Gina's Journey

[ginabobina]

Well, I have been banded over a year now and I've been inspired by the "journey" threads of so many of you that I'm finally starting my own. Here's my story...
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I was a healthy weight throughout childhood and quite a sweet little girl. As I hit adolescence things began to change (don't they for everyone!!) In high school i still wasn't very overweight but my best friend was very thin - As a size 10, healthy for my height, I felt huge next to her size 2 frame. At some points I was in a 14 - still looking back that was healthy, but you know how high school can be. I had boyfriends and friends and a pretty "normal" high school experience. I did have some things happen in my teen years that did some damage and those issues had a big impact on my weight, eventually.

My senior year I started dating the love of my life, who I married 11 years later...5833

I did Weight Watchers for the first time that Senior year - going from 165 to 144 and felt and looked great!! 5837Highschool graduation was a big step although it was also a scary time... my Dad had a mini-stroke (TIA) the week before graduation at the age of 43. It was scary! But I graduated and he got to be there... one of my favorite pictures... 5835

I was a camp counsellor that summer - the canoe instructor!! I had a great tan by the end of the summer and felt great about how I looked...

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[ginabobina]

When I went to college, it was a big change in so many areas of my life - some things I handled well, others not-so-much!! I gained a little that first year, maybe 10 to 15 pounds. The second year is when I started falling apart though. I was diagnosed with Depression and had a lot of difficult things going on. I started gaining weight more rapidly and it became a snowball that wouldn't stop. I insisted to doctors that something was wrong - that yes I was eating pizza and eating like a college kid but what I was eating wasn't matching what my weight was doing. In the 4 years of college I ended up gaining 100 pounds.

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Over the years I tried so many things to lose weight and was never able to lose more than 45 pounds at a time, always to gain it back plus more. I tried so hard - diets, exercise, therapy. It felt I had reached a point of no return - that I was just not capable of losing the weight. I continued to gain over time and by the time I got married in 2001, I weighed about 320. I thought surely that would be the highest - I was ready to be married and have that "normal" life I had so dreamed of. Sadly, not only did I not find weight loss success, I gained an additional 100 pounds in 6 years - I am still absolutely astonished by my highest weight of 418!!! Shortly after getting married I was diagnosed with PCOS, after 10 years of symptoms. I was devastated and relieved all at the same time - finally an explanation for part of my issues.


at my highest...
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I learned about the LapBand from a doctor I went to for the Optifast liquid diet. It had just started gaining some popularity but was mostly being done in Australia - she said people were flying there from the US to have it done. She explained what it was and I kept that in the back of my head as a last resort. Every time I thought maybe I should think about surgery, I would just bawl... why should I have to do this? Why can't I just figure out how to make it work on my own - what's wrong with me?!! I did not have a good spirit about it at all. I wanted to be sure I had tried to the best of my ability to lose the weight on my own and keep surgery as a last resort. After a surge in my weight towards the end of 2006, I again turned my thoughts to the LapBand. I had prayed for over a year that if God wanted me to take that route, He would have to completely change my feelings towards it.... and He did!

I began researching the Band and discovered a certain support site we like to call b2g! The information here was so helpful and I hooked up with Kim who works in the office of the surgeon I was considering. I went to the seminar and that was that - I was sold.

Here's what I learned and/or realized that helped me make the decision...

1. that once you pass a certain body weight, it is almost impossible for your body to physically lose the weight without the assistance of surgery... that it is no longer an option to do it without surgery... only about 5% of people at higher weights are able to lose the weight and keep it off... I knew I was not in that 5%!!!

2. That one of the reasons the surgery works is that the band keeps the food at the top portion of the stomach where there are nerves to signal to your brain that you are full, even with just small amount of food... that means you don't have to starve!!!

I went through the process, learned all I could and had my surgery on June 18, 2007. I have absolutely NO regrets about doing this!! Is it hard at times? Absolutely!! Is it worth it? Without a doubt. I've lost about 90 pounds and still going - I know that I will continue to find success as I take one day at a time with the support of my amazing friends!!


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[graciesaunt]

Ginabobina,

In your journey story, I could see pictures of me through your words. I could relate to the college years and the grand "diets" we try. My college graduation present from my parents, after 4 hard years of study (and food)....a DIET. I kid you not. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. You look FANTASTIC in your latest pic!!! Your twinkling eyes and smile shined through in all your photos, but I've had the honor to see how far you've come. Thanks for inspiring me!!!

[reggiesue]

WOW GINA!!!! What an inspiration! Keep up the great progress!!!

Gina

[brwneyedbeauty]

Gina you are such a beautiful women! I am so proud of you. You were one of the first who held out your hand to help me along and I won't ever forget that. I am here all the way cheering you on.


Cheri

[chrispygal]

Gina, you are so beautiful - inside and out. You got me all teary-eyed with your post girl! I am so proud of how far you have come in your first year and am looking forward to seeing you continue to lose. :)

[redgrldj]

Gina you are such an inspiration... I know there was more going on in your life than what you wrote.. Girl you are so beautiful... Thanks for sharing with the rest of us..

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

My Dear Gina.. If you only knew how much I admire you and your wisdom. When I read your posts.. you touch my heart.

You've done so well with your weight loss, and I know that you are on your way to achieving your goal.

Loved seeing your pictures of your life. You're an amazing young woman honey. Thanks for being you!!

[kristina]

Gina- you are a walking talking miracle girl. you put all of your love into everyone around you and we reap the rewards. i know there is a big giant mansion in heaven with your name all over it. you inspire me to be the biggest best loser i can be! you have done outstanding with your band!!
your story is very relatable, and i loved seeing your pictures. you have always been beautiful, at 4 years old and at 418 pounds. you trully have a beauty that shines through your eyes, and your smile. and i am grateful to the Lord for putting you in my life, you are my eternal friend.

happy bandiversary.

[Neal R.]

Gina, you were, are, and will be beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story with us. Your doing so well. :)

[bgrand]

Gina,
This story is so beautiful and so are you!

[503-250]

Gina, I love your story and the fact that you shared it with us...

Thank you and hugs and kisses!

[JDru]

Gina, thank you so much for sharing your story and your beautiful pictures. I always look forward to reading your thoughtful and poignant posts. You have made such tremendous progress this year and I know you are going to continue to succeed. I'm so proud of you!! :)

[WildAlaskaG'ma]

Gina what an inspiring story !!! And you told it beautifullly. How did you get to be so smart & beautiful ??? I feel soooo honored to witness your journey and humbled at the opportunity to support you along the way.

[DebbieChoos]

Gina - Great story, this just reinforces everything that I already know really are a beautiful person. I've got no doubts that the next 90 will just melt off you too.

BTW, who would have thought when Betty made you put that dam white floppy hat on AS SOON as you sat down at PF Chang's would have produced such a beautiful picture? That has to be the best picture of you that I've EVER seen, I'd better stop giving her so much crap about her hats...

[Kim G]

Gina - OMG what a story are a beautiful woman! I was honored to be called Gina on this very site. :) Anyway you are amazing, strong, smart and just plain nice. Congrats on the first year and the 90 pounds lost. I am so glad that I have gotten to be a part of it and want to continue to be a part of it!!!!!

Keep up the good work! Keep inspiring those who are just like you!

[Dustbunny]

Thanks Gina beautiful story. I agree with Debbie about the hat picture. But the first bicture of you as a little girl is so sweet. You've always been beautiful and very kind. DB

[SteffiLee]

Thanks for being brave enough to share your pictures and story. Putting yourself out there - exposed- really helps the rest of us realize we are not alone. Thanks again!

[ginabobina]

Thanks so much for all your kind words and encouragement!! I DID feel a little nekkid putting that out there but I feel safe with y'all, so thanks! It was good to get it down in writing and share some of my history. Thanks again for the support!

[stac1982]

Oh Gina, I loved hearing your story! (I have heard most of it in pieces, it was nice to hear it all together) You are one great gal and I have loved getting to know you.

That pictue is great of you in that floppy hat! Who would have thunk!

[afisher4band]

Gina....WOW! That is awesome and just what I needed to hear now!

[Shellster]

Hey girlfriend! I absolutely loved your post....very moving. I just love ya! You're a doll from that 1st photo all the way to the last photo and your insides match your outsides. You're a great person and I'm proud of what you're doing and what you've accomplished!

[bgrand]

Gina, you know i am always up for hat shopping!!!! well any kind of shopping....
LOVE ya girl!!

[MoOrLess]

Gina - you're amazing! Truly...overcoming life's obstacles is no easy thing - and you've done it with grace and beauty, within and on the outside too - your pictures prove it!

Thank you for taking the time to share from your heart - I'll always remember your pictures throughout your life and "your" story - high five to that fantastic first bandiversary!!! You've shown everyone what it takes to be successful and are always there with a positive comment or words of encouragement.

I'm proud to be part of B2G and a bandster friend. HUGS!

[ginabobina]

Wow - I am grinning ear to ear right now... I didn't even tell anyone except my husband about something I've been pursuing because I didn't know if it would work out... but it has... I got accepted to Graduate School for Professional Counseling!!!

I can't believe it! I have been considering it off and on for 15 years, no lie... have even been part of the way through the admissions process before but the timing was never quite right. On the outside, the timing looks pretty ridiculous right now too but it finally feels right, if that makes sense. I'm doing a blended program, which means that the majority of classes are through online distance learning with several intensive one week classes mixed throughout. My first class starts 8/18!!!!:eyerub:

So, here's some of why this is partly crazy timing... we've had a rough couple of years, hubby and I. We're on the uphill part of the climb back out of the valley but it has been rough. I'm leaving town in a bit to go up to the mountain house, which has been a refuge for the couple of years we've had it. We've made the difficult decision to sell it, which is the right thing to do but also hurts my heart. It is next door to my parents and I imagined we'd be vacationing there the rest of our lives... my parents retired to the house they previously rented out. We do have an interested buyer who will be looking at the house inside on Thursday... for those of you who pray, please pray that he will buy it and that we can have a quick, smooth transition. I'm planning to spend tonight through next Sunday there to enjoy it and start packing up some things - it came furnished and we're selling it that way but we do have personals there too. I know it will be a sad time but also I feel a lot of gratitude for having such a place available at a time in my life when it was so helpful and important.

I am also continuing to look for work and figure out what it is I want to do. I'm a web programmer but have not worked for 4 years (thought I would lose the weight and have 2 babies by now). So, my skills need to be updated and I need to get together a portfollio of some sort. My programming language is not as popular now after the influx of open source options... so I'll probably be learning a new language.

So, I'm excited about Grad school, sad but in some ways relieved about selling the mountain house, and nervous about finding a job! Aaaa!!!

On another note, I have always wanted to be a writer and know that will be part of my life too at some point. This week I had the honor to meet my favorite contemporary writer here in Charlotte at a book signing - AWESOME. She is exactly as I imagined and I am so excited about reading the new book this week I can hardly stand it! If you enjoy reading... her name is Mary Alice Monroe - my favorite book of hers is "The Beach House" and the book that was just released is called "Time is a River".

I always feel a bit naked posting personal stuff but there it is! :nod: Thanks so much to my b2g buddies for always being such great support!

[JDru]

Congratulations Gina!! I am not surprised you are interested in counseling since you are always such a great source of support for everyone here. Good luck with the house...I'm sending good vibes your way. :)

[Liberty]

Gina how exciting for you! Congratulations! New exciting goals are so motivating.

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I've just read through you story and find so much of your story is similiar to my own. I married my high school sweetheart too! You are really making great progress and you'll be at that 100 pound mark in no time. Your willingness to provide open honest support to the folks on the board is so wonderful. I appreciate you very much.

Take care!

[WildAlaskaG'ma]

I am grinning ear to ear right now... I got accepted to Graduate School for Professional Counseling!!!

YIPPEE for you, Gina !!! That's incredible news !!!

,,,My first class starts 8/18!!!!:eyerub:

Wow !!! That's coming up quick !!!

We've made the difficult decision to sell it, which is the right thing to do but also hurts my heart. ,,, I know it will be a sad time but also I feel a lot of gratitude for having such a place available at a time in my life when it was so helpful and important.

What a great attitude you have about it !!! But, I'm sad for you too ,,,

So, I'm excited about Grad school, sad but in some ways relieved about selling the mountain house, and nervous about finding a job! Aaaa!!!

So many changes happening so quickly ,,, Not surprised you're in a whilrwind of emotions. I'm sending huggs your way and prayers on your behalf. It's always a blessing to be able to lend support to you, who supports so many !!!

I always feel a bit naked posting personal stuff but there it is! :nod: Thanks so much to my b2g buddies for always being such great support!

I know how scary it is to reveal personal stuff. We would never do it were it not for our great B2G pals who we have learned to trust with our lives !!!




And thanks, BTW for the info on your favorite author ,,, I'm gonna try to pick up at least one of the books you mentioned.

luv & huggs, Gina ,,, and good luck with all your new undertakings !!!

[MoOrLess]

Congrats Gina! oh how I know just how intimidating it sounds to go to grad school - but hey, if this old lady can do it (finally) then so can you. I'm in the SAME position as far as getting a job - I have experience in many areas - but library science is not one of them and I'm having a tough time just find a "part-time" job in a library --- I guess I'm over-qualified for the part-time jobs and under-qualified for the full time ones....I feel your pain.

And I'm so sorry you have to sell the mountain house -- and I AM a prayer - so prayers it is! Sometimes things and people are in our lives for a reason - and then they leave. It is very sad but at the same time we have fond memories to cherish.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Oh Gina.. how happy I am for you honey!!! This is such an amazing opportunity for you. Altho I kinda know how it is to sell something that means so much to you. We had to sell our mobile home in Florida 5 yrs ago.. and I miss that little place so much.. BUT.. the memories we have are wonderful.

The time is right for you to do this now honey.. God works in mysterious ways (as you know) and this gives the saying "in His time' the special meaning it's meant to have. If you have peace of mind about this, then it's right.

When you post on here, or give someone encouragement, it comes from your heart.. and now I realize what your life is all about. You'll make a great, caring, understanding counselor.. you've already "hung out your shingle" here on this site.. lol

Hugs and special prayers and love coming your way GinaLou ;) (when someone is very special to me I hang a Lou on their name.. I'm thinkin' I'm gonna be hangin' Lou's off of a lot of my friends names now) lol Love ya.. mean it !!

[kristina]

oh gina...me sweetest girl...i am so proud of you for putting yourself out there...for comfort and huggs and support. that is always the hardest first step, and then we come back and say wow, they really like me! and are like me. cause we all experiences those ups and those downs, the worries, and the rewards. sharing those experieces with you you, are what make this place the greatest site on the net. no doubt. i am gunna go and call ya.
congrats on the acceptance! u so deserve it...and i know you are going to be a famous writer some day. your posts are always easy and enjoyable to read.
i will def. be praying for you during this transition in your life.
in the meantime- i can totally reaffirm that the beach house rocks!!!!!
i will be getting her next novel soon.
thanks for being so wonderful girl...u def. make B2g a brighter place to be. love ya!


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[Neal R.]

Congrats Gina, thats great news! :)

[WildAlaskaG'ma]

(when someone is very special to me I hang a Lou on their name.. I'm thinkin' I'm gonna be hangin' Lou's off of a lot of my friends names now)

,,, JudyLou ,,, Yeah, I kinda like that !!! LOL !!! ,,, xoxo

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

OHHH JudyLou.. I just laughed out loud!!! Toooooooooo dang funny... :D:D But you're right.. you'll be JudyLou for me forever :) (sorry for the hijack again) lol

[redgrldj]

Gina woohoo I am sooooo excited for you... maybe instead of selling your mountain house, could you guys hire a management company and rent it out... Make some money off of it..

[ginabobina]

Hugs and special prayers and love coming your way GinaLou ;) (when someone is very special to me I hang a Lou on their name.. I'm thinkin' I'm gonna be hangin' Lou's off of a lot of my friends names now) lol Love ya.. mean it !!

I do that too!!! Too funny! I say it to my niece all the time - she's 6 - she's so funny... "that's not my NAME!" lol!

Thanks everyone for your support!!

PS We considered renting it out but it's not a viable option right now - people are not doing as much traveling and vacation rentals are WAY down. I feel good about it though... I'm looking forward to my time here

[bgrand]

Gina..this is wonderful news and it could not have happened to a more deserving person. You are going to be an awesome counselor.

[itsfinallytimeforme]

Im so happy for you, and proud that you havent given up your dream!!!!

Here is to the future, and just think, you are going to help heal the world. and you will be wiser for what you are going through right now.

Sorry your gonna loose the mountain house but there are more where that came from!!!

congrats

Jo Ann

[MoOrLess]

I do that too!!! Too funny! I say it to my niece all the time - she's 6 - she's so funny... "that's not my NAME!" lol!

Thanks everyone for your support!!

PS We considered renting it out but it's not a viable option right now - people are not doing as much traveling and vacation rentals are WAY down. I feel good about it though... I'm looking forward to my time here

and I wondered why there was a typo when Donna (Nicksgrammy) sent me a post lol showing MoLou -- I was like huh? lol

[stac1982]

Gina, that is wonderful! I am so happy for you. I think you will be a wonderful counselor. You are such a good listener and also say things that can help everyone so much. I am very excited for you!

[little t]

Gina! How did I miss this thread?! I need to click on the new posts button more often! Your journey story is wonderful! You are so articulate when you write and I love reading your posts!

That is great news about graduate school! What an exciting time for you! Love ya chica!

[ginabobina]

OK time to pray ... the couple who are interested in our mountain house will be coming to see it around 3:30 or 4 this afternoon. They have driven up from Florida so they are very interested. Please pray that they will fall in love with it and be able to buy it... would love to have an offer asap and move on with the next phase in our life. It has been great being here this week... lots of time to think and transition a bit in my mind. I'm having a great time with my niece and nephews too... they're staying with Gramma and Grampa next door. My niece and I had a girls day yesterday and had the most fun - she is 6 and I love her like she's my own. We saw Wall-E and went shopping and got ice cream cones... we both took a bite off mine at the same time and eskimo kissed our noses... it was so funny and she has the BEST giggle on the planet.

Hugs and hope all are well!

[little t]

Don't you just love kids? I love my nieces and nephews like they were my own and your story reminded me of them! Good luck on the sale of the house!

[redgrldj]

I am thinking good thoughts for you Gina.. I hope the couple makes an offer

[Txblue_eyedqt]

ohh Gina...How exciting about Grad School.
I hope all goes well with the house.
Will keep this all in my prayers.

HUGS!

Cynthia

[Liberty]

Sending positive energy your way that this will work out as it is intended. Happy to hear you are enjoying your time at the cabin and with your niece and nephew. Good times to cherish. Take care.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Sending prayers up right now Gina.. it's 3:55 pm and hopefully they have fallen in love with your little paradise home and things will advance from this day.

Hugs!!! And hearing about your girls day with your niece.. that's so precious. Today is our Nicholas' first b/day.. it doesn't seem possible he's a year old already. Tomorrow we're taking him for ice cream, coming back here and having a cake decorated with a John Deere tractor. :)

I love reading your thread.. and all your posts. You're such a genuine sweet spirited soul :)

[ginabobina]

Gosh what an intense few days! My emotions are all over the map and my body is falling apart on me. The Fibro is flaring up and I am soooo sore. But I'm happy with the way the house looks and even have some things packed up.

The good news... HOUSE IS "SOLD"!!!! They made an offer last night and we will sign it and get it back to the lawyer on Monday. It's not what we wanted but it is close enough with the market like it is... we're not willing to take a chance and let it sit while we keep throwing money away. So, I feel at peace about it after having the night to think and pray and sleep on it. I did break down sobbing after they left last evening... I had spent all day with my parents and the kids (and Aunt Flo) and was just mentally and physically exhausted and physically in a lot of pain. This past two years has been the most difficult of our lives for DH and I. Sometimes it just knocks the wind out of me.

BUT, I woke up rested, bright and early, got to see the sunrise... and had 2 of the kids up for blueberry pancakes shaped like smiley faces and Mickey Mouse... everyone's happy:sun_smiley: I am so fortunate to be soooo loved by those wonderful children who I ADORE!!!

I ordered my first textbook yesterday and my first class starts in just 3 weeks!!! I am so excited about it and wish I could be a full time student. The prospect of finding a job is definitely my biggest stressor right now... I just can't seem to feel my way through it - have been praying so much and just not quite seeing the direction yet.

I continue to trust HIS timing every day and take comfort in His promise that He knows the plans He has for me and they for good, not harm!!

Blessings to each and every one of you - YOU are a blessing to ME!!!:nod:

[redgrldj]

I am so happy the house sold so fast.. Just keep in mind everything happens for a reason..

I am sooo jazzed about you and school.. I am such a professional student.. I am always taking classes, and changing majors..

I hope you feel better, but I am sure your fibro flare is PMS and stress induced.. I am going to start some research on Fibro so I am better versed in what alot of my friends here are going through..

Gina ya know I love you gurly and will be here to support you anytime you need me..

[ginabobina]

thanks Pattie!!! hugs!

[redgrldj]

thanks Pattie!!! hugs!


Get off the board and go take some time to relax.. Come back when you feel better...

[kristina]

just saw this girl...dont know if i should say hooray, or im sorry. i know how much you loved that house...but the good news is, it means so much more money in the pocket to finance your dreams. i am inspired by your courage...i will keep praying for all things to resolve themselves in your life, anf for you and DH to find peace and abundant happiness. cause yall certainly deserve it!

[Kim G]

Gina Congrats on the house selling! I know that has to be a huge relief for you. Just know that things do happen for a reason and there is a time for everything. I know it's hard but have faith and everything will fall into place the way it's suppose to! :)

[little t]

Gina that is fantastic that you were able to sell so quickly! Now on to the next phase of your life: COLLEGE! Yeah!

[chrispygal]

Gina I am so happy to hear about the offer on the house! Yeah!!! I'm sure it was hard to let go of, but it sounds like you and DH knew it was the right move. And congratulations on grad school!!! I know you're going to kick some ass girlie!

[Greeneyetiger]

Gina~

Conrates on getting accepted to grauduate school for professional counseling. This is awesome news and I am so proud of you. I know this was not easy to accomplish, but you did it. You are going to be great in this field of work.

Congrates in selling your house too. I know that wasn't easy, but the Lord has plans for you....good plans and he will provide you with good things for your future.

Thanks for sharing your story and pictures. I feel like we have gone throgh many of the same things growing up. You are so beautiful...inside and out!
You keep hanging in there and doing a good job. You should be very proud of yourself for all you have fought through and survived.

Big Hugs and love your way.

[ginabobina]

Thanks everyone!!! Today has been such a good day... i feel very much at peace about the house and have sooo enjoyed my time here. I will head back to Charlotte in the morning after a coffee date with my Mom. Today I spent the entire day outside and it was wonderful. I even starting WRITING!!! It felt great and the words just flowed - gotta love that! Hugs and have a good night!

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Gina.. I'm so happy for you!!! Congrats on your house being sold and your new adventure coming up .. college. I admire anyone that goes on to continue education.. I always told my kids.. "there's always room for education!".. you make me smile Gina.. thank you :)

[DebbieChoos]

Gina - Congrats all the way around girlfriend!! Knowing and talking to you as I have I think that counseling is the perfect job for you! One of the things that Gina does when you talk to her is listen, she makes you feel like she really is listening and that she cares. Best of luck on grad school, looking forward to our starbucks session!! lol

[afisher4band]

Gina I am so happy for you !

[kristina]

me thinks we will have ANOTHER famous person on B2G!!!

[ginabobina]

Gina - Congrats all the way around girlfriend!! Knowing and talking to you as I have I think that counseling is the perfect job for you! One of the things that Gina does when you talk to her is listen, she makes you feel like she really is listening and that she cares. Best of luck on grad school, looking forward to our starbucks session!! lol

Debbie that was a wonderful compliment!!! :wink2: Thanks!!!

thanks so much for your encouraging responses!!

[newlifeat57]

Wow. You have such a wonderful way with words. Your ability to create such a moving story is truly a gift. I love to read your posts--you definitely have a calling as a counselor.

I also want to thank you for sharing your wonderful journey. You are also an inspiration to those of us that are just beginning our journey in bandland. :bravo:

Thank You!!

[kristina]

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[Greeneyetiger]

Gina~

You will be in school soon or have you already started? How are you feeling about it? I know for me I get excited and nervous at the same time. You are very smart and I know you will do great!!!!

Just wanted to check up to see how you are doing. How is the Fibro? I hope it is being nice to you. If anyone can say Fibro is nice...lol, but you know what I mean.

[redgrldj]

Gina.. I am sooo excited for you.. Grad school is about to start woohoo... I keep you in my thoughts all the time...

[ginabobina]

Y'all I am so excited and nervous at the same time... but mostly excited. I just took the Graduate Writing Assessment and only missed 4 out of 55 - not bad for a rusty ol' gal! I also looked through the syllabus and I'm about to go pick up a couple of school supplies like a notebook and highlighters, etc.... OK that is just too fun!

Things are going smotthly with the sale of the mtn house - I'm up here now to pack up the last odds and ends. The fibro is diong fairly well - I have my moments though! It is humid and looks like rain so that is probably why I'm feeling sore today... not bad though - it's all relative!

I got an awesome outfit last week for interviews and the top is a size I haven't seen since the 90s!! I feel so good and confident in it and will have to take a picture. Plus I'm at the library using the computer right now and the librarian asked if I was over 18??!!!!! I am double that but thanks for asking! lol Hmmm, maybe I'll buy a bottle of wine just to get carded... I think I look younger when I have on a baseball hat.

Love you guys!!

[redgrldj]

Gina shopping for school supplies is always fun... I am sooo excited for you.. Wish i could be there to see you off on your first day of school...

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

You make me smile Gina.. enjoy the young comments.. they're fun for sure. I know I'm thinking about going natural (which is white) but I like the idea of people thinking I'm younger with the red hair.. guess I'm vain eh ? lol

When I went to a private college in 2000 and 2001 I had so much fun buying school supplies for myself. It was a trip back in time.. and I could get what I wanted too.. I was paying for it.. *giggle*.

Enjoy your time up there.. safe journeys to you.

[MoOrLess]

Y'all I am so excited and nervous at the same time... but mostly excited. I just took the Graduate Writing Assessment and only missed 4 out of 55 - not bad for a rusty ol' gal! I also looked through the syllabus and I'm about to go pick up a couple of school supplies like a notebook and highlighters, etc.... OK that is just too fun!

Things are going smotthly with the sale of the mtn house - I'm up here now to pack up the last odds and ends. The fibro is diong fairly well - I have my moments though! It is humid and looks like rain so that is probably why I'm feeling sore today... not bad though - it's all relative!

I got an awesome outfit last week for interviews and the top is a size I haven't seen since the 90s!! I feel so good and confident in it and will have to take a picture. Plus I'm at the library using the computer right now and the librarian asked if I was over 18??!!!!! I am double that but thanks for asking! lol Hmmm, maybe I'll buy a bottle of wine just to get carded... I think I look younger when I have on a baseball hat.

Love you guys!!

Girl -- it has nothing to do with baseball caps! Have you looked at yourself? OMG look at your newest avatar --- you DO look barely 18! :thumb:

I'm so excited for you -- grad school is so different and yet so the same as undergrad lol - but it IS fun and what a great adventure you're beginning on this new path! Hooray for grad school - boo for the homework lol --- but you'll love it --- and see, the fibro is in the background...that's what I have found - with weight loss and keeping the mind busy it's amazing how much better you feel! Yes you'll have some rough days - but if you continue to "listen" to your body you'll be just fine. Congrats girlfriend!!!

[Shellster]

Hey my friend! I'm glad to hear that things are going well and you are hanging in there. Sounds like the house sell transition is going okay and you are well on your way to getting yourself adjusted to getting down to business with school again. This reminds me of one of my favorite movies, "You've Got Mail": Joe Fox - "Don't you love New York in the fall? It makes me wanna buy school supplies. I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils if I knew your name and address."

As for looking young - you ARE young! Plus, I'm not surprised she asked you that...you look fab-u-lous and happy. You're doing great....it is time to post new update photos. I'm on the edge of my seat....hurry!

[kristina]

Shelley-totally my favorite movie of ALL time. and i love all of its quotes!


Gina- i can totally picture u at the library with your cute new top and your baseball cap on. so stinking cute. u r a baby! and its about time you feel like one. so way to go!
you are so gunna rock school. i am totally freaking proud of you!!!!!
ready for some pics girlie!!!

[little t]

If you all could just see our Gina in person, you would see how young and fresh she looks! No wonder the librarian asked if you were an adult! Dang, I don't even know the last time I got carded!

[Italiangirl33]

Gina,
This story made my eyes water..You are truly amazing and such a inspiration to me and others..Your doing great..You are such a beautiful girl..Keep up the great work

[bgrand]

Gina,
I am just catching up with all the great news. I am so happy for you and you deserve it all girlfriend. You are truly the nicest person I have ever known.
Congratulations on everything going on in your life right now. Let's get together soon!! Miss ya!!

[brwneyedbeauty]

hey Gina girl...glad things are going well for you! You deserve it! ;-)

[Greeneyetiger]

I just thought of Lucy at her phychiatric help stand in the Peanuts cartoon...you just need 5 cents for her help. Gina, you are better than Lucy, of course! You do listen and Lucy stops you if she is done listening to you. I am so excited for you and can't wait to hear all about your experience and about your classes.


How is school going so far? Do you like your professors?

[ginabobina]

That is one of my very faovorite cartoon pics... Lucy at her "Doctor is In" stand!!! Love it! I think I will charge more than her though - lol! Well, my calss is getting off to a good start... it is a little daunting just getting back into the swing of learning... trying to remember how I used to do this over a decade ago... highlighting my textbook and taking notes! It is fun though and very timely. My first course is Development Across the Lifespan and I like the professor so far. The class just started yesterday and we just access it throughout the week to read presentations and participate in group discussions, etc..

Today is moving day so I'm stealing a little time at my favorite coffee house up in the mountains... it's called Bohemia.... and working on my "homework" (that is still funny to say!) DH will be here around lunch time with a van to move a few things to storage. Yesterday was my breakdown day - I think a LOT of stuff hit me all at once (and AF is on her way any day!) It was good to get it out! I treated myself to a movie and saw Mamma Mia, which was great!

One sad piece of news I'm finally starting to absorb is that my 22 month old nephew was just diagnosed with autism. He's the only grandbaby on DH's side of the family and we are all heartbroken. We're encouraged that it was diagnosed early, though, and there are excellent resources nearby.

Thanks so much you guys for all your kind words... they made me cry!!! I am missing you all so much... charlotte girls we need to have a back-to-school boot scott at Coyote Joe's soon!!

Love and hugs to you!!!!

[chrispygal]

Gina, my nephew was recently diagnosed with autism. He just turned two and was diagnosed about 6 months ago. The funny thing is his other aunt (my older sister) was the one who picked up on the fact that he would never look you in the eye and that he would just sit and flick something. We talked to my parents who were pissed at us at first, then after a little internet research they agreed and we all encouraged my younger sister to see a new doctor and he picked up on it right away. Since then he has been to Children's Hospital for testing and they have found so many issues. Food allergies, intestional issues - all sorts of things that go along with autism. He has in-home work done every day of the week and we are so thankful that these resources are there. Finding in young is key and everything they do for him today will help your nephew have a better life. It is such a sad diagnosis though, and I feel for you and your family.

[mizfish]

Gina,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I loved looking at your photos. I could feel your words, they were so heartfelt and had my eyes watering! You are truly amazing and inspiring! You are doing soooooooo well! Your gentle face is so beautiful and I feel like we have had the same path! I too married my high school sweetheart! Over the years, I packed on the pounds and he never said a word. Keep up the phenominal work! You are a beautiful woman!

[MoOrLess]

That is one of my very faovorite cartoon pics... Lucy at her "Doctor is In" stand!!! Love it! I think I will charge more than her though - lol! Well, my calss is getting off to a good start... it is a little daunting just getting back into the swing of learning... trying to remember how I used to do this over a decade ago... highlighting my textbook and taking notes! It is fun though and very timely. My first course is Development Across the Lifespan and I like the professor so far. The class just started yesterday and we just access it throughout the week to read presentations and participate in group discussions, etc..

Today is moving day so I'm stealing a little time at my favorite coffee house up in the mountains... it's called Bohemia.... and working on my "homework" (that is still funny to say!) DH will be here around lunch time with a van to move a few things to storage. Yesterday was my breakdown day - I think a LOT of stuff hit me all at once (and AF is on her way any day!) It was good to get it out! I treated myself to a movie and saw Mamma Mia, which was great!

One sad piece of news I'm finally starting to absorb is that my 22 month old nephew was just diagnosed with autism. He's the only grandbaby on DH's side of the family and we are all heartbroken. We're encouraged that it was diagnosed early, though, and there are excellent resources nearby.

Thanks so much you guys for all your kind words... they made me cry!!! I am missing you all so much... charlotte girls we need to have a back-to-school boot scott at Coyote Joe's soon!!

Love and hugs to you!!!!

Like Chris...and now you - I have a nephew who has autism too. He is my baby brother's "only" child and it's been hard on him. My bro is all BOY and couldn't wait to play sports with Brian...unfortunately there have been a lot of challenges - but a lot of joys too - as everyone has watched Brian grow and improve with awesome resources here in IL....he's now 11 yrs old...saying a prayer for all of our autistic children --- it takes a toll on families and is a rough road for parents....HUGS Gina and Chris...

[redgrldj]

Gina.. I have missed you for the last few days.. I am glad you are having fun with school ( so far) LOL.. I have a very good friend who is involved with Autism groups.. If you want I will send her your email.. This girl ( devon) is a sweetie I have known her forever and she frew up across the street from my Hubby.. Just let me know if you want to talk with her or if you want me to act as a go between.. I have training on how to work/ deal with autistic children because I am cerified for medically fragile foster care.. But have only dealt with is for short periods of time.. Not an expert or even close..

[newlifeat57]

Gina, bless your heart, you certainly have been busy!! You did a fantastic job of organizing the Book club chat and I really appreciated that. I just recently finished my master's degree and I understand the work that's involved....good luck!

I'm a sp.ed. teacher and spent 12+ years working with high school students with Autism. Being diagnosed early and having daily training sessions is very helpful for a better quality of life. Many of the students I worked with didn't have that daily training when they were young and it definitely makes a difference. I pray for strength for your family as they deal with this issue. Just like this site is so wonderful for support, there are also excellent sites for parents of children with Autism, that offer lots of support and encouragement.

If there is anything....just send me a line.... Best wishes....

[ginabobina]

having family with autism is not something I would want in common with anyone but it's nice to hear too... I know that catching it early will be so helpful. I'm actually going to pick autism as the topic for my research paper for this first class... I'll be researching it anyway so it might as well get credit! lol My first little assignment is due tonight for my class... I'm getting the hang of "textbook-reading" again so I think it's coming back to me. I sure hope going to school is like riding a bike.

Thanks so much for posting on here!!! I've been so busy I haven't been able to spend as much time on here and miss everyone so much!! Hopefully I get things balanced a bit better as I go along.

Have a great day!

["Just Jess"]

hey gina,
how are you doing girl? i am SO overwhelmed with all the messages i have to catch up with - so i just decided to pop in on some of "my people" -- so i apologize if i missed anything major. just catching up on the end of your thread and the talk of autism... one of my best friends has a daughter who is autistic and she has made PHENOMINAL progress over the last few years bc they started her on an aggressive new diet and tara (my friend) has become a stay-at-home-mom and spends every waking minute on "training" her with all these new techniques. she and her husband teamed up with a natural medicine kind of doc and go to all these workshops and retreats... i am SURE she'd LOVE LOVE LOVE to talk to you about anything you might want a quote or interview point on. in fact, i have a GREAT email from her she sent out to all her friends last year when her daughter was moved up a class in the special school she attends. i'll look for that and shoot you the email. :)
hugs! looking forward to seeing you SOON!
xo,
jess

[ginabobina]

Thanks Jess that would be great!!

[kristina]

hi gina...just catching up...and i didnt get married...lol!!
ur sweet baby nephew will be in my prayers...he is wonderfully made. his life has purpose, and thank the good Lord they caught it early enough to start working with him.
autism is almost becoming an epidemic isnt it? i know there are lots of controversy involving how and why, and i am sure you will be finding this all out in your research. i would be interested in knowing what you learn. i had a dear friend in Louisiana and her son who was 12 was living with it. (he was the most affected stage. everytime he saw me he grabbed my boobs. LOL) she swears its from the mercury that was in immunizations. so i didnt get my kids immunized until they were 18+ months old. so many people said i was loony, but i was scared.
well keep us updated busy girl.
love you.

[ginabobina]

Well, I am hoping and suspect that this place is full of the kind of friends you can barely talk with for a year and then pick right up where we left off!! What a blur the past year has been!! I went back to work last November, after starting Grad school in August. Things got very busy in a hurry and almost all my computer time was school-related. In January I tried to take another class but with work it was just too much. In March my co-worker was out for brain surgery and for 6 months I did her job and most of mine - talk about stress!!! I didn't even check my email for days and days at a time. Things finally started to get back to normal a bit in the summer but it has also been a challenging time for me and my sweet husband - not our marriage, just life stuff. We started looking at different areas to live while he was going through job hunting to find a new place to practice. We just moved a few weeks ago out to Lincolnton, NC... out in the country!!! I absolutely love it out here - so peaceful and quiet - big difference from Charlotte! I left my job and will be able to stay home for at least the rest of this year and get back to Grad school - yippee!! I just started a class last Monday and if I think I can handle the load, I will take another starting late October.

Things have been pretty up and down with the Band. I had to have a good bit taken out last Fall and gained through the holidays just a little but then a lot during the time I was covering two jobs - I was majorly stress eating!! My 2 year Bandiversary had me higher than my lowest weight and I was really bummed out. I've had some fills but have a tendency to get too tight and then end up not even getting water down... which is obviously a bad plan - lol!! Sooo, I've had to do some soul searching and really evaluate what is my Band's responsibility and what is my own. The fact is, I am at a good fill level and the Band is doing what it's supposed to do. If I make poor food choices and don't exercise, I can't expect to lose much more weight than I have. I've recently started using some shakes that I like a lot and it is helping me a bit more structured with my eating. Now that I have time to breathe and can think straight, I am eager to get plugged back in here for some accountability and mutual support.

I've missed you guys TONS!!! I look forward to catching up and thanks so much to those who have checked in on me!! Life sure can get busy sometimes!

[redgrldj]

Welcome back Gina.. You have been missed...

[chrispygal]

Hi Gina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've missed you! :) Glad to hear you're doing well and so happy to see you here!

[Patrick]

Gina, girl it is soooo nice to hear from you again. You are living right across (sort of) the lake from me now. Happy to hear that things are settling down and you can get back on course with grad school. Drop in on the monthly meeting sometime.

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

Welcome back Gina! Glad things have settled down for you. I've missed seeing your posts.

[kristina]

Well, I am hoping and suspect that this place is full of the kind of friends you can barely talk with for a year and then pick right up where we left off!!
i am so that girl!!!!!! love u baby...glad to have u back..so happy i gotta do flips!!!!!!!!!! is boise a possibility??

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[newlifeat57]

What she said /\....LOL

Good to hear from you again.
You have been missed...lots!!!!

[ginabobina]

awww thanks!!! good to be back and good to be missed! I wish I could go to Boise but the flight is just too much moolah right now... maybe next year I can plan ahead.

Patrick I passed the dueling piano bar the other day, which used to be an hour away, and thought ohhhhh we need to have an outing with the Charlotte area crew - it has been waaaay too long!

It is an absolutely perfect day here this morning - blue skies and just a tad chilly - ahhhh, I LOVE Fall!!! I took a walk yesterday for the first time in ages and it felt great. I did well with my eating yesterday too and felt good about the day. One day at a time is a good mantra!

[christie]

Excellent mantra....I need to do "one night at a time" because I'm really good during the day and then mess everything up at night! CRAZY!

[kristina]

me too christie...ur happiness is going to get u back on track girlie..that feeling u had yesterday- u can have everyday..if u choose too, right?

i hate u cant come to boise..its free now...u just have to pay for the flight..and u can stay with me...so no motel fees...

maybe i will see u soon anyway...ur not far from my original neck of the woods! :)

[redgrldj]

Gina I have a spare bed too..

[ginabobina]

yeah it's the $700 plane fare for one seat that's the problem - and I'm too scared not to buy a 2nd seat still... oh well, more motivation to keep shrinkin' this body!

I'm the same way Christie ... need to say one night at a time too!!! I don't know why I start feeling frantic at night like I have to munch... guess there is just a lot of wiring to re-wire upstairs!

[kristina]

i totally understand chica! maybe next year? :)
and u def. dont need a second seat woman!

[brwneyedbeauty]

Ginabobina! I'm glad your back. You were one of the first here to greet me and make me feel at home. I will never forget that;-) You are a wonderful person...so glad your back!

[christie]

I'm the same way Christie ... need to say one night at a time too!!! I don't know why I start feeling frantic at night like I have to munch... guess there is just a lot of wiring to re-wire upstairs!

When you figure that out, please let me know! I blew it last night again, after having a very low-calorie day. Grrr. I was good the previous two nights, just not last night!

[Patrick]

Gina, you are right, it has been waaayyyy too long since the last social outing around here.

[ginabobina]

so what are we gonna do about it Patrick? Let's get something together. Hey, all this g2g talk has me remembering you in the scuba flippers - lol!! Man I wish I could have gone out there!

[Patrick]

It does bring back good memories, doesn't it? Missed you today, was hoping you could have made the meeting. We did talk briefly about getting another outing planned. We just don't seem to have any ready made organizers.

[kristina]

i wish u were out here too! both of u...!!!
i have some stuff i would like to share that i personally learned. with the hopes that yall can get some insight into what we learned. the obvious stuff yall got to see last year..the connections. but there was some really good stuff out that we learned this weekend about our band...when i get home and settle in and kiss my kids 10000000000000000000 times...i will come back and share...
love and missed u...

[Patrick]

Soooo looking forward to all the good stuff you picked up out there (there rest of it probably shouldn't be posted on this board or we might lose our family friendly rating, lol)

[kristina]

lol angel..were u that fly on the wall at susans house? hehehe.

[ginabobina]

ok my friends - don't throw tomatoes if you are jealous... but since I am not working a regular job for the past month and a half I am struggling with self-imposing good habits. It is way too easy to get lazy. And it's not like I don't have a ton of schoolwork to do but I am being lazy!! What gets a fire under your butt? Do any of you struggle with motivation or not doing the things you want to do/doing the things you don't want to do?? (Paul said it well!!!)

[kristina]

well i just had a very bad eating day yesterday. VERY BAD. today was much better. anyway..its Very easy to get out of exercise right. i am assuming thats where we are going here.
can u remember actually feeling crappy when u didnt work out? for me if i get out of it..and i did when i moved here for about a month....and it was really tough getting back there. i just gave myself 3 days. i said..to me...u only have to do this 3 days. if u dont like it stop. plenty of people lose weight without exercise..lots of them. u can too. so if u dont like it..u dont have to do it. 3 days later..and i am still doing it everyday. i just had surgery a few days ago and i walked a mile this morning. its all about making the bad habits-good ones. what creates a habit? repetition.
u can do it!!!!!
and i can be ur work out partner. i can email u work outs for the day. i will start small and u can do them. and we can do them together..if u want?
i have to start small right now too...

[redgrldj]

I know that I feel like crap lately cause I can't even walk right now.. Stop being lazy and do something LOL

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

New nick for Pattie (with an e).. Drill Sergeant ;) (hiding!!!) :) love ya girl!!

[ginabobina]

i forced my lazy butt out the door and walked last night and it helped a LOT!! I just need to get off the franny for real!! Enjoying a yummy 1/2 salad at Panera and gettin' ready to write a paper. Getting out of the house helps for sure and Kristina let's chat about workin out - did u get my looong email? hope i sent it to the right place!

[kristina]

just got it..just read it....just replied to it. its on girl. u and me..nothing can stop us!!!!!

[ginabobina]

A long overdue update...

June 18th was my third Bandiversary... I lost well for the first 18 months, lost 110 pounds, then really struggled the next 12+ months and put on 40 pounds. Somewhere around that 18 month mark I hit the head issues straight on and just had not changed my coping skills... and sadly found out just how easy it is to "eat around the band"! Earlier this year I read a great book called ...wait for it... "Why Can't I Stop Eating?" LOL!! It talked a lot about overeating as an addiction and some substances such as sugar in particular... what they do to your body chemically. Sugar was my number one struggle and I was eating almost ALL crunchies and crumblies as our doc calls them.... cookies, crackers, ice cream, etc. I decided to give Overeaters Anonymous a try because I just could not stop eating the sugar and was so tired of staying in the same neighborhood on the scale... I had gotten back over 350 and panicked.

So much has changed since I started OA I still can't believe it. For me OA has been a tremendous help. Never in a million years did I think it was possible for my body to do this but I am almost FOUR MONTHS abstinent from sugar!!! Nada! Zero sucrose, only fructose and lactose and maybe a trace here and there. I drink 100% juice (no added sugar) and haven't touched a dessert or even ketchup since March 26th. My whole life has changed thanks to applying the 12 steps to my overeating. I have more energy, better memory, and literally half the fibro pain I used to have!! The weight is coming off now without counting calories or giving a lot of attention to what I eat beyond not eating compulsively. June 18th was my 3rd Bandiversary... at the 2 year mark I was devastated to be gaining weight and terrified that I was going to ruin my chance with the Band. But all along I've held onto the 5 year goal... statistically at the 5 year mark we're about the same as someone with bypass... just keep going slow and steady.

Earlier this year I knew I needed to get some professional help with the head stuff and I did. We don't get to be overweight enough to qualify for surgery without having some head stuff in the mix! First off I think I kept the gain to 40 pounds and not more by being gentle and caring with myself... acknowledging the fact that I was struggling and not beating myself up or throwing in the towel. That allowed me to get the help I needed and really build the support I needed to give myself. We know going into this whole thing that it's about "lifestyle change" but how the heck do we actually do that??!! That's what I'm learning through OA and therapy.

Now instead of losing pounds, I'm surrendering them. Think about the difference... losing is all about my own will power and trying hard and lots of control... and it is fickle and often not sustainable long term. Surrendering pounds is a deliberate choice to let God, my Higher Power, REMOVE this weight and heal me from the inside out. All the pain that was part of getting me over 400 pounds... all the past hurts, all the hurts that come from living life as an overweight person... it all has to be worked through and let go. And the unhealthy eating behaviors we developed along the way had a purpose - sometimes escape, and always some way of self-medicating. Until we learn to go through life differently, we will return again and again to the food. But there IS HOPE and a way through to the other side. Each person's journey is different and what works for one might not for another... we each have to start by being brutally honest with ourselves and gofrom there.

If you're struggling with eating when you don't want to or making choices that go against what you say you want, consider giving OA a try. The program can lead to "freedom from the obsession with food and weight" - that was enough to make me come back! All you need is a DESIRE to stop eating compulsively... that's where we start. And from there you might be surprised where you go. I haven't felt this good on the "inside" in 20 years... since before I started really gaining. Now I'm working WITH the Band... it's done what it was supposed to all along.... now I'm cooperating again - lol!!

[breezy]

Surrendering pounds is a deliberate choice to let God, my Higher Power, REMOVE this weight and heal me from the inside out. All the pain that was part of getting me over 400 pounds... all the past hurts, all the hurts that come from living life as an overweight person... it all has to be worked through and let go.




WOW! :thumb: What a wonderful, honest and heartfelt testimony, Gina! AWESOME, AWESOME! Congratulations on this most momentous act of surrendering!

[redgrldj]

Gina you are such an inspiration...

[Nick N Ava's Grammy]

I'm printing this off Gina. I'm going to read and read it. Thanks so much for posting this. :)

[503-250]

Gina, this is an absolutely amazing update. The most important part of the decision we make to get surgery is to "get better". Now for some people that involves fears of blood pressure, diabetes etc, I think we all forget that there is usually harsh mental issues that we have failed to resolve which will haunt us and harm us more then the original issue. By making the conscious decision to deal with those issue we take the biggest step in helping ourselves.

Congratulations GinaBinaBobinaBananafannafofina!

[Patrick]

Gina, I am so happy for you. And, you have certainly given me a lot to think about, as well. Like you, I am now three years out and it ain't happened yet! I want to make sure that my 5 year anniversary is a true celebration. Hopefully, we can get some of our old group together and have a wild celebration.
You have uncovered your needed path, now it is up to the rest of us who haven't gotten there yet to uncover ours.