will be interesting to see what they make of me (not to mention my veryyyyyyyy cute date -ahem).
As for my weight, I seemed to have levelled out a little and am nibbling crap stuff so need to check that.
But... my shape has definitely started changing. I am still buying the same size bottoms out of habit but have noticed although they fit my hips still the waists are gaping big and need to be altered on pants and skirts.
My bra size has changed - LOL the girls have actually gone up a cup size and down 2 back sizes!!!
I am also buying a small size in tops and dresses and I am definitely getting better in the heels... just need 6'2" men around now to escort me LOL

My father in law passed away a week ago and I loved him very much so that has been tough on me. However, it is the Easter vacation now and I have made a diet, exercise and activity plan and hope to get a whole lot of things achieved in the next 10 days or so.
Still feel lost and lonely about many things but am proud of myself for getting up and trying to make each day better... Some of you who read this know how much I appreciate your words of support, encouragement and humour to get me through. I love you guys a lot xxxxxx