Whats wrong with me?

[SweetMelody]

Hello everyone....:)
Its been almost 4 months since I've logged in or been to any support group. I was banded in May and did pretty well up until a few months ago. The band is great ..I have no regrets ...but somewhere along the way I lost my focus and I am sad to say I have gained a few pounds instead of losing. I figured at some point I would have trouble staying on track but I didn't expect it so soon. What is wrong with me that I would spend all that money...go through surgery....be totally determined and then just get totally off track? I havent even been back to Dr. Anderson because I am ashamed. I havent even been on a scale in a few weeks. I am realizing that I do need some support....by those who really understand....so I am here again just looking for a little encouragement I guess. The tough reality is what I already know ....I have to quit putting it off and just do it...no more excuses. I really needed to just vent a little I guess and wonder if anyone else has been derailed like me and got back on track to be successful. Ive read alot of posts and looked at the great pics....everyone is looking awesome. This site is a great tool and I will be using it more to keep my head in the game....also going to check out the support groups again. Merry Christmas everyone...God Bless :)

[SpookyJulz]

Melody~

I have done the same thing. I was banded April 2nd. Then I had back surgery July 2nd. I wasn't able to exercise for awhile. Then I went through a really rough depression. I have gained back about 15 Lbs.

I am able to exercise. However, it is a struggle everytime to make myself go. I am not good at deprivation but I am also not good at stopping eating once I start.

I did go in for a small fill Tues. It has helped a lot.
I know Dr Anderson is a caring, loving Dr. He is wonderful to his patients. Don't be afraid to go in and say I need help. He's a great supporter for anyone who needs his help.

Come to the meetings and get to know people. It will help you get through it.

Merry Christmas to you too.

[SheryBery]

Melody, you made the first step by coming here and asking for help & support. We've all been through what you're going through. This weight loss journey is more in our heads than in our body. Well, it has been for me anyway. I've had to totally change the way I look at food. Not as comfort, or reward, or my best friend anymore. It's what I need for nourishment. Yes I still enjoy it, but I'm enjoying my new life more. I still have a long way to go, but having come to where I am today, I know I can continue.
Don't ever be afraid or ashamed to ask for help, hon. That's what we're here for. We KNOW what you're feeling. You CAN do this, but you can't do it alone. Let us help. Get back to support meetings when you can, too. They're informative, but even more, it's just great physically being with each other.
Hang in....stay strong.....do NOT give up!

[Dustbunny]

Good to see you here again Melody. :0)

Yep you aren't alone. We are all human, we all do stuff that's not in our long term self interest, but feels good at the time.

You can do this. You can start again every day, one day at a time. I hope to see you at one of the meetings in January. I hope we both see our numbers start to go down. Deb
Merry Christmas!

[Chisaimama]

Melody,
Welcome back. We all seem to go great guns and then fall down and then work to [ick ourselves up again. I'm so glad you've come back. Please make an appointment with Dr. Anderson. He's there to help you through some of this but if you don't go in he doesn't know you need help. I understand that he will be speaking at our next Thursday support meeting in January. You've taken the fist step to geting back on track. Keep taking those steps one day at a time.

[SweetMelody]

Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement...I wish you all a very Merry Christmas...God Bless

[kebsa]

Melody, at the risk of boring some of the long timers here i just want to let you know that just because you "fail" for a while with the band, it does not mean you are a lost cause for good. I have been banded since 2001 and until novemer 2006 i gianed weight! I had tried to follow the rules but had lots of physical problems- eventually my swallowing problems (persistent vomiting etc) were diagnosed as MS related nerve damage and i was toldi woul dhave to have myband out and would be doomed for even more gain ( at 386 pounds i could not afford that) soi opted to have the fluid out of the band and then worked witha speech pathologist and a dietician to work out how to modify the band rules. I had had an MS flare that paralysed my remaining leg and that scared me into action and made me real serious about losing weight, i was just too heavy to keep mvong independantly. Thankfully i got most of my leg movement back but i used the modified rules we workewd out and weighed/measured all my food, kept a food log etc and have now lost around 130 pounds. I have been stuck for a while again now but that is becaue i have been stuck in hospital since early october thanks to the MS - one good thing about the band is that you never burn your bridges! if you go through a rough time and get a bit sloppy you just go back to basics again- i do find that journalling and weighing food intake etc is a valuable tool to go with the band, use sparkspeople.com or fitday.com ( i use the latter)

Good luck- its nevere too late

[Jacqie]

Hey There~
I know how you feel. I am just now getting my head in gear again and the main thing has been the great support of this website and our local groups. They are wonderful!!!!!! I have been looking for you at the meetings hoping to see your bright smiling face. Dr. Anderson is a wonderful doctor and if you talk to him he will understand. We all have things going on in our lives that get us off focus and well mine was gradual but lasted a good year of not focusing on me and my band, and it is hard to get your head straight with all the day to day life issues. Email me anytime you want @ jpage@ctifoods.com. You and I are alot alike in many ways and hopefully we both can get back on track and be even more of a success then we already are. Have a great Holiday and Merry Christmas - I am so happy to see back to posting!!!!!!