Went off track

[Greeneyetiger]

I had a lot of stress last week. I was a big mess. I ended up going to the store and buying 2 candy bars and donuts and ate all of it. I am so upset with myself. I gained 2 lbs back from doing that. I was doing so well, but the situation that was going on had me over the edge. Now I need to get back on track.

I am still able to eat more than what I should. I have had 2 fills. My last fill was March 29th. I have to wait at least 4 weeks before I can call back for another fill. I am not happy that my weight loss is so slow and I feel like a big loser and not the big loser of weight loss. I am depressed. I feel like I am just dieting and the band isn't doing anything. I failed at all diets so this is no surprise I am not losing more weight without the bands help. I knew the weight loss was slower with the band but this is crazy that it takes so many months to get to a restriction that will make you lose weight.

I have seen others with 4cc bands and have 2cc fill and lose weight. Am I just a failure?

I started exercising and then the crisis I had set me back with that too. So now I am trying to get motivated doing exercise again. I am trying to order a gazelle power plus from this one site and it is out of stock. I want to get it from this site because I can make payments on it. I don't have the money to buy it with one lump sum of money. I keep checking the site all the time so when it does come back in stock I am putting my order in.

I am frustrated!!!:frusty:

I am praying for patience on this process:biga:

[CaribnQn]

greeneyetiger you are NOT a failure. Yes, you did eat some things that you should not have, but you are human. I am quite sure that there is no one that can say that they have faithfully follwed ever bandster rule. All you need is proper restriction and that will come once you are properly adjusted. Stop being so hard on yourself, you've been banded for LESS than 2 1/2 months. I have to remind myself the same way as I am reminding you. I just keep telling myself that this time next year, I will have success. I was banded on Feb.6, 2007 so come on, let's do this together.

[A1ikou]

We all do it. We all have times, sometimes short and sometimes long when we fall back into old habits. Don't beat yourself up about it, just makes things worse and doesnt achieve anything. Tomorrow is another day so head out with good intentions and do the best you can. if it's a good day build on that and if its not then try again with the next tomorrow. The good thing about tomorrows is that each one is new and gives you all the hope you need.
You have already lost weight and you are in no way shape or form a failure. Do the best you can and with better restriction you'll feel more positive. This is a long journey for us all and there are going to be ups and downs along the way. Hold on to us and we'll do our best to help you through...

[jgeraci]

You are not a failure. It sounds like you don't have enough restriction. Just get back on the train today and don't worry about the past. Next time you want some chocolate reach for a nice warm cup of team or some almonds. You will be okay.

[Jachut]

Going off track does not matter in the slightest.

Its getting back ON track that's important. Forget it, its done, just move forward.

[mizfish]

:iagree: ! Hey it's ok! Tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning! Set positive goals for yourself one day at a time. We all have frustrating days. My hubby calls that "life on life's terms", (whatever that is:wink2: ) Be strong, we are all here pulling for you! :console:

[Greeneyetiger]

Thanks to everyone for your support!!!!!!!!
It means so much to me. I am back on track now. I am calling April 24th to schedule another fill. I can't go back until 4 weeks have past since my last fill. So I will have to struggle through until then. Now I will be hopeing the 3rd fill works.

[NotSoFunny]

girl i am going in for another fill today, and i still have not found the perfect sweet spot. it takes time... but you can do this. and pulease.... dunkin donuts still knows my name. i treat myself to a maple bar (most of the time just half) sometimes. its ok to have some treats every now and then. if you deprive yourself too much you will find yourself gorging later on. so do not make yourself crazy over this.

sometimes things happen in life. it is normal for you to feel a little out of control during that time. do not worry about it. just know that you gained 2 pounds. that is more likely from water retention than 2 candy bars and a donut. 2 pounds is 7000 calories. while those things are not good, it does not add up to 7000 calories. 2 pounds in a quick period of time is water weight, and i know that when i am stressed i retain.

and do NOT pay attention to other people's fill amounts. there are people with the 4cc band that have great restriction at 1cc. some have great restriction at 5cc's. its adjustable because EVERYONE is different.

[Greeneyetiger]

girl i am going in for another fill today, and i still have not found the perfect sweet spot. it takes time... but you can do this. and pulease.... dunkin donuts still knows my name. i treat myself to a maple bar (most of the time just half) sometimes. its ok to have some treats every now and then. if you deprive yourself too much you will find yourself gorging later on. so do not make yourself crazy over this.

sometimes things happen in life. it is normal for you to feel a little out of control during that time. do not worry about it. just know that you gained 2 pounds. that is more likely from water retention than 2 candy bars and a donut. 2 pounds is 7000 calories. while those things are not good, it does not add up to 7000 calories. 2 pounds in a quick period of time is water weight, and i know that when i am stressed i retain.

and do NOT pay attention to other people's fill amounts. there are people with the 4cc band that have great restriction at 1cc. some have great restriction at 5cc's. its adjustable because EVERYONE is different.

Thanks Funny,

I probaby am retaining some water weight because when I was stressed last week I didn't drink my water amount that I normally do so I am probably holding onto it. I am drinking more again now. I didn't know 2lbs was 7000 cals...my goodness.

Thanks so much!

[Belinda L]

I sounded like you this week-end and the beginning of this week. I had my first fill of 2cc and was expecting to feel full all the time. I was able to eat as much as I did before and was still hungry. I called and told my doc and he told me if I'd wait a week and it was still not doing any better I could come in and get another fill. I went in Tues 4/10 and he checked to make sure the 2cc was still there - said that he was going to put in another cc - then when he was through he said that he changed his mind and was trying 1.5 cc for a total of 3.5cc -- I think he was second guessing himself because he had me drink the usual water to make sure I could - made me drink while he listened to make sure he could hear it - made me sit there to make sure I didn't feel sick -- then still warned me if I threw up within the next 30 min or so to come back up and let him take some out. I ate lunch and supper - more than I should have and still didn't feel any restrictions - got up Wed and decided that I would go liquid for awhile to see if it would help anything - maybe lower my appetite - about half way through the day I realized that I wasn't hungry - I'm not hungry today and am making myself eat my protein and water. I am so excited. Everyone told me to just be patient but it's hard - but, you know what this is a smart group and they really know what they're talking about - as they say "They've been there and done that" Hey, just look at the doughnuts and candy as an Easter treat and start back like it's brand new -- hey, and look - you are already a quarter of the way to your goal weight. I really wish I could say that. You are not a failure!!!!!

[stac1982]

Hey Tiger. . .I'm so sorry you had a bad day. But it is just that, a day. Pull yourself back up and do better the next day. I am just starting this journey, but I know that I will have those days. The key is for us to just get it our of our system and then start over. I hope you feel better today! Keep on working hard!

[factory-girl]

I promise the band will work for you. You are just like I was, in a hurry. It takes a little time, it will happen.

[kebsa]

All I can say is ditto, to the comments from all the others. do not get into the frame of mind where you beat yourself up for being BAD. you are human, humans are fallble. we cannot change ehat has happened jsut how we respond to it and where we go from here- if you focus on that you will feel in control whereas if you focus on the slip you feel out of control- same situation but 2 very different slants. even if this jsut helps to identify emotionaly eating- it is actually a postve! something you can build on and learn from.
As for taking awhile for things to get working. I will not bore you with my long story but I have been banded since july 2001, i reached my heaviset weight in november 2006- yep I gained weight!!!!!!! snce then by re evaluating how i was suing the band, how the badn fit into my medcal problems and also how my way of thinking ( self defeatist, failure etc etc) things have turned around- i have lost 85 pounds now and know I can lose the remaining 135 or so that I need to - i have no doubt now. so as factory girl sad, it will work, it can take time and be frustratng because it it jsut one aspect of all this but t will work- between this baord for support and the band as my watchdog i know I can succeed jsut as we all can and will

[LapBandit]

You are so totally normal! I try my darndest but I have "moments" as well. I was upset one day last week and went right into pre-band mode...I ate almost an entire can of mixed nuts and a king-size candy bar in about 15 minutes. No lie. How the hell is a bandster supposed to even be able to physically do that?! But, I did and it didn't make me feel like I even stretched my pouch at all. Now...what I did was wrong. It was an emotional response and I felt really guilty. I actually called a friend sobbing over it. And the next day the scale said I gained two pounds but I know that to gain two pounds would've meant I had to consume 7000 extra calories and that can of nuts and chocolate didn't equal 7000 calories. So, I picked myself up and let the water weight relieve itself in a day or two.

My point is...we ALL mess up from time to time. Nobody is perfect. It feels like crap when we mess up but it feels great when we fix it by the next meal time and start doing it right again!

[Neal R.]

Like the others said, we all have our moments. I started a thread about my bad weekend too. The key is to start fresh and I find it much easier to do that since being banded.